JG0614's blog: "Why"

What is it that we fear or seen that we cannot shake off or give up? We cant seem to shake off those things that we have seen in our lifetimes. We have given up things that we shouldn't have and yet still have a chance to obtain them, like a love and a family, maybe an opportunity to make them come true really does exist What i'm saying is, if you have someone that you're in love with, stick with them, never mind their past faults, pase relationships, ect. just love them for who they are and what they mean to you. It might be their eyes or smile, maybe their spirit or their heart, but keep in mind what reason you love them. Maybe with time, devotion, and sacrifice, everything wil one day be well worth it, as long as you're true, faithful, and believe in each other, when the day comes to put two hearts as one, the day that they when they beat together as one, the day they will finally be unified as one soul, everything we would have put into a relationship would be solidified by two words, meaning not only the birth of a new life together, but a bond that will never be broken

Let me take a minute to analyze the details of what's happening in our daily lives, on one side we're loved so much by our family and friends, on the other side we're hampred by by nuisances to those that just seem to see us fail. But we all have someone special that we love and yet feel a little something for an ex-love. To some we can no longer do what we want because of the fact that we are at a place where our opinions doesn't matter anymore, we have accepted it and make it seem pointless now, but we figured that's a part of life, so why does it feel that we can't say what is in our hearts and minds now? We feel like we're strapped in a corner and stuck with nowhere to go, no refuge, and can't get out of it. The thing is you reap what you sow in ome cases, At times we wonder if we coul move on with our lives, We're at a crossroads in which we don't know our place in the world, so why are we grabbed into someone elses? we all have to persue our own goals b/c destiny is just that, one day we can all be 1 Step Closer to realizing our own footprints in life.

Day and night i think about you from sunup to sundown, i feel your presence, but i only cling to the air wishing it was you. I miss your smile, the way you walk, the way you talk, i miss when you cry, when you're happy, when your sad, when you're laughing, and even when i feel your pain, but yet when when you say those three words, not only do they mean something, but we feel that we can be together. No matter what, i want to be the one to do you right, making love to you the way you deserve to be loved in every aspect, letting myself be free while joining you hand in hand. Nothing i would love more than to take your hand as my wife, to love, honor, obey, and cherish until the day i lay and god calls me to be with him. I've seen and heard of you prior pain, sadness, and frustration. that time has to go now, you've seen and heard of my past in a nutshell and i know you want that to end as well, so if we wnat to be together what's stopping us now?, age, distance, race, background?, none of that matters to me at all, true love comes from within and can outlast all indifferences in any relationship. The only thing i can give you is my heart, undying love, attention and soul, all that just for you. my love can i be the one to Cater 2 You?

Ok let me get this straight.....Of all things that happened, how did i come to be where and what i am now? is it my time to be a leaderor am i still binding time? I wonder if my child was alive or if i was married, or even if i was still in the military, what would my life have been then? But what about the opportunities that i had, would i went to college on a scholarship if it would present itself again?, God help me find myself, i need your guidance. I need an angel, a love, reclaim my honor that i once so proudly help that was taken away from me in my life, Have i become one with the same people that tried everything to destroy me and my dreams? All my life, i've faced adversity and yet i wonder if i've failed my family and myself for some have given their lives so willingly for? Am i that willing to do the same for the generations after me or am i too scared to leave my own footprints and destiny in this world to be remembered as an ordinary person?