Inside the cold's blog: "Musings of within."

Winter

White are the fields
and gray is the lightless sky

The air it burns
with violent cold and cruel silence

And all alone
the wind cuts through to reach the bone

The driving snow
growing heavier and deep

I have fought this war of cold
and I cant beae this anymore

I have struggled in this winter far too long...
I have struggled in thi swinter far too long...

The bitterness
makes every breath so painful

The distant sounds
music of the angry wind

Abandoned souls fall frozen to earth
a pallid shroud of sorrow falls

On an ice covered landscape of lonliness...
so I drag myself through endless lands of hurt...

I cannot bear it's too cold
my body wants to let go
I cannot carry on with this
The unforgiving wind
it tears away at my skin
to let the winter inside

It's endless
season of mourning
it's endless
season of mourning
it's endless
snow is still blinding
growing deeper
and deeper still

I REMAIN
I REMAIN
FREEZING HERE
I REMAIN
HERE

I cannot bear it's too cold
my body wants to let go
I cannot carry on with this
The unforgiving wind
it tears away at my skin
to let the winter inside

The winter burns... burns...
The winter burns... burns inside

Come the Autumn

Come the autumn
And seasons turn
Come the autumn
And fires burn
For the harvest
Light is shed
Come the harvest
Come the dead


Come and take my hand and have a walk with me
Through this night of lementful reverie
Graves are adorned by the lights of candles
And carved pumpkin faces of misery
Children in the streets with their tricks and their treats
While bond fires burn like funeral pyres
Songs could be through the wind at night
Sung by ungodly choirs

So follow me into all hallows
Where we all go
To fall on our knees and give praise to the shadows
So comes the pain in the back of your throat
When you scream for the dawn that will not rise again


Come the autumn
Comes the cold
By the fire
Tales are told
For the harvest
Prayers are said
Come the autumn
Come the dead



On this night our fallen
return to their souls
Wear your masks to
hide your precious face of flesh

They want to get inside of you
claw their way into you
They want to get inside of you
find a way to make you sream
They want to get inside of you
and wear the flesh again
They want to get inside of you
on this night be born again

They want to get inside of you
put on your mask
They want to get inside of you
hide your flesh
They want to get inside of you
hide your flesh
They want to get insdie of you
hide your flesh

So follow me into all hallows
Where we all go
To fall on our knees and give praise to the shadows
So comes the pain in the back of your throat
When you scream for the dawn that will not rise again

Come the autumn
comes the cold
come the autumn
comes the cold...

Wretch

Look
Look at
Look at me again please

I
I am
I'm still on my knees
Poor wretched me

So now I see the way you feel
And now I feel the wounds won't heal (never heal)
Just close your eyes am I better now
Keep them closed
I've been damned again and I don't know
Poor wretched me

Re
Reject
Reject me again

Can't
Can't you
Can't you see why I give in
Poor wretched me

So now I see the way you feel
And now I feel the wounds won't heal (never heal)
Just close your eyes am I better now
Keep them closed
I've been damned again and I don't know how
POOR WRETCHED ME

Beaten, abused, denied, unloved

Cast out
Why?
Spit at
Why?
Ugly
Why?
Why me?
Why

So now I see the way you feel
And now I feel the wounds won't heal
Just close your eyes am I better now (NO)
KEEP THEM CLOSED
I've been damned again and I don't know how
POOR WRETCHED ME

Why, why, why, why can't I be anything but me!

Its not my tears you see

that make you know im sad.

Its when i laugh 

When i hear your with someone new,

Just to feed your urges,

When you can ignore me and all my strides

I feel laughed at, snubbed, discarded,

Its just me now

lonley

lost

laughing

me and my knife lots of plans.

laughing.

a man once said

rip a mans heart out

and deal with the monster you create

creation?

no

a spider creates.

dancing in mid air as it

spins its web.

you dont creat you break

you discard.

soooo another cut to the wrist

another laugh escaped.

in the darkness here

i feel loved.

what could happen should i get my way?

how many ways can one make another suffer

in my darkness youll find no light

no mercy

no love

Perhaps while you are with him you will think of me.

and perhaps i may have to leave a mark first. 

is it to tight?

can you feel the lack of wind?

harder?

tighter?

allow me to pull you in as i pull out your life.

the gagging is of little concern

the rope will losen.

its the look of yoru eyes giving into the darkness.

and as you fade i releave and your breath.

you look amazed surprised shocked and dissappointed. 

do you crave death?

do you crave to be breathless?

I grab again discoloration returning.

eyes lulling back again is it to much? can you still hear 

hear me as you fade away?

Hear me as you kiss death?

are you breathless? then i release.

Your body it shakes it quivers 

and yet you yearn for more? 

pulling tight i refuse to release. 

garggling sound as you fade

fade

then its dark. and you are breathless.

Kneel, a simple command followed by simple  movment.

I can circle this being like preditor to prey

like lover to loved

slave to master

I can hear the breathing as she kneels face down 

her pale white skin shivering

not of cold

nor of fear

anticipation

"please" its a whisper I hear often 

as I circle this pale white body

It follows the request 

Pain Pleasure torment love.

This being in wich I may do as i please

Pain pleasure torment love

a lash with the whip hard and sift a reminder 

a reminder of things to come

"please," she whispers

a whisper i hear often

It follows the request

Pain pleasure torment love

These are the things

the things she comes for

the things she craves and needs

Desverves and desires

these are the things i will give but nothing more

pain 

pleasure

torment 

love.

Rope meeds whip 

Gag meets scream 

wax meets skin

sweat meets tears 

breath gets lost

eyes become blind

PAIN PLEASURE TORMENT LOVE!

but in the end we remain alone.

till the day comes

when her white pale skin enters my place and a simple command is heard.

Kneel.