I'm tired but don't want to crawl into my bed. He is not there so there is almost no point in my mind to going to sleep. I want to hold something other than my dog while I sleep. I never was held by my ex, never wanted to sleep that close to him. But with you, it is the best feeling to fall asleep with your arm around me. We switch positions so we hold each other equally during the night. I enjoy that the most about sleeping next to you. I enjoy breathing in your smell all night while I sleep. having your hair touch my face or my neck, or my hair. I like feeling you breethe as I breethe. I watch your chest go up and down in a rythm that is perfect. Your hands grasp my hands at night as you twitch, and move, I find it the cutest thing, to watch you move like that. I like how soft your feet are, how much hair you have on your upper chest, and how you tell me to stop trying to get you hard, becuase you are at that point too tired. You think my middle of the night want to get down is sexy but would prefer a full nights sleep. So here I am thinking only about you, wishing you were here, in my bed ready for me to join you, but on sunday you will be in my bed, you will own my bed, you will fall asleep to my smell every night of the week regardless of if I am there or not. It puts a smile on my face to know that you will sleep better on my mattress, with or without me. You deserve a good nights rest, and because of that I am willing to make a sacrifice.
