(This blog is about my current status, I am an evolving person, one that wants a lot more out of life that I used to. And I am finally getting to the point where I won't settle.)
Can I keep evolving
In Kansas I would be hung
Evolution never happened
But can it for this woman
Can I never turn back
Into who I used to be
Can I be a better me
Will evolution help me
I can take a compliment finally
I can meet people
I can hold a conversation
I even walk on two legs
Can he be strong enough for the both of us
Would he be able to handle
Seeing me cry
Hearing my parents keep yelling at me
If I keep evolving
Being unwilling to settle
Would you be ok with that
Would you still like me
Evolution helps me get up in the morning
Evolution has made me who I am today
I am nice, I don't yell, I don't fly off the handle
I am losing weight rapidly all thanks to Evolution
Evolution taught me how to handle a knife
It helped me learn how to cook a standing rib roast perfectly
It helped me get out of situations
It helps me deal with my parents
Evolution has been amazing to me
It has never let me down
It, as it is supposed to do, keeps changing
Evolution helps me open my eyes
My wants are different on a weekly basis
I will not settle for someone
I will not allow myself to fall from grace
Is that ok with evolution?
I want someone who wants me
I want someone who likes me evolving
I want someone who says things like
"well it's working keep up the good job"
Evolution you are amazing
You have replaced fear in me
You have made me want so much more
You have made me see things more clearly
So if I keep evolving
Would he still want me
Would he be confident with my new body
Would he carry my picture to show off to people?
I'm evolving as I type
I'm getting to like this change
I'm getting to like seeing things this way
I'm getting to like walking on two instead of four
I miss fear at times
I hear evolution laugh at it sometimes
I hold evolution close while I sleep
It keeps me warm, and safe and comfortable.
There are times I wish evolution would go away
Than where would I be?
Would I be the same fat girl I was a year ago?
Would I be willing to settle, when that is the last thing I want to do?
