Fubar Blog Posts 3

As The Numbness Sets In
This weekend meant more to me then anyone could have imagined. It was one year since I broke up with my ex fience and his birthday. All I wanted was to be around people that cared about me and have some fun to reassure myself that what I did was right. So I had a full weekend planned which I never make plans. Just simple little things to keep me distracted and feel loved. That is what I needed most to feel loved and cared about. Instead I spent part of the weekend on the side of the interstate and the rest at a rest stop sleeping in my vehicle. Feeling lonely and scared. It was like the world kept turning around me and I could see it but I was still moving still. Finally something broke inside of me. Nothing seems to matter. I have lost all hope that things will ever be good. I shall never know what it is like to be happy. I am not the type of person to make a permanent solution that might be worrying you right now. I just can't do it, it isn't and option. But ju

Vampyres
Vampires (archaic spelling: vampyres) are mythological or folkloric creatures, typically held to be the re-animated corpses of human beings and said to subsist on human and/or animal blood (hematophagy). They are also the frequent subject of cinema and fiction, albeit fictional vampires have acquired a set of traits distinct from those of folkloric vampires (see Traits of vampires in fiction). In folklore, the term usually refers to the blood-sucking living of Eastern European legends, but it is often extended to cover similar legendary creatures in other regions and cultures. Vampire characteristics vary widely between different traditions. Some cultures have stories of non-human vampires, such as animals like bats, dogs, and spiders. Vampirism is the practice of drinking blood from a person/animal. In folklore and popular culture, the term generally refers to a belief that one can gain supernatural powers by drinking human blood. The historical practice of vampirism can generally

Birthday
Your Birthdate: July 23 You're not good at any one thing, and that's the problem. You're good at so much - you never know what to do. Change is in your blood, and you don't stick to much for long. You are destined for a life of travel and fun. Your strength: Your likeability Your weakness: You never feel satisfied Your power color: Bright yellow Your power symbol: Asterisk Your power month: MayWhat Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Age: By Eating Out..
YOUR AGE BY EATING OUT Don't tell me your age; you probably would tell a falsehood anyway-but your waiter may know! YOUR AGE BY DINER & RESTAURANT MATH This is pretty neat. DON'T CHEAT BY SCROLLING DOWN FIRST! It takes less than a minute. Work this out as you read .... Be sure you don't read the bottom until you've worked it out! This is not one of those waste of time things, it's fun. 1. First of all, pick the number of times a week that you would like to go out to eat. (more than once but less than 10) 2. Multiply this number by 2 (just to be bold) 3. Add 5 4. Multiply it by 50 5. If you have already had your birthday this year add 1757... If you haven't, add 1756. 6. Now subtract the four digit year that you were born. You should have a three digit number. The first digit of this was your original number. (I.e ., How many times you want to go out to restaurants in a week.) The next two numbers are Y

Round Here
Step out the front door like a ghost into the fog where no one notices the contrast of white on white. And in between the moon and you the angels get a better view of the crumbling difference between wrong and right. I walk in the air between the rain, through myself and back again. Where? I don't know Maria says she's dying. Through the door, I hear her crying Why? I don't know Round here we always stand up straight Round here something radiates Maria came from Nashville with a suitcase in her hand She said she'd like to meet a boy who looks like Elvis She walks along the edge of where the ocean meets the land Just like she's walking on a wire in the circus She parks her car outside of my house, takes her clothes off, Says she's close to understanding Jesus She knows she's more that just a little misunderstood She has trouble acting normal when she's nervous Round here we're carving out our names Round here we all look the same Round here we talk just like li

She Didn't Know
She didn't know, That he'd be falling into her life. She didn't know. She hadnt planed it. She didn't know, She'd fall in love. She didn't know! All she knew, Was she was afraid, Of getting hurt again. Yet she sits back, And slowly falls in love. Even with the fear, She has hope for him. And she wont let the past screw this one up.

~~war Torn California~~perspective**
Editorial An interesting perspective about our "Drive by Media." Victor Davis Hanson is a professor at Fresno State. See his credentials at the end of the article. Eye of the Beholder by Victor Davis Hanson The American Enterprise Online War torn Iraq has about 26 million residents, a peaceful California perhaps now 35 million. The former is a violent and impoverished landscape, the latter said to be paradise on Earth. But how you envision either place to some degree depends on the eye of the beholder and is predicated on what the daily media appear to make of each. As a fifth generation Californian, I deeply love this state, but still imagine what the reaction would be if the world awoke each morning to be told that once again there were six more murders, 27 rapes, 38 arsons, 180 robberies, and 360 instances of assault in California yesterday, today, tomorrow, and every day. I wonder if the headlines would scream about "Nearly 200 p

Quote For June 12
Life is an error-making and an error-correcting process, and nature in marking man's papers will grade him for wisdom as measured both by survival and by the quality of life of those who survive. -- Jonas Salk This public service is brought to you daily by CT's Yoda©, speak to you I will!

A Poem I Found For My Mother!
Mom Even As I've Grown Your hands were always gentle When you wiped away my tears. Your arms always a comfort As you held me through the years. Mom, I'd like to tell you That even as I've grown You still place my needs High above your very own. And don't think that I failed to see How very much you did for me The love we shared as you guided my way Words of thanks, I just rarely bothered to convey. Mom, If I could go back and choose my mother For me, only the best would do And I wouldn't change a thing For the best mother in the world is you! Thanks Mom love me!

Caffiend
Melancholy blue jeans Ripped at the seams Coffee stains on your brain Drivin' you insane Candy in your pocket A sweet sugar rocket A tasty treat, so sticky sweet A high that can't be beat Hot liquid dream Of coffee with cream Lusty sips of hot java That burn like black lava What could be finer Than a caffeine high in an all night diner

How Do You Live Your Dash
I read of one who stood to speak At the funeral of a friend. He referred to the dates on the tombstone From beginning….to the end. He noted that first came the date of birth And spoke the following date with tears, But he said what mattered most of all Was the little dash between those years. For that dash represents all the time That she spent alive on this earth And now all those who loved her Know what that little line is worth. For it matters not, how much we own; The cars, the house….the cash, What matters is how we live and love And how we spend our dash. So think about this long and hard… Are there things that you’d like changed? For you never know how much time is left, That can still be rearranged. If we could just slow down enough To consider what’s true and real, And always try to understand How other people feel. And be less quick to anger, And show appreciation more And love the people in our lives Like we’ve never loved before. If we tre

Crying
what a horried day.. I work in a school with kids who have needs.. I have been there now for 5 years and love the kids.. I work part time because of my two girls need me also..anyway the last few weeks have changed.. the women I work with seem to have got nasty but won't tell em what i've done.. I felt it today when talking to a teacher about how I was feeling.. she hugged me and said that I'm a wonderful person, it's girls who are 21 thinking they run the school haveing a bee under their bonnets...anyway I started to cry and this little boy of 6 called Jamie came up to me and gave me a hug and said " I love you Alexia and I want to marry you" .. that made me feel so loved and felt better..Children are the best to bring the best out in you .,. no matter where they come from or how they are.. Thank god for mine and little boys/girls like Jamie xx

Dave Matthews Band-everyday
Pick me up, love! (pick me up, love) Hey, come on come on come on (everyday) Everyday, ah Pick me up, oh, from the bottom Up to the top, love, everyday Pay no mind to taunts or advances I take my chances on everyday Left to right Up and down, love I push up love, love everyday Jump in the mud, oh Get your hands dirty with Love it up on everyday All you need is All you want is All you need is love. All you need is What you want is All you need is love. Everyday Everyday Oh, everyday... Pick me up, love, from the bottom Up onto the top, love, everyday Pay no mind to taunts or advances Im gonna take my chances on everyday Left to right Up and up and inside out right Good love fight for everyday Jump in the mud, mud Get your hands filthy, love Give it up, love Everyday All you need is All you want is All you need is love. All you need is What you want is All you need is love. Oh... What youve got Lay it down on me What youve got L

Inside Information Read This
DO NOT ASSUME ANYTHING-CAUSE YOU ARE NEVER RIGHT If I cry hold me but there will be times when I want to be alone. If I feel like I am alone take a step back and question why I might feel that way. If you don't know ask. If I push you away physically I don't want to be touched. If I push you away when the world is collapsing around me it is because I don't want you to get hurt. But the last thing I want is to lose you. Just cause I am depressed does not mean I am going to kill myself. If you know me at all you know it is not an option. If you love me don't lie to me unless you are telling me everything is going to be alright. If you push me away I will go and depending on how soon you change your mind it may be too late. If you don't trust me, why are you near me? Don't say you care when you don't. Love has many meanings. If you are unsure what I mean ask. I won't compare you to my ex's but I do learn from my past relationships. Don

For Those That I Chat With And Etc.
I will be deleting this account friday June 15th due to some unfortunate things going on in my life. I need to do this for the reasons I do. If you would like to keep in touch email me at lilbit_n_wranglers@yahoo.com Please take care everyone and enjoy life, you never know when someone may try to take that away from you.

Idk Bout This
I dont really get the whole point of CT, But i can tell you its kind of addicting. Mistressbuble is a whore for gettin me to sign up, cuz now all i want to do is move up levels... so idk bout this...buutt its kinda of fun..screw myspace haha ct is my crack...

Life!!!!!
The other day I was watching a movie and there was a line that caught my attention, it goes like this, "Life is simple, You make choices and have no regrets!" Thinking on this subject I find it is easier said than done, We all have regrets of some type or other. Most are trivial but some are life changing. For me life has been a roller coaster of events. In thse events in some cases I have regrets for not doing or taking the risk or chances to do what may have been the right thing to do at the time. Luckily I have been somewhat blessed with good health for the most part. Yeah I have the aches and pains from years of agused on my body from doing the things I love, such as the years I rode motocross, and travelled cross country on motorcycles, then there are the pains from pushing myself to the limits when backpacking or some other foolish enceavor where upon exhaustion I sould have been in serious trouble. We all have regrets in our past on our love life in some way or another,

Gm Everyone!!!
Well last night was fun. After checking my Ct mail and everything else one here. Did a virus scan found a trojan...damned viruses!! and this was about 2am wasnt tired yet so got crazy and decided to clean house...everything from the dishes to trash to cleaning out the garage coming back in sweeping and mopping the hardwood floors while i got 2 dogs and a cat wwanting to play around with the mop lol. Needless to say around 5 am finally got everything finished stopped off somewhere for a bite came home and went to bed. Cant stand a dirty house if its dirty it gone!!! And yes for all those ladies out there i do windows lmao. There isnt any type of cleaning i dont do..you try to be self suffiecient..The Marines taught me that.

Home Protection Mirror Spell
HOME PROTECTION MIRROR SPELL Compose an altar: place a censer in the center before an image of the Goddess. Have a twelve-inch (or so) round mirror there as well. Ring the altar with nine white candles. Burn a protective incense (such as sandalwood, frankincense, copal or rosemary) in the censer. Beginning with the candle most directly before the Goddess image, say these or similar words: Lunar light protect me! Repeat as you light each candle until all are glowing. Now, holding the mirror, invoke the Goddess in her lunar aspect with these or similar words: Great Goddess of the Lunar Light and Mistress of the Seas; Great Goddess of the Mystic Night and of the Mysteries; Within this place of candles bright and with Your mirror nigh; Protect me with Your awesome might while ill vibrations fly! Standing before t

Thoughts Of Tomorrow
Trying with silent grace to look at the world Even as the "big picture" is glanced upon One realizes there is so much evil in the world A sickening pain strikes the heart Does mankind really stand a chance Is there enough good in the world The time will come when few shall stand against many Blood shall flow and many shall die Who shall be left to sort through the ashes Even though no one really wins wars Who shall be the victor Look upon the faces of innocent Fear for what is in store for them

Forgive Me
Please forgive me For I wasn't strong enough Please forgive me As I stand upon bended knee Please forgive me As I wipe away the last tear Please forgive me I not the hope left Please forgive me I am broken Please forgive me I have lost the pieces Please forgive me

Hmm....
Its not the twinkle in your eye, your beautiful face, or jawdroppin bod. Its who you are that makes me love you, want you, for my own. I close my eyes and think what was said or not said, did or not done. I hope I didn't loose my chance to be the one.

Horse Auctions - Horse Knackery Anger.
Today i went to the Horse auction to look at buying Saddles, etc. But decided to look at the horses, because my family is looking to buy a bigger horse... So as i was walking along the small yards, i came across a Throughbred gelding, he was very scared at first ( as were alot of horses.. sale yards are scary) but i spent around ten minutes and managed to get him convinced that he could come over.. so when he was over nxt to me i was patting him, and he was very scared to be touched around the ears and eyes ( usually means the owner has belted him with whips over the head... that happens alot... ) But it turned out, once this horse trusted you, he had the SWEETEST temperment, he was rubbing his head up againts me, and nibbling my jeans and trying to touch my toes.. lol.. he was just perfect.. i went to have a look at the other horses, and came back to im and spent around 40 mins with him, and then his owner came over to me and said " dont get attached hes not the horse for you"

Can Anyone Answer This And Make It Make Sense?
What is the purpose of lies? What gratification could you get from lieing and how can lieing actually benefit anyone? If someone lied to you, could you forgive them and forget? Could you live with someone after they lied so badly to you? I hate liars.. I have no use for them. I think they are the scum of the earth. And I cant believe that anyone could stand by a known liar and pretend nothing is wrong.... You dont have to agree with me, I dont really care either way.. Just makes you look sad that its happening!!!

About Me
Taurus You are very stubborn, and your withdrawn nature makes you irresistible to hotties. You like sex to be romantic and passionate, and you know just how to make it that way. Your partners cannot resist your spontaneous and gentle nature. Sex matches: Cancer, Virgo, Capricorn Take this quiz at QuizUniverse.com

So Much For Friendship
I went out on sunday night with the guys. because i haven't in a long time,it was great got drunk the usual. A few people cam eback to my house to sober up .....I had no idea that my best friends wive was pissed. so pissed that he isn't allowed to talk rto me any more because he was at my house sobering up with the other guys....no i dont want to prove to her that nothing happened....I shouldn't have to. It just blows my mind that i was written off so easily. i guess thats just how it goes. I supose i should stop being friends with guys...but i have known him since i first moved to ve...before they even got married or started dating...he was there when i got married, and aroudn when zoe was born......i am going to miss my best friend. o-well, so much for friendship.

