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I have found a part of myself in your eyes, 
in your words, in your smile,
I miss the days I had seen there , hidden in those eyes, How could this be?
That the heavens could take you away from me?
Where does it say, that you had to be taken from my life?
That the days that fallow could not be filled with smiles and laughter of needed happiness?
Why must I endure all the pain alone and with no way out?
I need you here, 
to take my hand, 
to lead my out of the shadows....



All I could do that day was cry many tears..
I would never let you go, nor do I even to this day.
I will not agree with the heaven's choice,
I had only wanted what I saw in your face of endless love, and care,
The face of love, face of many things, 
The face that held so many dreams of the future..



I will not let you go...... 
I hold you in my heart so close...
I just wanted to be with you for another moment from the first...
So... many moments that I have longed for with you...
Why must I live in this darkness with out you by my side?



Why must these tears keep coming from deep within..
My heart aches with the memories from that day,
The day you took your life...
Did you not see what I had in hopes of a life together..
I no longer ... hold those hopes, nothing but shattered dreams... 
From a book that shall never be finished... 
No happy ending for this chapter.. 



For that day was the end of your dreams and hopes of anything, 
What was it that lead you to do such a reckless event?
Must you have taken that last fatal step ..
The way you had fell in the sky, 
Your face without emotion,
Like it was at peace with your ending..


I don't think you even saw me ...
There I stood , helpless to your need, 
I was too late, for rescuing you from that ending fate...


So I stand here today... years later... I stand here crying at the same time I did when you had seemed to have vanished from my life,
What was a matter of minutes seemed like a life time ending in my eyes..
I still stare at the full moon and scattered stars, looking for that one that is holding your soul... 
Wishing.. 
Hoping...
That some day you will come to me in my sleep and hold me again, 
To wipe the tears from my face as they fall to the darkened ground and fade in to the grass.. 
Waiting for that day when I will be given the change to see you again for all eternity ..