No one knows where the road they are on will end or what turns they might have to take. Driving down this road is not always easy or what you thought it would be. Take one day at a time plan for what it is you really want, be ready for it never to happen. They say what don't kill us can only make us stronger, if that's true I would be strong, here is something most people close to me don't know, I am not strong, I am in fact weak I am in pain I feel the same pain we all hate to admit we go through, I am not all there at times and I indeed and a person of passion, but my passion can only give so much compassion to those who hurt me and stab me in the back. I love each and everyone person I am close to, I hold my friends close to my heart but that might not say much because I wear my heart on my sleeve. I am always the one that paints a smile on my face and says everything is fine, truth be told its all a lie. I am easy to fall and easy to crush so for those of you who hurt me crushed me don't take to much pride in that cuz its just that easy I am trusting and I believe the words people tell me, I give my heart to anyone that makes me believe they care for me, but how much longer can I be this person and says I am fine when all I feel is this unbarring pain. People want to play so many games have we forgot that the people we play feel just as we do or have I had it wrong this whole time and there is some people that feel no shame no pain and will step on anyone and everyone to make themselves feel better? So walk on me and hurt me some more the day will come when I get tired and turn my back to you and to all that have hurt me. What's most sad is there is one person, I have in mind as I am telling you all this and that person will never even read this, not because he just don't care he don't even have this stupid ass myspace bullshit. I guess to just be able to say these things might help make me feel better but in the real the one person I need to say it to I don't even know how to talk to. Oh well right I mean who on here even gives a fuck. Life is what it is and this is just one of them turns I never meant to take and now that I have I need to find my way back. This time no words are going to help me, I have been through so damn much these past few years that I unfolded these past few months. I have took these turns that I cant hid from my scars show me that everyday, to some you know what I mean to the rest use your mind. So as for this rainy weekend I shall drink a bottle or 2 take some pills and dance it away sing in the rain as if I were not to live another day! I will get over this to! How is that one saying, this to shall pass, I sure hope that's true. To all that has been there for me, thank you! Real friends are hard to come by and I love each and everyone of you. To those who have not maybe because they just don't know how down I am and took the time to read this thank you for letting me share my pain. Feel free to say anything you please good or bad, it at least shows some people do pay attention to the friends they say they have. Have a great weekend and live life as if there is no tomorrow because we never really know what tomorrow will bring.