Recording Projects!
I put 5 of my (Shannon's) own solo recording songs up to share with ya guys onmy page! Check them out adn let us know what you think! You acan also go to Imeem adn rate adn comment them too! Thanx everyone!

Either You Do Or You Don't And Yes I Was Emotional On This One Smiles
Either You Do or You Don't.... for Gonzo... smiles I also agree with your theological statement, with one tiny comment. For me, Jesus's central command is: love the Lord your God with all your heart, all your mind, and all your soul, and love your neighbor as yourself. Many people become discouraged if they get caught up in the process of trying to live up to the letter of the law. This is especially true of those who are young in their faith. It's much easier for such folk to grasp the concept of love. Most people have only to reference their own experience to begin to grasp the concept. I guess all that I'm saying is that a life of discipleship is sometimes not quite as straightforward as "either you do or you don't". On the other hand. . .I'm not sure where I was really going with this. Oh well, maybe you can extricate me from the mud! Thanks for the post, though. It did get me to thinkin', as they say. To help extricate you from the mud as you asked huggs. First of all, the re

Just Thoughts
Strapped to the wooden planks as her captors start to laugh. Knowing what torture is coming she lets herself drift into a state of mind few can achieve. They realize she isn't scared and crying like most of their victims so they take it a step further. Tracing the lines of her body with their blades thin lines of blood begin to form yet she doesn't move. Now they grow angry and the blood begins to flow heavier. From amidst the shadows steps a man cloaked in black. His wings unfurling as he glares upon their retched souls. They begin to panic and run but there is no hope for them. Their crimes have sealed their fate. Their screams echo in her ears as she is pulled from her trance. She glances upon him but he turns away. Still he hides his face from her. The shadows again consume him.

I Miss Oregon
I miss oregon all my family lives there and today is my sister's 23rd birthday and i couldn't be there and my little sister had her first prom and i couldn't be there. I miss my friends i miss talking to them even if they were just acting like my friend so they could use me at least they would talk to me right. I have no one to talk to and with the time difference its hard to get a hold of my family. I do like it here and Texas and everything but there are certin people in oregon that I miss. My sister had a baby last sept. and i'm missing everything she's starting to walk and my nephew is starting to talk really good. I just had my baby in January and only my dad and sister and dad's girlfriend has seen him and hes already crawling it really sucks hopefully my brother comes down in december for christmas that would make my year. Well thats about it

People Come Into Your Life For A Reason
People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person. When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on. Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They br

How Can I Know You
As i look on this site and I see people that might intrest me when I scroll down to their profile and behold nada nothing zip the big zero. Now how can I or anyone else for that matter rate you freind you or fan you if all they have to go on are the pics you have.and the men are just as guilty on here if I want shallow people to look at or talk to all I have to do is go to work. I'm looking for people to converse with share some intelligent words and thoughts and have some fucking fun with the real. thanks for reading any rebuttals Im redy to listen. don't be scared just be real.

A Lil About Me
Hey I have had some people want to know a little more about me and they are also asking if I am real. LOL, Yes I am real, I just cant post full face photo's of myself. I am in a very abusive marriage, no I dont get beat but I do get mentally abused and trust me when I say that is sometimes just as worse as getting beat. Ok I also have had people ask me why I dont leave, It is not as easy as it may seem, I do have childern to think of and I for one do not want them hurt at all. We also have property together and he has threatend that If I divorce him he will take the house and leave me and the kids homeless. He is a very possesive person He wrecked my car just so I wouldnt have something to drive, granted I am getting very tired of his treatment and I am looking into a divorce and finding out what my options are. He has cheated on me and as far as I know he still is, there is no love between us what so ever I only stay because I have no place tp go with me and my kids. There are a coupl

Next On Quozltime
Happy Flag Day in the United States! I'm sorry that I don't have one to wave right now . . . If your species is planning to conquer a world, far better to do it in a peaceful, non-threatening way than to march in armed to the teeth. Win hearts and minds, and the bodies will follow. Such is the premise of Alan Dean Foster's 1989 science fiction novel Quozl (ISBN 0441694543) which begins with a colony ship coincidentally settling down in Idaho during World War II. The Quozl are basically humanoid rabbits and, as rabbits are wont to do, reproduce wildly. Reading the novel -- something I wish I'd done when it first came out -- was unexpected, but Foster's well known in the science fiction and fantasy genres for shattering our preconceptions. So successful are the Quozl at hiding their existence that it's not until a fourteen-year-old whose family camped there in the summer meets one that their existence becomes, gradually and over decades, public knowledge. Far from the "we

Female Orgasm Techniques
ecrets To The Female Orgasm As a member of the gender that is known as the Hunter-Gatherer, I am certain the only thing more exciting than making a woman whimper is making two women whimper from female orgasm (we'll save that for part two). A woman who whimpers while love making or having an orgasm or even the dirtiest sexual marathon must be experiencing pleasure at a level where both pleasure and pain live simultaneously in harmony throughout her body and her mind. The female body, like the female orgasm, and the wicked desires that lie within are no less than that of the common male. All the things we wish to do to them they most certainly wish we would as well. When a female gets to the point where she whimpers small sounds that seem uncomfortable and satisfying at the same time she might very well be close to orgasm and if nothing less you are definitely touching her the right way to induce such resonance from your sweet kitten. Bring Your Female To The Point Of Orga

Eat Your Vitamins
Ever have a week where Tylenol is like candy? Maybe to much Mountain Dew in my diet. Not that this matters but my nail came off today so I got all black fingernails minus a pointer finger one. It looks ridiculous but is $15 to have set removed and can take up to 3 hours before acetone even takes of the glue. Why did I get them done in the first place? Maybe for scratching posts. Meow! I found out today someone shot my cat Maximillion. I think it was my neighbor. Some people are cruel and sick! The carpenter ants have invaded my trailer and the fly's since I have no screen door. I bought insect spray and fly paper it's worked so far. Probably cause my trailer is founded on a tree stump. I don't know what idiot had that idea. :/ Anyways, tomorrow I Got to make hay stacks. Should be lots of fun!

Friends.....
If only.... I regret all the time that I blew up for not getting leave to go for my grandmother's funeral. Now I sit back and read poems and stories of soldiers who give their lives to protect our freedoms. Now I'm plagued by unanswered questions. Do I attempt to rejoin the service with my mother in the condition she is? Do I attempt to leave her and go back to basic to attempt to accomplish a lifelong dream? Would they give me leave if she were to pass like my grandmother did? Would I not stop when I jumped the next guy for getting in my face when I got the news? What kind of life do I lead with all these unanswered questions of a lifelong dream to become a UNITED STATES MARINE!? Do I attempt to reconsile myself by finding a civilian job where I am working with the marines? All that brought me was agony knowing that my brothers, fellow marines, were dying while I was safe back on the homefront putting roofs on commercial buildings. Life has very little meaning to me now. To know that

Irritated.
I cant believe how petty people can be.. Seems to me there happens to be more drama here than on myspace which is sad cus this is really cool.. I was actually wonderin how many other people out there think the same thing. I wonder...... However stupid a person is they continue to fight on the internet heads up people fighting on the internet is like the special olympics you might win but you're still retarded..(means YOU'RE STILL A LOSER!!!!!)It's amazing how small ones IQ can get once they log on to a site such as this or myspace. Blows me away.. Anyhow thats my rant I think I'm done....

Baby Kaleb Support Banners
Here are some photos you can use to support kaleb on your myspace. Please pass this all around. Add pictures to the chain if you have any of Kaleb. Just hit reply copy the codes and post a bulliten. Also add any site URL's you know of that are for baby Kaleb Schawde. www.myspace.com/helpkaleb www.myspace.com/pray4kaleb (key chains) www.myspace.com/oprah4kaleb

Once Upon A Time
IT WAS A HOT DAY,AS I JOGGED ALONG THE BEACH THE SAND WAS SO HOT, I JOGGED ALONG THE WATER THE SUN IS SHINNING,AND THE CLOUDS ARE GONE NO RAIN TODAY,THOSE FEELINGS ARE GONE FROM THE CORNER OF MY EYE,I SEE A BIRD FLY BYE ONE OF THESE DAYS, I WILL BE FREE TO FLY AND TO BE WHO I REALLY WANT TO BE.... I WANT TO BE FREE, TO FLY I WANT TO BE LOVED, TO LOVE I WANT TO BE CARED FOR, TO CARE FOR I WANT TO BE PASSIONATE, TO GIVE COMPASSION FOR EVERY WANT I WANT, I WILL GIVE A MILLION TIMES........... ~me~

Keeping Myself Sane2
I have met men who dislike, clinging, dependent women because they can't handle being needed too much. But being with strong, independent women, they also can't handle that because they can't accept not being needed

~incense Chart~
Blueberry Burn to keep unwanted influences away from your home and property Blue Roses Specially crafted to honor the Goddess in all her aspects Carnation A sweet floral scent traditionally used for healing Cherry Sacred to Venus, this blend will attract and stimulate love Cinnamon Use to gain wealth and success Coconut Burn for protection and purification Copal Sacred to the Mayan and Aztecs, this blend is suitable for honoring the Gods Frangiapani Burn to brighten your home with friendship and love Frankincense Draw upon the energy of the sun to create sacred space, consecrate objects, and stimulate positive vibrations Honeysuckle Burn for good health, luck, and psychic power Jasmine For luck in general, especially in matters relating to love Lotus For inner peace and outer harmony, to aid in meditation and open the mind's eye Musk Burn for courage and vitality, or to heighten sensual passion Myrrh An ancient ince

Flooring It
Cosmo's Most Creative Sex Positions Ever Flooring It Finally, a ground position with no rug-burn risk (at least for you). Have your guy kneel (he can cushion his knees with a towel or pillow), face away from him, and slowly lower yourself onto his member. You can tease him with some sweet eye candy by slooowly inching your way down. Stay squatted without fully sitting so you'll be able to thrust with abandon. Your guy can lean back on one hand and use the other to stimulate your pleasure zones. "This is one of the best positions for him to bring you to orgasm manually," says Flemke. Another bonus: If you lean back, you get the naughty thrill of not looking into each other's eyes but the intimacy of having your faces so close. Erotic extra: Have your guy spread his thighs wide, then kneel on the floor in front of him. Keep your legs together and you'll be able to feel every inch of him as he slides in and out of you.

The Lusty Lotus
The Lusty Lotus # Erotic instructions: Start with your man in a seated position. Face him and climb into his lap so you're straddling him, guiding his penis inside you. Wrap your legs around his waist while he crosses his legs Indian-style, then put your arms around his neck as he holds you under your hips. Rock back and forth for a long, sensual, big O buildup. # Pleasure payoff for you: The slow rocking motion lets his penis glide over your G-spot -- the bliss button inside you that often gets missed when you bump and grind at top speed. # Pleasure payoff for him: He'll love the feel of your breasts pressed into his chest as you sway your bodies in rhythm. You can also connect at the eyes and lips, taking your bond to a tantric passion plane.

The Hot Seat
The Hot Seat # Erotic instructions: Get your man to lie on his back, then lower yourself onto his lap with your legs perpendicular to his pelvis and guide his penis inside you. Place your hands behind you for support and move up and down his shaft (carefully, so you don't bend it and possibly hurt him), as he steadies you under your legs. # Pleasure payoff for you: The pose lets you thrust deep, then pull back so that just the tip of his penis is inside you. It's a great move if your guy's on the small side or if you crave a tighter fit. # Pleasure payoff for him: Every inch of your V will move up and down along his member -- making him feel like he's penetrating you for the first time with each new thrust. And with your legs close together, you'll feel really snug around his penis.

The Dance
The night is hot as hell and my eyes are tired. It’s the heat of a thousand vents and too many people in a small room. The kind of tiredness you get can only from shooting hundreds zombies and aliens with a plastic toy gun. Sweat baptizes me after the kill. I had been feeding quarters into the machines all night. However, I am not tired from the slaughter and decide to take a walk before I come back to plug away some more. I have that primitive urge that is only seen in when a big movie star cuts down a line a people with a gun in reality would’ve put him on his ass. The place smells of stale popcorn and stain of liquid substances long forgotten. Arcades and their machines…. This generation’s version of the carnival…. Each machine with it blinking lights says “Step right up; you could be the next high scorer.” But in the end, you just lose your money for a two minute joy ride or a small catharsis of stress when you knock out your opponent. It then occurs to me that I am no longer stari

I Cant Decide!!!!!!
I am thinking about gettin some new ink but i dont know where i want it. I already have a pretty big design that i done myself, its in my photos. I am thinking about a few designs maybe more tribal or a cross or my last name in old english. Please help me decide its drivin me nuts, thanx dubbs

The Little Grass Hut
The Little Grass Hut The only survivor of a shipwreck was washed up on a small, uninhabited island. He prayed feverishly for GOD to rescue him, and everyday he scanned the horizon for help, but none seemed forthcoming. Exhausted, he eventually managed to build a little hut out of driftwood to protect himself from the elements and to store his few possessions. One day, after scavenging for food, he arrived home to find his little hut in flames with smoke rolling up to the sky. The worst had happened! Everything was lost! He was stunned with disbelief, grief, and anger. "GOD, how could you do this to me?" he cried. Early the next day he was awakened by the sound of a ship that was approaching the island. It had come to rescue him. "How did you know I was here?" asked the weary man of his rescuers. "We saw your smoke signal," they replied. Moral of the story: It's easy to get discouraged when things are going bad, but we shouldn't lose heart, because GOD

That Works
My horoscope for today: You're used to pushing forward and making things happen. Every now and then, it's all about sitting back and receiving what comes your way. Be open to the possibilities. You might like this change of pace. hmmm oh the possibilities :D .... im loving this one!!

