The Enchanting Goddess FuOwned By's blog: "Random Thoughts"

Not that anyone really reads these anymore since the Fubar changes, but thought I'd write it anyway. Am I worth being a Godfather (mother)? Should I try for it? Would anyone help if I did? Been wondering about the Fubar Tops list to. I'm not willing to do as so many others have, but is it possible to be different and still reach there?

Good Night my dear friends!!! Have sweet and sexy dreams tonight. :D

Lately my horoscopes have been about right on. I'm talking about the one they show on here in your profile set up. It's been weird because I've hardly ever seen one be right on. I don't normally read them first thing in the morning, but later for more entertainment purposes. Today it says a coworker and I will get into a heated discussion. We DID!!! It was also loud and heated as a joke to scare another coworker, but the topic of it was real. Man, let's see how much longer these things are going to be right.

I know many could care less, but some are asking why I say I am hurting and things like that. This morning I said Good Bye to my daughters for 9 months. You ask why? My ex was an asshole, ok he still is. I couldn't take being married to him going through the shit I did, so I wanted out. I was mainly a stay at home mother, I wanted my girls. He refused to pay me anything over what the courts would order for child support if I left. He said if he had to he would lie to come up with reason to not pay spousal support. At that time he even put out a false claim about a guy I talked to ONCE, to try and bring him up on Adultery charges, just to prove he would do what he had to. I had no job, no degree, nothing. I would not have been able to support myself and my girls at that time. I couldn't take being there anymore, so we came up with an agreement. I signed a waiver to his retirement for when he retires out of the army, I agreed to not go for spousal support, BUT I wanted the girls back after 4 yrs. He was deployed for 3 yrs before this time. Our youngest daughter was going on 3 yrs old. He was a loving father, I give him that much, so this allowed him time with them. It was to also allow me time to get on my feet. I wanted to go to school, but that didn't work out either, but I do have a job. I also fell deeply in love, had twins, and got married. Next yr is my 4 yrs and I am more then ready. This is the Christmas I don't get them. I don't get them during the breaks I'm supposed to, because he comes up with the excuse there isn't enough time they are out of school to travel here. They live in TX, I'm in VA. My 4 yrs is up this coming summer since he wants to go by when the decree was finalized, not when the agreement was made. I get them for 1 yr straight before he gets his visitations, unless he wants to push his breaks he doesn't allow me to. Then he gets them for the summers. I can handle not having them for 3 months a hell of a lot better then 9. I miss them so bad!!!! I do not feel complete without them.....

Have you ever thought about how much jealousy is a huge problem in the world? It is the main reason for so much hatred. I know I see it all the time. And for what? There is no reason for it. I have women jealous over me thinking I am trying to steal their man. Uhm, hello, I am just a flirt and a tease, THAT'S IT. My friendship with people worth more to me then to ruin it over sex. There is only one man I have been with for almost four years now. He takes care of my needs damn good, no need for anyone else. I have men jealous of me because I know their women better then they do. Damn, take the time out of your selfish schedule, and talk to her. Actually get to know her and her needs!!!! I have a co-worker jealous because I can not only do my job, but her's too. PAY ATTENTION!!!!!!!! Might actually learn what you are doing wrong. Also, quit being so mad at the world thinking everyone is after you. Some people are actually trying to help you. Now just open your eyes and see that. So much negativity and hatred, for what? The Green Eyed Monster? Nothing is actually responsible but yourself. You control that through your own emotions and actions. Nuff Said on that.....

Hubby has been blogging about his horoscopes. I thought mine today was neat. "Playing it safe doesn't have to equal boring -- you're living proof of that. You perform your everyday tasks with such zest and vigor that the people around you are inspired. You lead (and teach) by example." I hear this all the time. LOL I am the entertainment at work, helps make it easier to deal with the day. But, I couldn't do it without the love of my family and friends. They are the ones who inspire me the most to keep going. I do hope they know how much they mean to me.

Well, I'm pretty much all out of pics to post. I don't have many on my own computer, my husband keeps them on his. I always have something negative about pics of me, so I barely keep them. *sigh* Can't decide if I should just take more, or leave them as is now.