I can't take it, the more I think about it, the more I just truthfully can't take anymore. I am who I am. I am who I am for a reason and what's going on with me right now, has to stop now. So regardless what I say, things can't keep bothering as much as they are right now. I'm sorry Beth, but unless you show what you may or may not want and truthfully upfront tell me, I am going to back off and disappear in the shadows til you realize what you truly want, other than that, you may never possibly speak to who you got to know... I am going to do what I can to make sure that part of me doesn't show again and I'm sorry if you regret meeting it in the first place, but that part of me truly does care for you and still would do anything for you... But New Year, New Start, VERY New Beginning...