The Vanilla Pudding Robbery
The Vanilla pudding Robbery This is just too funny not to share. Excerpted from an article which appeared in The Dublin Times about a bank robbery on March 2. Once inside the bank shortly after midnight, their efforts at disabling the security system got underway immediately. The robbers, who expected to find one or two large safes filled with cash &valuables, were surprised to see hundreds of smaller safes throughout the bank. The robbers cracked the first safe's combination, and inside they found only a small bowl of vanilla pudding.As recorded on the bank's audio tape system, one robber said, "At least we'll have a bit to eat." The robbers opened up a second safe, and it also contained nothing but vanilla pudding. The process continued until all safes were opened. They did not find one pound sterling, a diamond, or an ounce of gold. Instead, all the safes contained covered bowls of pudding. Disappointed, the robbers made a quiet exit, each leaving with

Motorcycle Riders
Just to let you know we care. For all who Know Motorcycle Riders I saw you, hug your purse closer to you in the grocery store line. But, you didn't see me, put an extra $10.00 in the collection plate last Sunday. : I saw you, pull your child closer when we passed each other on the sidewalk. But, you didn't see me, playing Santa at the local mall. I saw you, change your mind about going into the restaurant. But, you didn't see me, attending a meeting to raise more money for the hurricane relief. : I saw you, roll up your window and shake your head when I drove by. But, you didn't see me, driving behind you when you flicked your cigarette butt out the car window. I saw you, frown at me when I smiled at your children. But, you didn't see me, when I took time off from work to run toys to the homeless. : I saw you, stare at my long hair. But, you didn't see me, and my friends cut ten inches off for Locks of Love. I saw you, roll your eyes at our lea

Week In Review
After a man attacked his girlfriend because she had broken up with him, a judge in Ontario ordered the man not to have girlfriends for the next three years. [This will be known in law books as the Clay Aiken Ruling.] A key space station computer failed the other day. [Everything's okay now, but NASA still wants to know who the knucklehead was who downloaded AOL.] Paris Hilton has been dropped by her Hollywood agent. [Once she saidshe would no longer act dumb he was totally confused as to how to market her.] A Georgia police officer was shot in the wrist when the service weapon that she kept under her pillow went off. [Good thing she was wearing her bullet proof nightie.]

List Of Bdsm Authors
This is a list of notable authors of fiction and/or non-fiction works about BDSM: * Aran Ashe * Christina Abernathy * Laura Antoniou * Ayzad * Guy Baldwin * Joseph Bean * Tim Brough * Gloria G. Brame, Ph.D * Pat Califia * Jacqueline Carey * Robert Davolt * Judith Devere * Molly Devon * Vanessa Duriès * Dossie Easton * Stephen Elliott * Maîtresse Françoise * Laurell K. Hamilton * Janet Hardy * William A. Henkin, Ph.D * Adrian Hunter * Douglas Kent * Geoff Mains * Midori * Philip Miller * Mélanie Muller * Mistress Nan * John Norman * John Preston * Anne Rice writing as A. N. Roquelaure * Jack Rinella * Pauline Réage * Catherine Robbe-Grillet, writing as Jean de Berg, and as Jeanne de Berg * Donatien Alphonse François, Marquis de Sade * Terence Sellers * Chelsea Shepard * Tim Smith - www.verbatus.com

So Confused
i am married and have been for 18 years. I do love my husband, we have been having a few problems as of late, at first i didnt think they were that bad. now i am not so sure. I decided to sit him down and have a chat with him. I told him that i thought that because we have really been fighting alot lately that we needed to take some time apart and figure out what the problem is and try to work on it. Well, he thought that was a good idea, or so he said. He comes back about a month later and tells me that he went to the lawyers on his lunch break and had him draw up the divorce papers, and that they would be ready on monday morning. well being the soft hearted person that i am and knowing that that is not what i want i get upset and cry ( yeah i know a female reaction). he kicks back in the recliner and starts to laugh, no explination no nothing, well come to find out he was lying about the divorce papers, he never did that. he told me that to see how i would react. Well when i find th

Daily Horoscope: Libra For June 17,2007
New friends fill your day with healthy activities and innovative ways to take down your stress levels. There's so much wonderful social energy going on right now, and you're right in the thick of it.

The 'old Man' - A Father's Day Remembrance
I got this from another website, it is a long read, but in lite of what today is,it touch me and I hoped you all would enjoy it. The 'Old Man' - A Father's Day Remembrance AUTHOR: RON WINTER (TWS MEMBER) This Father's Day marks the eighth since the "Old Man" passed away. Despite knowing him for nearly 53 years, it has taken this long for me to put into words what an incredible paradox of a human being he was, and how even with all that could be characterized as faults and weaknesses, I still have a deep respect for him, and miss the good parts of him every day. I don't remember exactly when I started referring to him as the Old Man, except that he wasn't old then. In the village of Wynantskill, New York, about 10 miles east of Albany, where I spent my teen years back in the 60s, most of the kids I grew up with called their fathers the "old man," as in "My old man really belted me last night." I do know that I never thought of calling him Old Man to his face. Which brin

Emotions....
These past few weeks ive come to realize a few things, things that had i got 2 weeks ago id still be where i wanted to be. I lost my best friend wednesday night he died in a car crash and left my cousin in the hospital. these events effected me badly more than anyone could ever know i tried to put them inside and hide them away from the world. The pain only lead to loseing my fieance, the mother of my child, and my best friend i let her walk out the door and i pushed her away inthe last few weeks i let my foolish pride ruin my life instead of taking care of her and my child. At first the pain hurt so bad it ate away at me i should of gave her the time she needed to think about it all i should of been patient as my first instinct had told me. She made me think about our past she made me realize all the mistakes i made to her and myself i said so many things i regret and wish i never said. I ruined her life she quit her job she gave up school at a good university, i wish i could fix thin

Hiya
i dont usually do this but no one really reads this anyway lol i no longer have vic so its harder to get to the next level, can you wonderful ppl rate and comment on my pics if you can? that would be great love you guys

Taste
Taste. If You Get 1 Back Your Lickable. If You Get 3 Back Your A Tasty Treat. If You Get 10 Or More Back You're Lick-A-Licious. Have A Kick Ass Day. Sending You Lickz, Bitez 'n' Kissez _________####___####___________ _______################_________ _____####################_______ ____#########_#_##########______ _######_#_#_#_#_#_#_#_#######___ __#######______#_#_###########__ _____###_____#_____########_____ ______#_____#____########_______ _____#_____#_____####___________ ____#______#___#_#______________ ____#_____#_____##______________ ____#_________#_##______________ _____#______#_#_#_______________ ______#__#_#_#_#________________ _________###____________________

Don't Wanna Let Go
It's over. He's gone. Why do we have to part while the love is still there? Why do we have to suffer? Why do we have to cry when somebody bids goodbye? Why do beginnings have an end? Why do we have to meet only to lose in the end? There are questions left unanswered, words left unsaid, letters left unread, poems left undone, songs left unsung, love left unexpressed, promises left unfulfilled. In a relationship, one of the hardest things to do is saying goodbye and letting go. It is as hard as breaking a crystal because you'll never know when you will be able to pick up the pieces again. More often than not, they who go, feel not the pain of parting: it is they who stay behind that suffer, because they are left with memories of a love that was meant to be, a love that was. At the beginning and at the end of a relationship, we are embarrassed to find ourselves alone. Unfair as it may seem, but that's the way love goes. That's the drama, the bitters

H.i.m.-right Here In My Arms
She is smiling like heaven's down on earth And sun is shining so bright on her All her wishes have finally come true And her heart is weeping. Cause Happiness is killing her. It's true she's in love She'll be right here in my arms So in Love She'll be right here in these arms She can't let go [Repeat] So hard she's trying But her heart won't turn to stone...oh no And she keeps on crying Cause I won't leave her alone She'll never be alone She'll be right here in my arms So in Love She'll be right here in these arms She can't let go [Repeat] --------------------------

Broken
There is a red bloodstain Down my left wrist A sharp razorblade In my right hand I regret what I've done But it felt so good All my pains Melted away With just one little cut Just dripped away right down my left wrist I feel relieved There's no more pain I try to hide All my shame With my old gray sweater And my new black coat Someone grabs my wrist I flinch in pain So much trouble Over a little blood I try to stop I'm not astonished to discover I can't stop I'm addicted I need help! I'm just so afraid to ask Will you think less of me If you know You call yourself a friend And yet I am shunned I tell you my troubles You push me away tears refuse to fall I am just too stubborn I can no longer feel at all I retreat away With my little silver blade A few more cuts A little more pain It's all worth it There's enough blood To take my troubles away right down my left wrist If only you knew how I felt you'd understand my pain No one will ever know

She Wonders
She doesn't want to leave him But the hurt just perseveres She doesn't mimic him Or the pain he caused for years… She doesn't want to need him He tells her she won't exist without him She knows she couldn't leave He wouldn't let her… Oh how she would love To never cry again But every night is the same And the fights begin… He is driving her further away from him He is pulling her back by the hair She wonders what she did to deserve this She knows that life's not fair… She can't let everyone down She's been through it before But what should she do this time around He just ignores her… She always gets the feeling Things aren't as they seem She wonders what he'd do without her If she'd fulfill her dreams.. He used to hold her hand And he used to kiss her softly She can never understand The hate he displays for her now…. He says he doesn't hate her He knows he hasn't changed He says it

Daddy Day Weekend
You would think that I spent with my father but sadly no. He worked all weekend and then was sick so he had to rest with the time he had left over. Friday night my mom and I made bar-b-q and margaritas, which the heat got to my dad so he had to go up early, and then Ryan and I went swimming in the pool for a few hours to relax. It was a nice ending to a long week. Saturday was fate just playing kick ball with our plans. I was supposed to go with Katherine and Ryan was going out with the boys. But she had to entertain family and Ryan got sick while he was working out in the heat. So I thought I’d go yard saling to hunt up some new vases, odds & ends, just go out. Well with the heat one thing lead to another and we didn’t go, But I did get the baby cradle that Lisa gave. It’s hand made, really cute, just needs to be re-stained, I may even paint it so I can add more detail. Haven’t really made up my mind, just yet. Kelly called about my plans seeing as how me and Katherine weren’t

Today's Horoscope
Boy did THIS hit the nail on the head. Geeze. . . A hidden need for something different and exciting might make you crabbier than you actually are. You need glamour, romance, excitement. The stars say all of that is within your grasp -- you just have to reach for it.

Breaking And Entering
So night before last I stayed over at my friends house. . . .I ended up losing my key(the general concensus is that the couch ate it) Well i lost my Key and it turns out that my complex does not have one of those onsite guys who you can call to unlock doors at midnight. So there me and my friend ty were outside my apartment with no way to get in and I was desperate to get in cause my hair was in violent need of some conditioning and I was hungry. So we decided to force the window. After alot of very difficult pushing(at least it looked difficult I myself was not involved) the window gave. Leaving us to discover that we still could not gain entry due to my little wooden shutters. . .It was too late to give in at that point so we just broke the shutters. Sending little bits of wood flying all about and then with a lift I climbed into my house. The down side of this is that I can no longer lock my window and I have to use tape to keep the shutters closed. . .The upside the broken wo

My Sex Appeal....
You Are 87% Sexy Your Sex Appeal Is: Off the Charts! Let's face it... you're one of the sexiest people around. And you don't let anyone forget it. You're crazy hot, and you deliver on what you promise. You are definitely one wild ride. How Much Sex Appeal Do You Have?

Ruined Orgasm
A ruined orgasm is a technique, usually used by a woman (the stimulator) who is dominating a man (the stimulated), however, it can be adapted for use on women (further details needed on female ruined orgasm). The power of this technique allows the physical release of sexual climax while denying or minimizing the satisfaction and pleasure associated with orgasm. With men, the stimulated is stimulated to the moment that ejaculation is inevitable. Stimulation is then stopped by breaking all physical contact with the genitals the moment orgasm begins (i.e. past the "edge"). Alternatively, the stimulator may bring up decidedly non-erotic or nonsexual topics during the orgasm, inflicting non-erotic pain, or stimulating the submissive with an unpleasant smell. Another technique is to interfere with the ejaculation by some sort of constriction. The term was first coined by Rob and Jill as she used it to describe her "Hands Free Orgasm". Ruined orgasms expanded to include such methods as Thu

They Walk Among Us......
I walked into a Blimpie's with a buy-one-get-one-free coupon for a sandwich. I handed it to the girl and she looked over at a little chalkboard that said "buy one-get one free". "They're already buy-one-get-one-free", she said, "so I guess they're both free". She handed me my free sandwiches and I walked out the door. They walk among us and many work retail. One day I was walking down the beach with some friends when one of them shouted, "Look at that dead bird!" Someone looked up at the sky and said, "Where?" They Walk among us! While looking at a house, my brother asked the real estate agent which direction was north because, he explained, he didn't want the sun waking him up every morning. She asked, "Does the sun rise in the north?" When my brother explained that the sun rises in the east, and has for sometime, she shook her head and said, "Oh, I don't keep up with that stuff." They Walk Among Us!! I used to work in technical support for a 24/7 call

What Shall We Do Now?
pink floyd - what shall we do now? What shall we use to fill the empty spaces Where waves of hunger roar? Shall we set out across the sea of faces In search of more and more applause? Shall we buy a new guitar? Shall we drive a more powerful car? Shall we work straight through the night? Shall we get into fights? Leave the lights on? Drop bombs? Do tours of the east? contract diseases? Bury bones? Break up homes? Send flowers by phone? Take to drink? Go to shrinks? Give up meat? Rarely sleep? Keep people as pets? Train dogs? Race rats? Fill the attic with cash? Bury treasure? Store up leisure? But never relax at all With our backs to the wall.

Then We Have All The People On Ct Needing Help In There Lounges
I need help to but most of the ones u hirer are low life scum of ct they want the title and till u that morning they be there at nite then not show up for a week at a time.It's hard screening the real people and the wannabe's

Self Pimping
HI ALL A FAMILY MEMBER AND A GOOD FRIEND GOT DELETED TODAY COULD YOU PLEASE GO RATE SOME OF HIS PICKS HE NEEDS TO GET HIS LEVEL BACK UP THIS IS HIS NEW LINK TO PROFILE COULD U ALSO RE POST SO THIS GET OUT TO SOME OF HIS FRIENDS MANY THANKS MAD DOG@ CherryTAP (repost of original by 'Saphire~Founder Of The Round Table Bombers~' on '2007-06-18 16:25:35') (repost of original by 'Military Supporter~Round Table Bombers~' on '2007-06-18 16:33:01') (repost of original by 'SweetBaby655' on '2007-06-18 16:36:35')

Heartbreak
Flight of a Broken Heart Falling, falling faster memories of love rushing through my brain remembering his face the way he made me feel to hold him in my arms, to feel his lips to mine and how my heart once soared from her love falling faster, not wanting this dream to end then suddenly, my heart shatters striking the cold harshness of reality that my love he no longer desires my touch he no longer craves so I lie here, broken and alone his life moves on, full of life and happiness as my life slowly dies, frozen in sorrow and other heartache chalked up as the rest is only silence.

