it would be awsumm for my best frend to drive out here from colorado and take me with him wherevr
i wouldnt care wher he was goin...i would just be thankful that he took me away from here...away from my mom...my grendparents, my life and all the pressures of it. im sure alot more pressures would come my way but they would be different ones
hmm, i wonder...i feel as if ive changed in some way. hav i fallen so far that i cant evn try to get back up again?? i pray that i havent. that makes me feel so alone. evryone alredy knows how their life is gonna be, whether good or bad. my frends kno their gonna go to college and w/e they want. sid(best frend) says he'll just pretty much go to community college(maybe) and then be left havin sexx and gettin high the rest of his life...but me...i need and sort of want to go to college and make somethin of myself...well iduno
i still wonder wat sid would say if i told him these things...i wonder if he would still care about me....
if anyone cares, besides my mom, let me kno
cuz i feel as if noone really cares...they just say they do to make me feel better or just cuz it sounds good. who knows
"plz believe me
that the world deceives me
dont stand me up, just leave me
i hav fallen again
this is the end
pain redefined"
love that song
its pretty much how i feel rite now
oh how i pray its not the end...
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