September 19, 2006 - Tuesday
equivilent exchange ....
hello kiddies .... and welcome to another installment from the kingdom of shit ....
todays episode is called "Equivilent Exchange" ... now for those of you who do not know this belif .... let me school you here the law of equivilent enchange goes something like this ... to gain something, something of equil value must be given up. ... now some people swear by this law .... for some people its given them truly happy lives .... there the ones we'll call the shiney happy people... well from my experiences ... i'll tell you equivilent exchange has given me nothing in return but shit and heart break. for me all i do is give give give .... and what do i get in exchange? well lets see here .... broken heart after broken heart. its straight up bullshit ... i have given so much of myself ... and i get nothing in return .... you know if the saying is true ... and for each relationship you enter into you give that person a piece of your heart ... well i belive all thats left in my chest is a gaping black hole ..... a void .. nothingness .... thats what equivilent exchage has given me, i'm not even sure if i have the ability to love again ... you know i sit back and think were i'll be in 10 years .... and its not a very pretty picture i seenot pretty at all. i see a person .... who is void of all human contact except for the 8 hours a day he goes to work, i see this person barricading himself inside his dark house, the walls painted black ... the windows covered so the sunlight cant reach him, he cant see out, nor can any one look in. this person had friends at one time but, the more depressed he got, the more he shut ev ery one out, his friends finally got sick of tring to break down the barracade he has built around himself and moved on. this person sits at home and every night he looks at the alter of suicide he has built for him self ... on the right side lays a pile of razor blades .... brand new still sealed, with the cardboard protector around the blade, then over on the left lays a loaded handgun , even night before bed this man stares at the impliments of suicide he has speard out on the alter and he thinks to himself just how easy it would be to end it, end all the pain and suffering. untill one day .... the pain and suffering finally overwelm the man and he ends it all ....
yes kiddies .... now i know that isnt a pretty picture i have painted for you today .... but that is it, that is a page out of the book of my life i have entitled the kingdom of shit ... well kiddies thats all for today .... next time .... if you all promise to be ungood little kiddies .... i might give you a very special treat .... the secret ritual perfected by me to kill a god .....
well untill next time kiddies have a missrable time ...
Currently watching :
Trinity Blood: Chapter 1
Release date: 26 September, 2006