Thoughts
You know if I would have wrote this blog last friday or sat morning heck even sat. afternoon, it would have been much different than it will be now. Sat night was hell pure and simple, Sunday wasn't much better, but it was more of letting the emotion drain and come out, and boy did it. I had never felt this before, but as I laid in my bed and laid on my pillow i cried hot tears, and i mean that literaly, they were warm to the touch, i've cried before, but never where the tears were warm or hot, so that was strange. I probably didn't cry as much as I should have, i really didn't drain all of the emotion out like i should have but eh. I have to start the healing process, after getting my teeth kicked in, relax my friends i didn't get beat up physically, tho I wish i would have been, that would hurt less. I'm going to need help to get back to where i was Sat. morning so...... I wrote 2 poems in my angel series sat. night that are very good but very intense as well. Every single poem in

In Love ...
being in love is different from loving, you can love your family, friends, siblings, cousins, and pets ... but your significant other, you fall IN love with ... or better yet, you GROW in love with. a feeling which every person feels, but some never accomplish in the end. love at first sight exists, and with someone you love, you could feel like it's been forever even if it's only been a little more than two months. the person you hold in your heart is the one that you think about every night before you put your head to rest. feeling safe in their arms, lying next to their chest, hearing their heartbeat, knowing you'll wake up next to their smiling face the next morning. a feeling of security, and recognition found in their eyes when you look back at them as they say "i love you." finding yourself after a heartache before, knowing you could spend your life with that person despite your flaws, they look past that all. a familiar smile in a crowd that could give you comfort even with a p

For People Over 60
I'll be 47 on Sunday, but these are kinda cute. Q: Where can women over the age of 60 find young, sexy men, who are interested in them? A: Try a bookstore under fiction. Q: What can a man do while his wife is going through menopause? A: Keep busy. If you're handy with tools, you can finish the basement. When you are done you will have a place to live. Q: How can you increase the heart rate of your 60+ year old husband? A: Tell him you're pregnant. Q: How can you avoid spotting a wrinkle every time you walk by a mirror? A: The next time you're in front of a mirror, take off your glasses. Q: Why should 60+ year old people use valet parking? A: Valets don't forget where they park your car. Q: Is it common for 60+ year olds to have problems with short term memory storage? A: Storing memory is not a problem, retrieving it is a problem. Q: As people age, do they sleep more soundly? A: Yes, but usually in the afternoon. Q: Where do 60+ year olds look

Spaghetti (humor)
A wealthy man was having an affair with an Italian woman for several years. One night, during one of their rendezvous, she confided in him that she was pregnant. Not wanting to ruin his reputation or his marriage, he would pay her a large sum of money if she would go to Italy to secretly have the child. If she stayed in Italy to raise the child, he would also provide child support until the child turned 18. She agreed, but asked how he would know when the baby was born. To keep it discrete, he told her to simply mail him a post card, and write Spaghetti" on the back. He would then arrange for child support payments to begin. One day, about 8 months later, he came home to his confused wife. His wife said, "Honey, you received a very strange post card today." "Oh, just give it to me and I'll explain it," he said. The wife handed him the card and watched as her husband read the card, turned white and collapsed. On the card was written: "Spaghetti, Spaghetti, Spaghetti. Two w

Sunburns And Saving Lives
Friday we took all the kids to the pool after I got off work. We had a great time. Well Kaden and I were walking back through the big pool to go to the kiddie pool when I seen this little kid, no more then 18 months under the water, just bobbing up and down. He was fully dressed and had shoes and stuff on. I didn't see any parents around so I scooped up this little boy and took him to the edge. He was so scared and crying. All I could think was where were the parents, or how come the life guards didn't see this little kid going into the water. The life guards found his family. I only wished the family spoke english so I could yell at them. I mean they were on the other side of the pool. They should have been paying attention to thier kids. I had 6 kids there and I knew where all 6 of them were at all times, ya know. I wish the life guards would have called the cops or something ya know. How could you now know your kid was missing. I had Kaden in my arm almost the whole tim

Im Haveing Surgrey July 2
update im having surgrey july 2 im having really bad female problems so if im not around alot im taking it easy resting alot and im still waiting to find out when my niece has her surgrey they will be having to remove her breast

Before I Cheat
we've been together for 3 years, and now i don't know why but i'm at the saloon with some cheap bar fly not even thinkin bout my pretty lil souped up four wheel drive sittin out in the back of the lot while i think to myself whether i should try now i'm in the restroom dabbin on 3 dollars worth of that bathroom polo, but i dunno why i'm even gonna try to cheat before i cheat i wish you would have talked to me i wish those nights i wanted to get lucky you would have just givin it to me but now you're diggin your key into the side of my pretty lil suped up four wheel drive carvin your name into my leathers seats takin my louisville slugger to both headlights and slashin a hole in all four tires... i wish you would have talked to me before i cheat we had another lil fight now i'm walkin out the front door thinkin i might just get drink at the store but then i make that left on the old dirt road find that lil bar sittin all alone downin shots of that cuervo when

Crab Cakes
2 Tbl. Butter 2 Tbl. diced Onion 1/2 cup Bread Crumbs 2 beaten Eggs 1/2 cup Milk 2 cups cooked, Flaked Crab 1/3 cup diced Celery 1/2 tsp. Mustard 1 tsp. Lemon Juice 2 Tbl. chopped Parsley 1/2 tsp. Salt 1/2 tsp. Paprika 2 Tbl. Olive Oil 1 cup Flour Melt butter in saucepan and saute onion and bread crumbs over medium heat for 2 - 3 minutes. Combine with all ingredients except olive oil and flour; chill for at least 2 hours. Shape into 8 cakes, dust with the flour. Fry them in olive oil for about 8 minutes over medium heat until brown, turning once.

This Is Absolutely Ridiculous
Our country is going so F*cking A$$ backwards!!! High-fives could mean detention for students in Va. school Story Highlights• Parents sent a letter asking the county school board to review the rule • Students can be disciplined for hugging, holding hands or even high-fiving • Principal: Rule is meant to ensure students are comfortable and safe VIENNA, Virginia (AP) -- A show of affection almost landed a teenage boy in detention. Hugging was 13-year-old Hal Beaulieu's crime when he sat next to his girlfriend at lunch a few months ago and put his arm around her shoulder. He was let off with a warning, but the cost of a repeat offense could be detention. A rule against physical contact at Kilmer Middle School, about 10 miles west of Washington, is so strict that students can be sent to the principal's office for hugging, holding hands or even high-fiving. "I think hugging is a good thing," said Hal, a seventh-grader. "I put my arm around her. It was like for 15 seconds

Women Over 40
In case you missed it on 60 Minutes, this is what Andy Rooney thinks about women over 40: 60 Minutes Correspondent Andy Rooney (CBS) As I grow in age, I value women over 40 most of all. Here are just a few reasons why: A woman over 40 will never wake you in the middle of the night and ask, "What are you thinking?" She doesn't care what you think. If a woman over 40 doesn't want to watch the game, she doesn't sit around whining about it. She does something she wants to do, and it's usually more interesting. Women over 40 are dignified. They seldom have a screaming match with you at the opera or in the middle of an expensive restaurant. Of course, if you deserve it, they won't hesitate to shoot you if they think they can get away with it. Older women are generous with praise, often undeserved. They know what it's like to be unappreciated. Women get psychic as they age. You never have to confess your sins to a woman over 40. Once you get past a wrinkle or two, a wom

Funny Stuff!!
Have you ever noticed that in life when you have the balls to call someone out for who they are and only make mention of a situation but no names they go off the wall into psycho stardom? I find it comical but its all good, I dont stress bullshit others say about me or post about me and neither should anyone else...if you find yourself friends with someone who does something like this and points fingers and names names and trys to make the other look bad well thats when you take a hard look at the one doing the pointing and blaming...they are usually the drama queens and need to be set aside into their own hell and walk away as i have done...hence notice my profile...not one name was mentioned as to who or whom i have had issue with here on cherry tap...why? because its not worth the headache or bullshit and on top of that my situation is not for the public drama and for people to debate and take sides, my profile only states what it does for my own well being and to keep people at

Still In The Sandbox
Still in Iraq, but I am finally getting a break. I'm on the way back to the states for 2 weeks. I should be on CT for the next few days. Give me a shout. Thanks for all the support that all my friends have given me over the last 9 months. Take care and enjoy it.... String

Round And Round
Upon this carousel of doom The world circles round Entrapped in this horrid tomb Only sorrow, disappointment, and despair to be found Around and around it goes Most riders are temporary They leave when everything is at it's lows For a few forever will it carry To be continued.........

Regain Control
As the powers ebb The visions set in The voices return The pleas of her people Echo in her mind So much she need to find Each of the keys Each of the amulets Each of the books Each of the gates The journey has long been calling Taking back what was once hers What was rightfully hers She should have her lord at her side Yet he is not with her She has lost him too It takes so much of her She needs him

Joke
One day a young man and woman were in their bedroom making love. All of a sudden a bumble bee entered the bedroom window. As the young lady parted her legs the bee entered her vagina. The woman started screaming, "Oh my god, help me, there's a bee in my vagina!". The husband immediately took her to the local doctor and explained the situation. The doctor thought for a moment and said, "Hmm, tricky situation. But I have a solution to the problem if young sir would permit". The husband being very concerned agreed that the doctor could use whatever method to get the bee out of his wife's vagina. The doctor said "OK, what I'm gonna do is rub some honey over the top of my penis and insert it into your wife's vagina. When I feel the bee getting closer to the tip of my dick I shall withdraw it and the bee should hopefully follow my penis out of your wife's vagina." The husband nodded and gave his approval. The young lady said "Yes, yes, whatever, just get on with it." So the docto

Read My Confessions
01. The phone rings. Who do you want it to be? Jeff henderson I want answers 02. When shopping at the grocery store, do you return your cart? Yes damn things take a loonie I want it back 03. In a social setting, are you more of a talker or a listener? listener. 04. Do you take compliments well? not really sometimes but most of the time I argue about them 05. Do you play Sudoku? I tried twice my mind it not like that 06. If abandoned alone in the wilderness, would you survive? Probally would be hard but I bet I could do it 07. Do you like to ride horses? I do and don¡¦t there so cute and fun but also scary 08. Did you ever go to camp as a kid? Yes from age 8-15 or 16 it was awesome 09. What was your favorite game as a kid? Well I had lots monopoloy truth or dare war mario games grounders haha that one was fun 10. If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was married, would you go for it? No definitely not as I find cheating tota

The Rush
Sometimes I feel a little down, like my heart just may break in two. There are three ways to help the pain go away: 1. Puppy Therapy—I can never cry with a cute little puppy begging for my attention. 2. Cuddles – loosing myself in a warm embrace calms my fears 3. The Rush Well, I did not have a puppy or anyone to cuddle, so I opted to explore the finer wonders that only the rush could give me. It was actually cool that Saturday morning. I woke up to a sweet breeze tickling my skin where the covers had rode up. I stretched and yawned, letting the first wave of grief wash over me. With a firm shake of my head, I got up and hopped into the shower. Not today. Today I was going to feel better, today I wanted to start to heal. I washed my hair and body quickly, dried off, brushed my teeth and jumped into a pair of black shorts and loose fitted green tank. I pulled my hair back and slipped my sunglasses over my eyes as I grabbed my purse and left.

Panic At The Disco "i Write Sins Not Tragedies" Lyrics
I Write Sins Not Tragedies Lyrics Artist(Band):Panic! At The Disco Oh, well imagine: as I'm pacing the pews in a church corridor, and I can't help but to hear, no I can't help but to hear an exchanging of words: "What a beautiful wedding, what a beautiful wedding!" says the bridesmaid to a waiter. "Yes, but what a shame, what a shame, the poor groom's bride is a whore." I'd chime in with a "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!" No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality. I'd chime in "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!" No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of.. Oh! Well in fact we'll all look at it this way, I mean technically our marriage is saved! Well this calls for a toast, so pour the champagne! Oh! Well in fact we'll all look at it this way, I mean technically our marriage is saved! Well this calls for a toast, so pour the champagne, pour the ch

Liers
This is for the ladies, a guy on here known as Slayer666 is a player. He lives in Denver,CO. He is married but he will say he has left her he will tell you he loves you.Then when you believe him he blows you off. So stay away from him unless you are ready for games and hurting...Oh his real name is Kevin Doyle and he is on yahoo as kevin32m2003...

Man, I Feel Like A Woman....
This is what happens when you take a quiz that is meant for a member of the opposite sex - LMAO! You Are 36% Girly You are a pretty hardcore tomboy, and a very free spirit. Gender roles be dammed, you like to do things your way. How Girly Are You?

Random Thought
While some people are asking "what the fuck", I consistently find myself asking "why the fuck". Like, why the fuck don't stupid people stay home instead of taking up the road? Or better yet, are all their friends stupid as well for letting them drive knowing they cant drive? Or why the fuck do people whine about shit they can't change? Things like stopping their significant other cheating on them. Look, if their going to cheat, you have two choices, either get over it and deal with it, or move the fuck on. Thats all there is. There is no, buts about it. There is no "I love them, I just want them to stop". Guess what, they cheat. Maybe not just on you, maybe they do it in every relationship, maybe they just do it to you. Who the fuck knows? Either way, deal with it,or move on, just shut the hell up about it. Oooo, how about why the fuck do people whine about their past? Hey, its your fucking past. It happened. You cant change it. You cant fix it. You cant do anything a

California History
Do you know what happened this week back in 1850, 157 years ago? California became a state. The State had no electricity. The State had no money. Almost everyone spoke Spanish. There were gunfights in the streets. So basically, it was just like California is today, except the women had real breasts, and the men didn't hold hands.

