I HAVE COME TO MY OWN CONCLUSION THAT HATE IS ALL AROUND ME!! THE MORE I TRY TO BE A PERSON IM REALLY NOT MAKES IT BETTER. I REALLY HAVE LIKED SOMEONE FOR THE LAST 4 YEARS COME TO FIND OUT IS NOTHING AS I HAVE SEEN IN MY MIND. FRUSTRATING. I TRUELY BELIEVE THIS KIND OF RELATIONSHIP I HAVE ALWAYS WANTED SO MUCH TO HAVE IS ALL IN MY MIND AN AT THE PRINCES PALACE WHERE CINDERELLA LIVES. I KNOW THERE ARE OTHERS OUT THERE THINK THIS EXIST, BUT IM JUST TRYIN TO VENT AN GET PAST THE FAIRYTALE WORLD I HAVE LIVED IN FOR SO LONG. MUSIC REALLY IS MY BOYFREIND I SHOULD JUST STAY WITH THAT HURTING DOES NOT EXIST THERE. AN I TEND TO DO ALL THE RIGHT THINGS WITH IT. I DONT FEEL PRESSURED, AN I TRUST MUSIC NOT TO HURT ME OR RUN AWAY. MEN ON THE OTHER HAND ARE REALLY GOOD AT BOTH OF THEM. IM TIRED OF LOOKING, MY HEART IS ALWAYS BROKE, PAST THE POINT OF ANY FIXING. THIS PERSON HAS ALWAYS KNOWN HOW I HAVE FELT. YET I STILL LET MYSELF BE HURT. SO I LET GO NOW. IM NOT MEANT TO BE WITH ANYONE.. SO IM NOT WORTHY. REJECTION IS THE GREATEST APHRODESAC!!! MUSIC GETS ME THROUGH ANYTHING AN I WILL HAVE THAT FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE. I NEED NOTHING ELES OR WILL I ASK FOR IT.
