404 name not found's blog: "Poetry ... "

It was a day of happiness and sorrow, For it was the day we had a few laughs , Your words of how you longed for me to say hello,The day came and that was today, Yet little did any of us know, my first hello was my last.
I was waiting for you, There I sat, alone on the bench, Looking in the distance to see if you were coming. It was then that I had a feeling of pain..My heart dropped so low, it might as well fell out of my body along with my soul.I suddenly heard a voice whisper....  I'm sorry. ....I didn't know who said it at first. . .
Until I got up and couldn't even move, After a few moments that seems to have lasted a life time of pian fades away from my body,I run. I run, and don't stop.I can feel you need me or some kind of help. So I run to the only place I can think of where you would hide. 
.....It was that first day that I saw you, at your place you call the shadows.You would go there to think, and at times to hang with friends. I walked by there every day from school.Yet I could never find the courage to say hello.Though I would day dream of you and your mysterious ways and looks,Your long, soft like silk strait brown hair, that would hide that face of flawless beauty.Not many would see your face, yet it was always on my mind, what gorgeous eyes you have when you would look up at me,I had never imagined that such beauty would give me the time of day. . let alone to allow me to steal a look into those eyes...
Those eyes, filled with such a rich colored green, Your smile , oh , what a smile I must say...You would never show emotion , let alone show any kind of happiness.But that one day, that was today, not so long ago, I said hello, And you stopped right then and there,To look into my eyes as if they were showing you a life that caught your attention,At that time, in that moment, I could feel as if I knew you all my life, as if you had that something I have always wanted in a lover.It was then, as we were about to let go with our gaze, Your hand coming up to pull back your hair just a long enough to show me your face, Those lips parting a bit to  say hello , and then to form the most breath taking smile that I have ever seen. It was just a little smile but none the less a smile, one that I will never forget. A smile that was ment for me. I return with only what came natural to me and my shyness,I gave back a smile, along with a nervous giggle, as a my face begins to redden My stomach filling with butterflies, and how I long to tell you how I feel you are who I am have been waiting for...
....That dream of you and I , have come to an end, for now I see that my place in your life was to make you smile, That you could find one person, someone who could let you show how you really are just a sweet and loving dearest friend. Even if we didn't speak much,  if anyone could see what I saw when looking into your eyes, they would see how lonely, and empty your heart was.So filled with emotion, yet ripped of it as days passed you by, The longing to open up to a friend , who has nothing more to offer then her time to listen to your thoughts of life, and all reality as you see it. . .That person, came to be me. . . . 
I have seen many things... and heard many screams... yet had never seen someone I love, meet his or her death as I did for you. . .I was still running , and yet it seemed as if I couldn't get close enough to you ,Watching as you stood there, Up high on top of that water tower,I could only see that it was you from your long hair blowing in the wind, as  you began to turn around ,There I was, at the bottom and screaming for you, begging for you to stop ,  in hopes that I couldn't you to think for one more minute about what you were about to doYet my words were not strong enough, my voice not loud enough ,My existence to you, not noticeable enough,My love and care for you , not worth enough,...Not worth enough as to keep you safe, To never see your smile , or hear  your voice, your endless beauty never died, just your body came to rest, and so I hold that look deep in my mind, and your company in my heart, For some day , another day, I shall be able to witness your flawless beauty once  again...so for now, look down on me and witness from time to time a smile upon this face, is just for you... my sweet lost love . .