His Pleasure
He assertively pushes me against the cold cement wall. I submit to his force. Arching my back away from the chill, Bringing my breast closer to him. He hungrily grabs at my curves reading my flesh with his finger tips. Greedily seeking my moist lair. His sultry lush mouth searching beneath the fabric that hides. My breast, my navel, my pelvis and inner thighs. Draping my leg over his shoulder I hold firmly the back of his head and give entrance to the rabid desire. The sensuous riot within causes me to scream out in delight. He rises before me with an adolescent grin. Turning to leave, he looks back as if to say I'll see you again.

A Friend
His smile Like a warm embrace To make me laugh From this awful place. The sadness that was all around, So lost inside Can I be found? A story, A joke, A casual touch, The softest stroke. A friend to soothe My deepest need, A friend to listen A friend indeed. I never noticed Your pretty eyes, Or the casual power Of your thighs. So strong, Yet sweet, An engaging smile, Touch me Touch me Just for awhile. The heat, it shimmers From far below. How deep this need How deep it goes. I thought you friend, I find you lover. Your lips so soft, My breasts you cover. With your hand You pull me close. My need is rising Until I explode. At last I lay Content, A sigh. My breathing slows The knots untie. My deepest sadness Now my deepest peace. The ache within At last has eased. A friend you've been, In my heart you'll stay. You touched my soul, While in your arms I lay.

I Love You
Sarah was a cheerleader on the team and had everything she ever wanted. Until one day... her life crashed. Mom: Wake up honey. Chris is downstairs waiting for you. Sarah: Oh my gosh. I woke up too late! I still need a shower and everything! Right when she said that Chris walked into her room smiling from ear to ear. Chris: No baby. You're beautiful just like that- now come on, I'm starving. Sarah: Okay. Sarah got out of bed, put on some clothes, took his hand, and walked out the door to his car and got in. Sarah: Where are we going? Remember that I have to be home by 1. I have cheerleading practice and you have football. Chris: I know.. Then Sarah noticed that Chris was really pale-looking. Sarah: Chris are you feeling okay? You look like you're sick.. Chris: Yeah; it's just my allergies. Sarah: Are you sure? Did you go to the doctor yet? Chris: Yeah.. I went yesterday. They just said to take some aller

My Angel My Savior
My angel My savior A tear drips for happiness Created by love built up within To feel your warm and gentle self While I cradle you within How long I have waited Like century’s it seems To hold my baby close to me As she falls asleep I brush my hands along you Stroking your silken blond hair rubbing my fingers so gently Across your sunscreen scented face Wishing it could last forever A feeling forever held within While I look into your sleeping eyes Looking at the angel I do hold I remember why I’m here on earth To hold your strength within me As thought braces on my knees To keep me standing on my feet Weekend by the strength Of many who stole my soul away my love while I hold you My troubles fade away I imagine myself in a doorway Walking to my fears My angel you are my savior I’ll cherish you for years

Heather Wrote This For A Close Friend Of Hers. Im Reposting It On Mine..:)
I just got off the phone with a very close friend and ever since I hung up the phone Ive been pondering one question! Why do people have to break hearts? I mean espically the one that are labeled the "good ones" that a lot of people oversee.. The ones that wouldnt hurt a soul! Those are the ones that get shitted on the most in life.. A human being doesnt realize these kind of situations until there faced one on one. When it happens its a real eye opener to everyone.. Shows you that not everyone is the same theres many different kind of people almost like a chamelon with all its colors.. People wear many faces some are hidden and others are exposed! The only thing I can really say is if your a man and your reading this wondering why you havent found the "Right WOMEN" and are sick of going through Trial and Error with your other selections.. Please let me know and I will lead you to the right one.. Im not saying her name right now because I dont want to make her vulnerable anymore I trie

Ok My Family Amd Friends
Hot Myspace Comments I am off to Orlando after work tomorrow for work classes! I will be home on sunday, but leave me love still :) I lvoe you all and will catch up on sunday i promise~ Hugs and Love~ Heather

Crazy Days ~ Barksdale Afb
Just thought I would send a quick message to my friends & let you all know. The last few days have been crazy, but I think them crazy days are over for a while. I took my youngest over to Barksdale AFB on Monday .... He out processed from his unit...GREAT FOLKS OVER THERE!!! Then I put him on a plane on Tuesday & he's off to BMT {Basic Military Training - for those who don't know what that means....LOL!!} I'll see him in August down in San Antonio for the weekend & then he's off to Maryland until January. I can't wait to head to San Antonio.....I'm gonna do a whole lot of Traveling while I follow this kid around with his career choice, to serve our country.....LOL!! Damn Proud of him. T2UL, Take Care & Smile :o) Have a Great Night & Haller atcha all 2morrow. Louann S.

Thursday Links: Morning Brawling With Management, New Boobs On Ratemywow, New Traveling Virus Photos, New Videos
LISTEN TO TODAY'S SHOW ON AUDIBLE (you don't want to miss THIS one...oof. Link usually active by 3pm EST) Good morning and happy Thursdee everyone! There's some early morning brawling going on today between O&A and a former manager (check out the Email that started the fight here). If you missed it, you should listen to the replay on XM or check out the Audible download later today. Boobies Alert: With that said, the guys needed a little pick-me-up this morning, and the Ladies of Paltalk were happy to oblige with some lovely WOWing (FlightBenefits has great boobs, by the way...we salute YOU today). New Boobs on RateMyWOW: Thanks once again to our west coast pal Brandon Iron, who is promoting his new sites Load My Mouth and Cover My Face, we have two lovely new sets of boobies to drool over: RateMyWOW: Eve Tailor RateMyWOW: Sandra Romain Did you miss the Jones Beach Traveling Virus Show? No worries... we have some MORE photos online for you: Jones Beach Traveling Virus - Pho

I Fucking Hate Guys
they're so god damn confusing! ok, so theres this guy right? (and you know who you are) he sits there, makes me fall for him, and then he goes ahead and puts a pic of him and this girl kissing on not only his myspace but every other god damn website he has! then expects me to feel exactly the same as i did before!!! sometimes when he says if you love me you'll do this, i just feel like saying "well i'm not your girlfriend now am i?" or when he tells me to do something i just wanna be like "i'm not your girlfriend" something like that! HE ANNOYS ME, and plus, i like this other guy, and like we were really close, and he just got a girlfriend...and its really hard to cope with this, and like my ex keeps on running through my head, and right after i told him i still loved him , then he told me he did too, and then he kinda sorta asked me out, then i told him i needed to think, then the next message was OH I ALREADY ASKED SOMEONE OUT...WTF IS THAT... i hate guys, i hate relationships...i ha

