all my life i have thought to myself ... what are you going to do next...
what is going to come next in this life that is so randomly delt out to you ?
i feel like i will never know what is exactly going to happen... and then the phone
rings... someone tells you that you are going to have to do this ... wear this ...
act like this... I was not ready for this kind of transaction in my life ... i wasnt
ready to become so dead to the world around me.
i think to myself sometime ... what if this happen ... what if that didnt happen, would
i still be in the situation that i am in ? i think not .. by my personal belief.i feel like
was delt my hand as becoming a failure before i even knew it. i was raised to be the way
that i am like it or not i am and always will be.. just, me ...
sometimes i want to sit and scream "I WANT OUT!" i want out of this ... life that im living
so irresponceably. i want some one else to control it .. tell me what i am and am not to do
maybe that will teach me. so yeah here i am.. learning from my mistakes .. unfortunatly ..
im having o live with them in the worst way EVER! with my parents right there by my side to
make up some rule or more rules and say that that is their law and not to break it along
with not being able to live my life
i think that i need to sleep... my head hurts .... so until tomorrow..
