Is what I long for beyond my reach?
Do I aim too high for what I am good enough for?
Living the dream you're told you should live
Because it is your own. But getting to the end,
You wake up and realize this dream was a nightmare.
Your heart's still breaking, slowly dying
Watching everyone else fall flat to their faces.
Or worse, get their dream that isn't a nightmare.
But why does it hurt more to see those succeed?
I am supposed to be happy, but I can not.
It is a facade for them.
Even if I cannot be happy, should I not be happy for them?
Or is it because I envy so much that I cannot be happy?
Do I simply desire their happiness? Their dreams?
How could I want something that I know I cannot have?
Why do I feel as if I cannot continue if I do not have it?
So many questions, so few answers, so little truths.