Reasons
~~~~PEOPLE COME INTO YOUR LIFE FOR A REASON~~~~ I am sending this to you to see how many actually read their e-mail. Your response will be interesting. Pay attention to what you read. After you have finished reading it, you will know the reason it was sent to you. Here goes: People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person. When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What

Incredibly Important News
Pop Tarts: Tom Cruise, Katie Holmes Expecting another TomKitten? Wednesday, June 20, 2007 By Hollie McKay Katie Holmes is reportedly pregnant with another Kitty Kat to add to Tom Cruise's control. "Katie and Tom are thrilled about having another baby on the way — she is glowing with happiness,” an insider told U.K.’s The Sun newspaper. The brunette beauty and hubby Tom partied with their pals the Beckhams in Madrid over the weekend, where Holmes apparently attempted to hide her baby bump beneath a loose-fitting tunic dress. Calls to Katie’s rep were not returned. Despite possibly being pregnant, Holmes and her hubby reportedly partied until 7:30 a.m. According to news.com.au, the celebrations commenced at David Beckham’s favorite restaurant El Chitsu, where he devoured pudding and steak while the Hollywood hotties hammered into fish. As for Victoria? Well, she reportedly consumed pineapple, strawberries and nothing else. Make your own Zing!

Well...
I thought I'd put something here... I'm at loss for a interesting blog.. There has been lots going on in my private life... I am greatful to all my online family... I love each one of You... You know who You are... and I thank You for bringing joy into my life!

Mine
Soft pale silken skin pressing against Me My arms enflold you, My lips devour you you are Mine, My property, My thing you are Mine, My lover, My love you hide under the protection of My firey wings you defend My honor, and bend to My will I love you through adversity, and in ease I love the gift you give Me, the submission of yourself I take your gift, and give Mine back My domination, My love, My soul, mind, and heart So come to Me, My little one, and let us be as one In this bed, this time, and all times to come

Lifes Memories
what a way to end a long week. with crappy weather.well serve me right for hanging out clothes haha.its all good.i suppose somedays coud be better but ya know., its how life is you win some you loose some.take the good with the bad. and try to get threw life,days go by so fast.just the other day.i looked threw a photo album of pictures of my daughter,makes me wonder where did the time go,she is almost 5, starts school next year,dunno who is more nervous me or here lol,she will always be my lil princess no matter how old she is,i sat here and thought wow the people i have met.who have come and gone.wondering what most of them are doing.,the friends who are true always leave footprints in your heart,some come some go, but you never forget the memories you have,im just glad i got the memories and when i think back and laugh at all the funny things in life makes me appreciate what i have more, ok so my life aint all a bowl of cherries but its you can sit and be mad or you can change it and

What Is Your Kissing Style?
Another badass quiz from eSPIN-the-Bottle... What's Your Kissing Style? MY RESULT:Naughty Kisser Not the sorts of kisses you want to greet your grandma with on Thanksgiving. Kisses for you are merely a road stop on the way to grander places (and we don’t mean Shreveport, Louisiana). You kiss with enthusiasm (and tongue), and you’re not too concerned if anyone else catches you in the act. Hey, everyone loves an audience, right? While you’ve definitely got your own style going on, don’t be afraid to slow down a little. It’ll earn you respect, and believe it or not, it makes things a whole lot more fun. Take This Quiz!

Lol
WOMAN'S PERFECT BREAKFAST > She's sitting at the table with her gourmet coffee. > Her son is on the cover of the Wheaties box. > Her daughter is on the cover of Vogue. > Her boyfriend is on the cover of Business Week. > And her husband is on the back of the milk carton.

Poetry...
The smile of iceboxes annihilates me. Such blue currents in the veins of my loved one! I hear the great heart beat purr. From lips soft and sweet, ampersands and percent signs Exit like kisses. It is Monday in a minds eye: morals Lavender and present themselves. What am I to make of these contradictions? I wear white cuffs, and I bow. Is this love then, this red material Issuing from the steele needle that flies so blindingly? It will make little dresses and coats even, It will cover a dynasty. How a body opens and shuts- A Swiss watch, jeweled in the hinges! O heart, such disorganization! The stars are flashing like terrible numerals. ABC, her eyelids say.

Ranchero Shrimp
2 lbs. peeled and deveined shrimp 6 pcz. Roma tomatoes (diced) 1 piece white onion (sliced) 1 piece green poblano chile or 2 Anaheim (fresh diced) 1 clove garlic 3 tablespoons olive oil 1/4 tablespoon oregano 1 pinch cumin salt and black pepper, to taste Heat oil, add onion and garlic. Sauté over medium heat for a minute. Add tomatoes, chilies and spices; cover and bring to a simmer until the tomatoes are juicy (five minutes). Add the shrimp, uncover, bring to a boil and reduce sauce until shrimp is pink and fully cooked. Serve over Mexican rice, garnish with cilantro and green onions, serve with warm tortillas, making your own taco (one at time).

Im Ready
You're an extremely adventuresome spirit, and that goes double right now. Something brand-new and exciting is within reach. Go ahead and greet it with open arms. It might show you something that could open your mind.

I Can Never..
I can never seem to get my life figured out...Just when I think that it is figured out something else goes wrong...Please everyone pray for my mother she is going to be having heart surgery on the 5th of July...I don't even understand men how they can go from loveing you to not loving you to loving you again back to not loving you...Makes no sense to me...I wonder when life becomes what you want it to be...I guess that it never does...Things are so screwed up right now I am not sure which way is up or down or even left or right...There are only a couple people that I can honestly say can make me smile when I need to smile or when I just need a lil pick me up...Thanks Quick..Love ya buddy...I have had a few days of being a lil down and well I guess today is the worst and I debated going out and getting drunk...But then I remebered I wake up the next morning with a headache and well the problem is still there in the morning...so whats the point...No need for any of that I guess... I have

Gh
GH After weeks in the slammer, Jason is released on bail and has a lot of catching up to do. While investigating Sam's possible involvement with Jake's kidnapping, Jason finds he's the answer to Elizabeth's prayers on Monday, July 2.... On Tuesday, July 3, Jason's freedom may be short-lived, thanks to a vengeful Lucky. "Lucky is not happy that his wife looks to Jason as her hero," confirms Greg Vaughan (Lucky).

The New Smashing Pumpkins Song- It Fucking Rocks!
"Tarantula" I don’t want to fight Every single night Everything I want is in your light. You and me go there To places I don’t know to care The spoils of all I got were left to scrounge. Don’t let me say this, but you’re no worse than me, It’s crazy. We all are real, if real ever was, it’s just because We all feel, feel we’ve had enough, I’m real, ‘cause someone gave us sound. I wanna be there when you’re happy I wanna love you when you’re sad. Can’t stand the morning rain Get out and take your place then Can’t stand the blazing sun Then close your eyes you’ll see The angel die. I don’t want to be Anything for these A million watts of sound can’t compare. Come along you’ll see the world The pulse ripples, the crowd unfurls The current starts to flow and they are on. Oh it’s a white hot soul they want, sinful. You’re real, if real ever was, it’s just because We all are real, every living soul Yes I’m real, ‘cause someone gave us sound.

Annoyances
People....so easily predictable and its sad. Sad because I know exactly how things will fall with them,know precisely what their train of thought is. Its always the same. How much they got fucked up this weekend,who they oggled,ad nauseam. I wish I could find people who think deeper than the here and now; those that dream of Ur or of a better future. All I encounter is the typical modern infidel.

Because I Care!
The following are tips for any character in a horror film. If you do happen to find yourself in a horror film someday, use these tips wisely and you may make it out alive. Until the sequel that is... Survival Tips: 1. When it seems that you've killed the monster, never check to see if it's really dead. 2. If you find that your house is built upon or near a cemetery, was once a church used for black masses, had previous inhabitants who went mad or committed suicide or died in some horrible fashion or who performed necrophilia or satanic practices, move away immediately. 3. Never read a book of demon summoning aloud, even as a joke. 4. Do not search the basement, especially when the power has just gone out. 5. If your children speak to you in Latin or any other language which they do not know, or if they speak using a voice other than their own, shoot them at once. It will save you a lot of grief in the long run. Note: it's unlikely they'll die easy, so

Ufo Seen????
Possible Mile-Wide UFO Spotted over English Channel? Both pilot and passengers reported seeing the mysterious event. Last Edited: Saturday, 23 Jun 2007, 6:31 AM PDT MyFOX Los Angeles Possible UFO Sighting What's white, glows, is a mile wide and flies? That's what the pilot and passengers of a British jetliner want to know after they reported seeing an unidentified flying object fitting that description outside their aircraft windows over the Channel Islands. The craft is allegedly one of the largest UFOs ever seen, the Evening Standard reported Friday. Citing an official air-miss report on the incident several weeks ago in Pilot magazine, the newspaper stated that Aurigny Airlines Capt. Ray Bowyer first caught sight of the object while flying close to Alderney , one of several islands in the English Channel located off the Normandy coast. Bowyer described the object as “a cigar-shaped brilliant white light.” "It was a very sharp, thin yellow object

Is Number 11 The One To Break The Cherry ?
A young man married a beautiful woman who had previously divorced 10 husbands. On their wedding night, she told her new husband to, "Please be gentle... I'm still a virgin". "What?" exclaimed the new groom. "How can that be if you've been married ten times?" "Well, husband #1 was a Sales Representative; he kept telling me how great it was going to be. "Husband #2 was in Software Services; he was never really sure how it was suppose to function; but he said he'd look into it and get back with me. "Husband #3 was an automotive technician; he said that everything checked out diagnostically but he just couldn't get the engine running. "Husband #4 was in Telemarketing; even though he knew he had the order, ..he didn't know when he would be able to deliver. "Husband #5 was a scientist; he understood the basic principle but he wanted three years to research, implement, and design a new state-of- the-art procedure. "Husband #6 was an Administrator; he thought

Broken Poetry Song Or Prose
So here I sit, Striving for the poetry that usually pours so freely from heart to hand; pen to paper. Maybe my poetry is broken like my heart and so much else. Maybe I'm doomed to prose my thoughts my gift of rhyme and juxtaposition lost, like my soul mate, my heart and my family. Don't know what happened to my Miss Independant maybe Kelly's right and I fell in love took a chance and followed my heart even though I knew my downfall would ensue Tina had it right, what's love got to do with it? Sometimes I wish I could just amalgamate all those songs into one that writes it all. A few lines of Miss Independant, followed by a dash of Your So Vain, a sprinkle of Sober, Crawling, Break Stuff, Bodies and Last Resort, then cover the entire conflagaration With A Broken Wing. All the while wishing I were Comfortably Numb as tears that fall silently from my eyes scream out the loudest song of pain and loss their only sound, the sad plop of tears on a page Singi

Updates
there are a few things i need to let you know...i am at my moms hopefully only until fall...we only had one thing so far that we know of that was stolen...a step ladder that was a gift from my mom but oh well if that was the only thing they stole then i count my blessings....they tried to lock us out from getting the rest of my belongings but that attempt didn't work and we got all our stuff...now we are at least somewhere we are wanted and not hated... on Memorial Day my mom fell and broke her back in 2 places and we are doing what we can but my fibro is running rampant and i can't do much and the CFS is kicked into high gear but that is because of the heat...it happens every summer... which brings me to the last bit of news: i have just created a care page for myself...i will be updating it regularly but not daily...if you would like to view it you will need to create a sn and pw to do so...there is a message board set up as well for my support system and any who view it

~what My Eyes Reveal,,,,~
You scored as Passion, You are very passionate whether that passion is good or evil has yet to be determined. You have great power over others and they seem to flock to your service. You are very competative almost to a fault. Perhaps you should let someone else win for a change?Passion58% Mysterious50% Eyes full of Pain42% Diamond Eyes8% What do your eyes reveal about you?(PICS!)created with QuizFarm.com

What The Heck 50 Cent Is Holding?
WHAT THE HECK 50 CENT IS HOLDING? BETTER YET WHY IS HE HOLING IT? OK I FOUND THESE PICS SOMEWHERE ON AOL. AND THOUGHT IT WAS IRONIC TO THE ARTICLES THAT CAME OUT LAST MONTH WHERE WOMEN SAID THEY ENGAGE IN SEX WITH MR.50 CENT AND HE IS WEAK IN THE SEX DEPARTMENT. HMMMMMMMMMMMMM SO I GUESS HE TRYING SOMETHING NEW NOW DON'T KNOW BUT ITS A GOOD LAUGH. SMOOCHES THIS COCO DIVA

Caught My Eye
A man is dining in a fancy restaurant and there is a gorgeous redhead sitting at the next table. He has been checking her out since he sat down, but lacks the nerve to talk with her. Suddenly she sneezes, and her glass eye comes flying out of its socket towards the man. He reflexively reaches out, grabs it out of the air, and hands it back. Oh my , I am so sorry, " the woman says as she pops her eye back in place. "Let me buy your dinner to make it up to you, " she says. They enjoy a wonderful dinner together, and afterwards they go to the theater followed by drinks. They talk, they laugh, she shares her deepest dreams and he shares his. She listens. After paying for everything, she asks him if he would like to come to her place for a nightcap and stay for breakfast. They had a wonderful, wonderful time. The next morning, she cooks a gourmet meal with all the trimmings. The guy is amazed! ! Everything had been SO incredible! !! ! "You know, he said,

The Inner Man Part 2
The inner Man part 2 Welcome to the secondary information offices! Here we can get a drink and imbibe on the clutterings of our host's Spinal Fluid. This is strong stuff so if I slur a bit it is the host and not me makeing the epithets. Now Take a good look at this! These Screens depict first,the actual view of our host, and with the proper adjustment we will see the actual thing he thinks he saw. Football ahh what a great sport of the specie. Now I won't get into the play but it was a draw right shinbone with a fake at the left. this will end of course in a winning touchdown. That is what actually was seen. Now after this minor adjustment we shall see what is being placed in his memory. OH MY GOD!!! Ladies I am sorry but this is an adult oriented tour. As you can plainly see the twentytwo cave men have beaten each other sensles and in some ways dead and dying, as the victor grabs the female tied to the steak there and proceeds to umm, uh, penetrate her roughly from beh

Just In Case U Wanted To Know Again
My StoryTAKE THIS SURVEY!Finish the sentence:Hi, my name is:EllenNever in my life have I been:ridden a trainThe one person who can drive me nuts is:my daughterHigh school:auburnWhen I'm nervous:pick my nailsThe last song I listened to was:will you marry meIf I were to get married right now my best man/maid of honor:??My hair is:reddish brownWhen I was 5:.i stepped on a nailLast Christmas:i was sadI should be..happyWhen I look down I see:the floorThe happiest recent event was:when my fiance ask me to marry himIf I were a character on 'Friends' I'd be:?By this time next year:ill be marriedMy current gripe is:toliet seat upI have a hard time understanding:my daughterThere's this girl I know that:is niceYou know I like you when:i always talk to youIf I won an award, the first person I would tell would be:?Take my advice:always be kindThe thing I want to buy:new clothesIf you visited the place I was born:linton,indianaI plan to visit:flordiaIf you spent the night at my house:id be at my com

Discordianism / Erisian
The Discordian or Erisian movement is described as a 'Non- Prophet Irreligious Disorganization' and has claimed 'The Erisian revelation is not a complicated put-on disguised as a new religion, but a new religion disguised as a complicated put-on. " It all started with the *'Principia Discordia, or How I Found the Goddess and What I Did to Her When I Found Her'*, a collection of articles and ideas compiled by Greg Hill (Malaclypse the Young-er). The central theme is 'Chaos is every bit as important as Order' as illustrated in the story of The curse of Greyface: *Humor is central to Discordianism, but Discordianism should not be dismissed as a joke. Profound experiences frequently accompany the practice or Erisinaism. It is a perceptual game, one which demonstrates that the absurd is just as valid as the mundane and chaos is just as valid as order. It frees the practitioner from the order games (that most have forgotten are games) to play games with order or games with chaos, or both

Paganism
Here are a few of the best sites out there dealing with basic paganism. PaganPath.com - http://www.paganpath.com/ Paganism - Yesterday, Today & Tomorrow: http://www.geocities.com/RainForest/Canopy/2178 The EarthSpirit Community - http://www.earthspirit.com/ A Mystickal Grove - Earth Spirituality Resources - http://www.amysticalgrove.com/index2_1.html

Toxic Love!
Toxic Love - the dysfunctional, addictive, cultural norm "True Love is not a painful obsession. It is not taking a hostage or being a hostage. It is not all-consuming, isolating, or constricting. Unfortunately the type of love most of us learned about as children is in fact an addiction, a form of toxic love." *** "If we can start seeing relationships not as the goal but as opportunities for growth then we can start having more functional relationships. A relationship that ends is not a failure or a punishment - it is a lesson." *** "As long as we believe that we have to have the other in our life to be happy, we are really just an addict trying to protect our supply - using another person as our drug of choice. That is not True Love - nor is it Loving." Get more at www.hostdrjack.com

