XJimmyVonJamesX's blog: "Lost in the Dark"

It was something akin to that feeling of clarity right before death, I was staring off the precipice I could almost imagine that one more step in any direction would certainly be the last. Looking over the edge I think I secretly longed for the plunge and in the back of my thoughts was always her.

 I looked around and rubbed my eyes I had been going somewhere but just the idea of it seemed so long ago since... I was clearly having trouble yet I was powerless to stop the current any more then a fish could change the direction of the stream, I was free to swim yet stuck within the confines of my own prison.  

"You and your mental ramblings I do wonder" ... I laughed. "you love every minute and you know it!" The couple walking on the other side of the street and an old lad.y walking her dog heard my rant into thin air and smiled.  as was her fashion the object of my speech whisked me away into thin air.

It was an odd feeling every time, a weightless disintegration of being, descending into nothing and becoming something again all in an instant of shadows. every time she was there a connected feeling of being one amid the darkness. 

Again I feel the ache inside my chest, the longing for something more then what was destined to be, or was it so? Could a man re-write his fate? was there such a thing at all? perhaps it was luck, fate, chance or even a higher power but in that moment looking over the edge I knew the truth not fate, but the undeniable truth of it all was only that I was incontinent with the situation in total. 

I could feel the wind and the cold bite of her in my brain and through my neck, falling... draining, the life that once was stripped away layer by layer being replaced with something more, the burning to the core struck me with the weight of a sledgehammer plummeting into the darkness I screamed a silent scream of ecstasy and pain.