Life
Well my life has been having its down more than its up right now. I suffered a major breakdown here last week and had to go to the er. I am ok now, but they put me on some medicines and I have to go back and see a regular doctor. I found out too that my boyfriends ex-wife never sent in the paperwork for their divorce and so we have no idea where she is at and we have to pay $485.00 to refile and not to mention we have to run a 4 week ad in the paper. i just wish this shit would end so that we can get married. if I ever see her, I would love to just slap the shit out of her. I know that isn't the christian thing to say or do and I am sorry, but that is how i am feeling right now. sorry if i offended anyone.

My Thought's On Friend's....
i want to start off by saying that, i am one truely honest person....i like u as a friend and only a friend unless i tell you otherwise!! if you are here just to try to make more than that, you might as well move on...unless you are like really really hott...like my crush...lol. but anyway's i just want to meet new people and have REAL conversation's!! please don't shout at me with some crazy shit like...do you like your toes sucked...come on now!! shit like that will make me want to block ya!! i don't get personal as i am a very personal person. i am a REAL PERSON....don't try to get your rock's off with me... cuz it won't happen!! if you can't accept that...then you need not add me!!

Wow
Well peeps to all that have been enjoying my morphs ive created your more than welcome..there cool to create and with a little bit of work their done. now going to 1st shift on my job makes it a little rougher to get things done so if ya wanna morph created just leave me a message and i'll jump on it after i get home. TYVM also to everyone who's been dropping by to check out my profile and stop along the way. Thanks!!

I Love You
i love the way he looks at me the stare thats in his eyes... its like im that special someone that everyone holds so dear as he wraps his arms around me i feel the warmth from his tear i kno he does not cry from sadness for it is a tear of joy i hope this love lasts forever and not just sumthing from a dream i think to myself ... oh i hope that this is real for im never this special in life but as i close my eyes and take a deep breath i hear the words I LOVE YOU .....wow i know im not dreaming for this love is so true will it last forever? only my love will know that truth.... I LOVE YOU

Well It's Moving Day 6-25-07
It's that time where we move to a new place and a new area in Jacksonville,Fl. I'm sorry to say that I wont be on for a few days or even a week or so, but don't be sad I'll be back to rate,fan,and befriend all of you that passed by my page....

You Knew It Was Coming Sooner Or Later Pt 2
disclaimer:: don't take offense to this..its a rant so read laugh at your family members smack a cow and enjoy! Ok it has been a while for the second coming of what the fuck theatre...just kidding...the first one was about the puppies..boobs..breast if you are a fucking nerd...tits if you a redneck..girls if you are my friend kindra..since i am not kindra and I rather say puppies than fuck goddamm there ya have it puppies for young women 17 - 30 if there are nice now if they are packing some monsters we have the rottweilers(i know its wrong shuddup) for black super busty women...the pit bulls for some white women and pretty much everyone else and the classic pugs for saggy big older women...there ya go thats the end of the first part now lets get crack-a-lacking on Part DEUCE Bitches!!!!! Yes i have to take about clothing on the wrong people aka that shit don't belong on you or near you or coming out your fucking mouth...you have seen them big gurls in lil girls shirts and ski

You Knew It Was Coming Sooner Or Later Pt 1
Ok Ladies and Gentlemen..Let me pose some questions: how concern are women with large breast bout the unwanted attention they recieve from men with no kind of manners? let me explain..you get a nice looking woman, chick, girl, female, or what have you that happens ro be of the female persuasion..anyhow.she nice looking with natural large breast (fony balloonis for some who like theirs on the operated side.) she has them all out served up looking like a delicious dessert..do you stare and oogle a booble or pay it no mind? thats like posing the question to a woman saying if clothes were made to make men sex like open crotch jeans that showed the junk would they look..I mean the rope and 2 ton bowling balls just a hanging and a swinging in open view..now what if that guy was packing a Monstro the Pussy Killer and Thrilla..You'd look no denying the fact that its there for your viewing pleasure and fantasyfulfilment..i am not knocking women with small breast..i love all breast all shapes an

People Who Can Kiss Your Ass!
1. George Bush 2. the fuckers who drive 35 in a 55mph damn zone! 3. the check out clerk at 7-11, rude prick! 4. tax collectorssss, ha ha 5. my ex! 6. my husband's ex...CUNT! 7. people who think that they can sing after 35 drinks! 8. the putzes who invented the one ply toliet paper! 9. My mother-in-law 10. surveys on myspace who ask you, "what's your favorite color", or "have you had sex yet"...if you knuckleheads are still asking that shit then you NEED to get laid, KISS MY ASS, ha ha 11. #5 repeated TWICE 12 #2 - and the fuckheads who speed up when you try to overtake them, and then slow down again when it becomes one lane - It should be legal to ram these cockheads off the road! (What - Me suffer road rage?! Surely you jest?!) Actually, I could pinpoint a squillion traffic/driving offences - they ALL suck, but this one is one of the worst! Ok, a blue pill to calm me down!

Havamal For New Yawkas
Havamal for New Yawkas Stanza 1: When you open a door look around, take a good long look for you can't know for certain when muggers are waiting in the hallway. Stanza 2: It's good to be a host! An invited guest has come over. Let him take a load off his feet. He's had a hectic day and he knows you'll be prying him for gossip. Stanza 3: If a guest of yours is freezing, they need to sit by the space heater, and you should order a pizza. After a long trip in wet clothes, if they don't change they'll catch cold and get pneumonia Stanza 4: When someone comes ovah for dinner give him a drink, let him use the can, and make him feel at home. Be Nice, and he will have an interesting conversation and listen to you in return. Stanza 5: When you leave the house, don't forget to wear your thinking cap At Home, you can walk around in your underwear Aspiring writers make fun of simple minded people when they attempt open mike poetry slam in the Village

Where Did U Go
Ok people.. the first high school to get to 100 wins the face off and is crowned the king of high schools........ Ok the rules are simple all you do is type your name in the next free space for what high school you went to or are attending,or add your school then re - post the bulletin so all your friends can Play..... SALLISAW HIGH SCHOOL 1. JaNell Bormann (Ontman) 2.Jason Walker 3. Danny Fuller 4. Cohene Busch 5. Katie Horn 6. Jenny Newport-Young 7. Jamie Anderson-Barrett 8. Krista Livers 9. Toni Ruark 10.susie boggus(lockhart) MULDROW HIGH SCHOOL 1. Jill Kinser 2. Angela Collins CHALMETTE HIGH SCHOOL 1.Mindy Beaubouef 2.Laurie Trosclair 3.gina virga loze 4.ashlie larocca 5.Shelby Fraino 6.Arielle Fraino 7.gabrielle facio 8.Rachel Fernandez ANDREW JACKSON HIGH SCHOOL 1. JoEllen Mancuso 2.Arielle Fraino 3.gabrielle facio 4.Rachel Fernandez HAMMOND HIGH SCHOOL 1. Dale Campsen HANCOCK HIGH SCHOOL 1.gabrielle facio L.W. HIGGINS HIGH SCHOO

Attn Mixed Martial Arts Fans
Please stop by and join my MMA forum. We discuss everything from the UFC all the way down to the smallest promotion. We also have a very nice social club area, and a pro wrestling section. So if you are a fan of Mixed Martail Arts, then stop by and check us out. Once your on the main page, just click the forum link and pick a username and a password and join the fun. Link http://www.obsessedwithmma.com

Work...
Most know I've been handed the responsibility of developing a training program for my work. We were so small there really wasn't one. At this point and with our current growth we HAVE to have it. So after the powers that be wanting everything in physical manuals now that want everything on powerpoint, web demos etc. It is far easier to traing a class of new highers that way. I only wish they would have agreed to it a month ago when I pushed for it. I guess a "VP" had to or a "power that be" had to come up with the idea. Well let's be honest, they sidetable the great idea and kept their bosses from hearing it. Waited and later claimed is there's so they're bonus is $80k vs $60k or some crap like that. (argh!) So I get sadled with extra work due to last minute changes. Result? I'll be on here every morning only. It will just be long enough to check private message over the next coupe of weeks. C-Ya around!

Honesty
Honestly answer the following 20 questions... can you get through them without lying??? 1 - Why are you best friends with your best friend? Please who's better than Lis? 2 - What bothers you the most about other people? Mostly stupidity. 3 - Would you ever marry for money? Let's go with no. 4 - Do you prefer to text message or talk on the phone? I'd rather text. Most of the time i don't feel like talking anyway. 5 - Do you believe that 30 really is the new 20? What? no! 6 - If you had a crush on someone would you tell them? Nope. 7 - What is one of the toughest things you ever had to do? Probably see my Nene in NICU when he was born. 8 - Name a challenge you are faced with on a reg basis? nothing comes to mind. 9 - Do you cry a lot? not anymore 10 - Do you have a plan? i always have a plan 11 - Do you think its possible to only love one person for the rest of your life? No, I love everyone. :D (I know what this question

News To Be Told
well i made it to NYC. he was waiting there when i arrived. although he was overly happy to see me something seemed odd. apperently he was afraid of what was going to be talked about, wellso was i. (very sorry for typos i dont have spellcheck on here as i am at a cyber cafe)anyway, we talked and he understood my seelings as i did his and we are going to try and see how things go but i'm atill not exactly sure is we are together or not as a no one else type of thing. but he missed me so thats good i guesse

Deleting Massive People Off My Friends List
JUST LETTING YOU ALL KNOW THAT I AM IN THE PROCESS OF DELETING MASS PEOPLE OFF MY LIST PEOPLE THAT DONT COME TO MY PAGE OR EVER COMMENT OR RATE I HAVE GOT WAY TO MANY PEOPLE THAT HAVE NOT ONCE SPOKEN TO ME OR RATED OR COMMENTED I DON'T NEED A ZILLION PEOPLE ON MY LIST IVE ALREADY DELETED OVER 200 PEOPLE WILL CONTINUE SAME THING WILL GO FOR MY FANS AND FAMILY LIST I WILL BE DELETING PEOPLE FROM THERE AS WELL IF I HAVE DELETED ANYONE THAT MAY WANT TO BE READDED JUST SEND ME A REQUEST FOR TH REST OF YOU THANKS FOR HANGING AROUND ON MY LIST BUT I DONT HAVE ROOM FOR PEOPLE WHO DON'T DO ANYTHING HAVE A GREAT REST OF THE NIGHT.

When I Feel The Most Beautiful
I feel most beautiful...when i just wake up and my hair is messy and my eyes are the most green. I feel most beautiful when my friends and I are taking pics and making our silly faces.I feel most beautiful when i just get outta the shower and the beads of water are dripping down my tanned body..and i feel how soft my body feels and it reminds me of how wonderful the human body really is and why i love skin to skin touch.I feel most beautiful when i put on that dress that i have been dying to wear and it lays on my curves like the curves on a winding road..and it reminds me why i am so passionate and why i love to be a woman!I feel most beautiful when i am cracking up and my abs and cheeks hurt so much from laughing so hard! I feel most beautiful right after i work out..cause i am taking care of my body and it feels so tight and in shape.I feel most beautiful when i make someone smile or laugh, when i bring them happiness. I feel most beautiful knowing i have a big heart and i am caring

Butterfly Mornings
Waking to sun drenched fairy floss bouquets in the sky I Search the groggy morning dawn for life Eyes falling on the flicker flitter of a hundred and one butterflies taking flight Golden droplets falling on quivering wings dappled auroras scattering forth pure light Morning surrealism lends life to disbeliefs The breeze of two hundred and two trembling silken fans breathes life into the chaste dormant soul of a brand new day of spring I breathe. And even on such a morning I will forever fall into the moody, gentle, somber heart, of you.

Screw You All!
Point whores. That's all I hear about from the bastards in the MUMMs. Fuck 'em. Where's the fun in being on CT if you don't try and level up? Most of the fuckers commenting in the MUMMS and whining about how you get points for them now and refusing to vote are VIC's and level 20 and up or whatever. SO if YOU don't give a flying fuck about points, explain to me why you bothered posting the salute to get past level 10, or why you bothered contributing financially to the site, or why you even come here? Go to Myspace, where you don't get points for anything. GO to Hi5 (I don't know much about them cuz I don't go there).. go anywhere that I don't, or that I don't have to deal with you. Some of us enjoy the challenge of levelling up. Of earning new privileges on the site. And of exploring ways to play around with it. We can't all do the surveys, and if the only way we can level up is by rating, commenting, and voting, fuck off and leave us be. Yes.. the MUMMs get repetitive. Th

The Rainbow I've Been Praying For
There is something sobering about having a gun pointed at you. Shortly before midnight last night, I found myself thrust into a situation where I was charged with attempting to calm and contain an accused felon and shortly thereafter having the police burst into my home, guns pointed at me. It was surreal, unsettling, and upsetting. It looked like something from the TV show Cops and there I was doing my best to calm a drug-crazed, violent, and clearly angry individual; with a red dot on my chest. I am tired of people fucking my shit up. All those wonderful One Love/Rasta Vibrations aside... This incident served to remind me of a lot of things. This was not the first time I have had a gun pointed at me by the police or otherwise, but it will damn well be the last. As I told the soon to be ex-wife after the fact: This is part of the reason we're getting divorced. You aren't nearly as upset as you should be about this situation. This is not the way I am going to live. I hav

Chris Benoit Update
Wrestler Benoit, wife and son found dead By DEBBIE NEWBY, Associated Press Writer Tue Jun 26, 7:13 AM ET FAYETTEVILLE, Ga. - Details of the deaths of pro wrestler Chris Benoit, his wife and their 7-year-old son may seem "a little bizarre" when released to the public, a prosecutor said. ADVERTISEMENT Authorities were investigating the deaths at a secluded Fayette County home as a murder-suicide and were not seeking any suspects outside the home. Fayette County District Attorney Scott Ballard told The Atlanta Journal-Constitution, "The details, when they come out, are going to prove a little bizarre." Those details may emerge after the completion of autopsies scheduled for Tuesday. Investigators believe Benoit killed his wife and son over the weekend and then himself sometime Monday. The bodies were found Monday afternoon in three different rooms of the house on Green Meadow Lane, in a subdivision off a gravel road about two miles from Whitewater Country

Hey You! You! Ohioan!
Yes. That's right. You sitting there with your camera in your hand. Okay, maybe it's not in your hand, but its nearby or you remember where you left it. I am leaving this great state and trading it for another. Foolish you may say, but this is the path that destiny has laid before me and I must travel it (wow, I need some coffee). I challenge you to take a picture of Ohio, a picture that screams Ohio. Give me something to remember when I'm far, far away in another land (south of the Mason Dixn line). It can be indoors, outdoors, a landmark, or a symbol (I'll even take something Buckeye...*sigh*) Put it in one of your albums, notify me, and let me rip it. Or simply post it here. If you aren't an Ohioan, but have visited and have pics -- share. Now go shutterbug your little hearts out and help me savor a piece of Ohio in mine.

North Carolina Bbq
1 (3 lb.) boneless pork shoulder (an inexpensive cut is okay) 1 sm. onion, sliced thinly 1 1/4 tsp. salt, divided 1/4 tsp. pepper Water 1/2 - 3/4 c. cider vinegar 1 tbsp. Texas Pete (cayenne pepper sauce) 2 tbsp. sugar 1/4 tsp. crushed red pepper Preheat oven to 300 degrees. Cut pork into 4 or 5 pieces and place in a Dutch oven. Add onion, 1 teaspoon salt, pepper and about 1/2" water. Cover tightly. Cook 2 1/2 to 3 hours. When meat has cooled enough to handle, drain and pull apart into shredded pieces. Set aside to cool. Prepare Sauce: Mix vinegar, hot pepper sauce, sugar, red pepper, remaining salt. Cook slowly 10 minutes. Add pork and warm through. If you prefer more of a sauce base, add a little of your favorite BBQ sauce. Serve with slaw and buns. This is an easy crowd pleaser.

Life
What the fuck....i mean why doe people wonder how guys get so damn mad...really are we suppose to be real quiet and nice and just take the ass kicking others give us? why is it wrong for me to stand and fight for what i believe in?

In A Recent Event
Chris Benoit killed his family. Imagine what must have been going on in his wife's head while he strangled her to death.She was probably thinking 'I should have went through with the divorce'. Imgaine what his son was thinking? Now they say its because he was on a Roid Rage..Hmm some what true I think.It happens,but I also think it was plotted...thought out if you will.Saying 'he had to leave because of family probs,sending weird text msgs to family members,which in turn making them call the police? Yeh it was planned. I cant believe a guy who we all grew up watching in the end killed his wife,kid and then like a pussy killed himself. In my opinion I hope this opens up the other wrestlers eyes n I hope they stop doing Roids.I also hope McMahon finally buckles down and makes it mandatory for these wrestlers to get checked for roid abuse. This is a sad sad case. Ive lost all respect I once held for Benoit. I now refer to him a Chris the cocksucker Benoit.

The White Buffalo
The White Buffalo "The White Buffalo Woman" The Sioux are a warrior tribe, and one of their proverbs says, "Woman shall not walk before man. " Yet White Buffalo Woman is the dominant figure of their most important legend. The medicine man Crow Dog explains, "This holy woman brought the sacred buffalo calf pipe to the Sioux. There could be no Indians without it. Before she came, people didn't know how to live. They knew nothing. The Buffalo Woman put her sacred mind into their minds. " At the ritual of the sun dance one woman, usually a mature and universally respected member of the tribe, is given the honor of representing Buffalo Woman. Though she first appeared to the Sioux in human form, White Buffalo Woman was also a buffalothe Indians' brother, who gave its flesh so that the people might live. Albino buffalo were sacred to all Plains tribes; a white buffalo hide was a sacred talisman, a possession beyond price. One summer so long ago that nobody knows how long, the

Another Day And All That...
*stretches* Tonight was an easy night at work. 3 and 1/2 hours in and out. When I walked in the woman running the store got excited. Apparently last time the store went so poorly because they had bad counters. well.. maybe not bad just inexperienced. It went well tonight though, thank god. Tomorrow is an early morning. (And what am I doing? Fucking around CT of course. Hehe.) I have the easiest job though. Aside from the hours of course. I count stuff for a living, and whats more is normally I don't have to count higher than 10 since I have a machine. Why do people find this to be difficult. The keying I can understand. It's a little strange to 10 key on your hip. But it gets easier the more you do it. I dunno... somepeople have smoked themselves retarded. I don't know that its a good excuse though.. I know some people I work with who are down to their last brain cell and yet they can key. Go figure.

The Price Of Children
The Price of Children This is just too good not to pass on to all. Something absolutely positive for a change. I have repeatedly seen the breakdown of the cost of raising a child, but this is the first time I have seen the rewards listed this way. It's nice. The government recently calculated the cost of raising a child from birth to 18 and came up with $160,140 for a middle income family. Talk about sticker shock! That doesn't even touch college tuition . But $160,140 isn't so bad if you break it down. It translates into: * $8,896.66 a year, * $741.38 a month, or * $171.08 a week. * That's a mere $24.24 a day! * Just over a dollar an hour . Still, you might think the best financial advice is don't have children if you want to be "rich." Actually, it is just the opposite. What do you get for your $160,140 ? * Naming rights. First, middle, and last! * Glimpses of God every day. * Giggles under the covers every night.

Laying Tiles........
lol I was workin on fixing my dang computer yesterday and since it was soooo slowwwwwwww at scans, it took all night! So, while I was doin all that schtuff, I decided to get started on laying the tiles in the dining room...... not a lot left but I need a helper, any volunteers? LOL! lol I know it won't get done today, no way I'm gonna be able to even budge this desk! lol. So, maybe today I'll get around to replacing some light bulbs n schtuff. lol. But if anybody wants to help, come on over! lol. ok just bored and rambling, again. . Have a good one! Hugz.......Rose

That's Pretty Awesome.
So a few weeks ago I contacted a company because they shorted their check. I just get an email today of how they've been bouncing it around because no one wants to help. My favorite. Assholes that take their time and still don't give you an answer.

Don't Push The Buttons
LADIES ROOM... In a Chicago hospital, a gentleman had made several attempts to get into the men's restroom, but it had always been occupied. A nurse noticed his predicament. "Sir," she said " You may use the ladies room if you promise not to touch any of the buttons on the wall." He did what he needed to, and as he sat there he noticed the buttons he had promised not to touch. Each button was identified by letters: WW, WA,PP, and a red one labeled ATR. Who would know if he touched them? He couldn't resist.. He pushed WW. warm water was sprayed gently upon his bottom. What a nice feeling, he thought.Men's restrooms don't have nice things like this. Anticipating greater pleasure, he pushed the WA button. Warm air replaced the warm water, gently drying his underside. When this stopped, he pushed the PP button. A large powder puff caressed his bottom adding a fragile scent of spring flower to this unbelievable pleasure.. The ladies restroom was more than a restroom, it is tender loving ple

Myspace Craziness
11 fuck yous of my space Body: 11 fuck yous of my space Body: Fuck You number ONE There is NO SUCH THING as a MySpace Tracker. It does NOT exist. So quit posting stupid bulletins like "OH-MY-GOD this WORKS!!!" No, it doesnt. Fuck You number TWO. To the people who have like 25,000 friends; Are you fucking serious? You're stupid. Go play in traffic. Fuck you number THREE. Don't ever post pictures and say: "OMG, I'm so ugly" because if you were, you wouldn't post them. If you do you're a fucking moron. Fuck you number FOUR. NOBODY cares about threats over the internet, so don't try to act hardcore with the keyboard. Fighting online is like racing in the Special Olympics; Even if you win, you're still retarded. Fuck you number FIVE. Quit crying because you're not on someones 'Top 8'. Who cares?!? ITS MYSPACE!!! If you really cared that much, you would pick up the damn phone! Fuck you number SIX. Who really cares if I don't acc

Don't Mind Me
As I'm sitting here at work today, I'm posting lyrics of the country songs that pop on the random radio programming. I'm not a big fan of country, but once in a while, something comes on and I'm inspired to write it down. I don't mean to rush anyone out. Sorry lol

The Strip Club
by anon. My little brother is 10 years younger than me, has the hottest little wife you could ever imagine. She’s all of 5 foot tall, perfect legs, a cute but tiny little ass and almost no tits at all. The great thing is though, she has the most incredible nipples I have ever seen, easily an inch long and always hard! Laura loves to talk dirty, doesn’t care what she says when around the adults and is just always horny. She has gone to strip clubs in the past with my brother, and always plays up to the strippers, even telling my brother he could bring one home if he liked. My brother has told me stories and shown me pics of Laura but I never really saw her in action before. My big chance came one weekend when my wife was out of town. Mark called and said he and Laura were headed to a club, would I like to go? Now, at my age, strip clubs aren’t really a big draw anymore so I was about to say no thanks. The Mark said “Laura went and had a Brazilian wax today so she can tease the st

Life Is Always Suger Coated
Life is always sugar coated Ive tried so hard to please you Ive tried so hard to be me Ive learned alot of lessons And this world isnt getting easy I live my life, i try to at least I cant get ahead, because im stuck, im torn, im beat So tired My eyes My mind My life It doesnt matter because its all a game It will never be alright You try to understand You try to reach out You try to do you best for me In your words, not actions, and thats what is lacking now I know you think its the right thing to do To tell me you have been there before Your not in my brain, You cant lie to me anymore These feelings i have Arnt just feelings I cant explain what they are But me, they are killing You can like me, or you can die No matter what....these things i cant deny Its apart of me now Its apart of my soul And now this part of me thats living Its just ready to let go

My Love
Staring at a blank screen waiting for your arrival but you never come. How could you leave me like this alone in a world so cold You told me you loved me with all your heart I should have known from the very start that our love would come to a bitter end. I will remain waiting for you, though, staring through my teary eyes and hoping for an I.M. that will never come knowing that I am just a figment from your past and that this is really the end.

Writing Material Of Mine...
Attn: All readers... I am going to start periodically storing some of my fresh writing material here for those who are interested in reading... This one here is a paranormal romance... It starts of real slow, but you'll see it gets real interesting. Remember that this is the roughest of the rough drafts...lol *************************************************** As he closes his eyes and wipes the beads of sweat off his brow he can hear the laughter of three women off in the background. He glances at his watch and realizes how slow the day is dragging along. His production isn’t moving to swiftly either. Picking up the axe to continue chopping the wood for Mr. Woodrow when he hears splashing where the laughter of the women he heard earlier along with the combination of the water splashing and what sounded like women having a good time together caught his full attention, he immediately put the axe back on the ground and headed in the direction of the voices. “Amber c’mon! Yo

Application
1. Your Name: 2. Age: 3. Favorite position (s)? 4. Do you think I'm hot? 5. Would you have sex with me? 6. lights on or off? 7. Would you have to be drunk? 8. Would you take a shower with me? 9. Have you ever thought about having sex with me? 10. Would you leave after or stay the night? 11. Do you like cuddling afterwards? 12. Condom or skin? 13. Do you give Oral pleasures? 14. Do you like to receive Oral Pleasures? 15. Have sex on the first date? 16. Would you kiss me during sex? 17. Do you think I would be good in bed? 18. Threesome? 20. How many times would you like to cum? 21. Would you use me as a booty call? 21. Can I use you as a booty call? 22. Do you like foreplay? 23. What is foreplay to you? 24. Can we take pictures of the act? 25. Do you like anal pleasures?

America For Americans First!
I am sorry but after hearing they want to sing the National Anthem in Spanish - enough is enough. Nowhere did they sing it in Italian, Polish, Irish (Celtic), German or any other language because of immigration. It was written by Francis Scott Key and should be sung word for word the way it was written The news broadcasts even gave the translation -- not even close. Sorry if this offends anyone, but this is MY COUNTRY - IF IT IS YOUR COUNTRY SPEAK UP -- please pass this along. I am not against immigration -- just come through like everyone else. Get a sponsor; have a place to lay your head; have a job; pay your taxes, live by the rules AND LEARN THE LANGUAGE as all other immigrants have in the past -- and GOD BLESS AMERICA! PART OF THE PROBLEM Think about this: If you don't want to forward this for fear of offending someone -- YOU'RE PART OF THE PROBLEM !!!! It is Time for America to Speak up If you agree -- pass this along; ?if you don't agree --

What Does Your Eye Color Say
B|L|U|E| E|Y|E|S People with blue eyes last the longest in relationships. They are kind, pretty or handsome, very good kissers and are really hot. They always fall in love with their closest friends and never understand why. They are very funny, outgoing and don't care what people think or say. They are very satisfying and love to please. Are straight up WARRIORS when necessary. If you repost this and you have blue eyes you will have the best kiss sometime in the next 5 days. ____________________________________________________ |G|R|E|E|N| |E|Y|E|S| People with green eyes have the most passion put into relationships, honest and trust worthy, they have long lasting relationships. People with green eyes are also the most beautiful. They are a very good kisser. They are fun and outgoing, love to make people laugh, random as hell, love to pleasure their guy/girl. They long for the touch of another. People with green eyes are very sexy and very attracted towards the opposite sex. Tend t

Grinz
I have seen her beauty on the inside as well as out. She courses through me like the venom of love, taking my heart,entrenching my soul. I believe in her with all that I am. I've fallen for her hard, and have no wish for this to end. I give myself to thee, as she given herself to me. I cherish you, I honor thee, You are not a 10 nor an 11 you are unrateable.

To My Closest Friend You Know Who You Are
Hey babe, I know you are going thru a tough time right now and I wish you all of the luck in the world that you get thru this... you don't deserve the shit that you are going thru right now you are such a good father and person.... I know you probably won't read this but I just wanted to let you know that I will be there for you anytime that you need me day or night

Random Thoughts
WHY do we go after that which we know we cant have? I do because I like a challenge, and I insist on torturing myself. Good things come to those who wait, but i am so very tired of waiting. You dont choose who you fall in love with, it just happens! Should you fight for someone you love, or do you wait and let that someone come to you? All I ask is for you to love me now and remember me when I am gone. Because all good things come to an end and nothing lasts forever !

Guardian
Her guardian spirit weeps for all they can do is stay near. Tonight he is vile; her guardian is shedding the tears she can’t. No longer has the will to fight: letting him shame her to submission. Her guardian looks up at the gods and says how much more of this. Silently the guardian folds thier arms around the abused, Singing sweet songs to soothe her battered soul. The guardian looks into the eyes and sees the emptiness there. At one time this was a happy vibrant one who laughed at the stars. Once she had the laugh that embraced life’s song, Danced with the breeze –but now that is gone. Her guardian keeps their watch but her pleas fall short. But at night when her tears fall and her sobs can be heard, she is wrapped in the strong loving arms and comforted and never truly alone.

The Fantastic Four: Rise Of The Silver Surfer
Marvel's first family of super heroes is back along with a possible friend...or foe. The movie basically picks up where the last one left off; Dr. Doom (Julian McMahon) is back to seek revenge against the Fantastic Four. Meanwhile, it seems a new nemesis reveals himself as the Fantastic Four must unravel the mystery of the Silver Surfer or else the entire planet will be destroyed. Unfortunately, this also causes a damp in Reed Richards/Mr. Fantastic (Iaon Grufford) engagement plans to Sue Storm/Invisible Woman (Jessica Alba) as they struggle adapting to their new celebrity super hero lives together. And oh yeah, Johnny Storm/Human Torch has a new ability to exchange powers with anyone whom he touches after his first encounter with the Silver Surfer. I'll admit after seeing the trailers for this film like any other comic geek or ex-geek in my case, I was psyched about seeing this movie. The thought of seeing an epic battle with the Fantastic Four and the Silver Surfer against Galactus a

Where I Am At In My Life....
I have FINALLY accepted that the "wife" does not love me and has moved on. At first that crushed me...to not be loved by a woman I put above all things in my life. Then here recently I had an awakening...a vision....or I just pulled my head out of my ass and looked around at what I was doing to myself and my family (which is made up of my true friends). And what I saw when my eyes adjusted to the blinding light was....I'll be ok. Am I a little scared being single at 33, hell yes. But, it's kinda nice to look at the lessons I have learned from the last 10 years and fix the mistakes that I allowed myself to make with others. to embrace the urge to break shit and fuck on the floor for no other reason then "I WANT TO!!!!" I miss her...but then again I miss all the people whom death has taken from me too. I really do feel like I'm gonna be ok...(laughs to self) yep......so....who wants to break shit and fuck on the floor....what, you don't want to break anything?

Rock...paper...scissors..and I Am...lol
You Are Paper Crafty and creative, you are able to adapt freely to almost any situation. People tend to underestimate you, unless they've truly seen what you are capable of. Deep down, you're always scheming and thinking up new plans. Your mind is constantly active. You are quite capable of anything you dream of. You can always figure out a way to get what you want. You can wrap a rock person up in your sheet of trickery. A scissor person can sneak up and cut you to pieces. When you fight: No one can anticipate your next move If someone makes you mad: You'll attack them mercilessly when they're unprepared Are You Rock, Paper, or Scissors?

20 Reasons To Have Sex .......
20 Reasons to have Sex ....... 1. Because you said so Even though you may not have promised to “love, honor, and have sex once a week” when you made a commitment to your relationship, it was understood that sex would be part of that bargain. Imagine how the marriage rates would go down if people said, “I’ll marry you, but don’t expect sex.” If you polled one thousand people on the street and asked them, “Is it reasonable to expect to have to have sex when you are married?” the overwhelming majority would say yes. If you expect a monogamous commitment from your partner, then it stands to reason that you will be a cooperative sex partner. 2. Sex helps you forget Oxytocin, which triggers orgasm, has an amnesic effect that lasts up to five hours. So for a period of time you forget that he maxed out your Visa card or she was an hour late getting home from work. Women get an additional benefit. During orgasm that parts of the brain that govern fear, anxiety, and stress are switche

Question?
I may insult some people & I'm sorry to do so. Why do many people only pick one of their nationalities to celebrate or make more popular then the others they may have? For instance: I am German, Irish & American Indian, I don't pick one of these and make it the only nationality I am.... You get what I'm saying?... b/c its real hard to put this in a question that makes sense. I've always wondered this and I see it all the time everywhere, people should be proud of ALL of the nationalities, not just one. Help me out!

Helmet Or No Helmet
Wear a motorcycle helmet if you like, but this writer makes a case for riding bare. By Dick Teresi ABATE, or American Bikers Aiming Toward Education, is a nationwide organization of helmet-hating Harley riders. Mensa is an international organization of geniuses and near-geniuses. Its members must score in the top two percent of the population in an intelligence test. The Gator Alley chapter of ABATE challenged its neighbors in the Southwest Florida chapter of Mensa to a whiz-kid test of knowledge. No bikes, no chains, no colors. Just tough questions, such as what was established by the Lateran Treaty of 1929? The showdown took place in Bonita Springs, Florida. It was a seesaw battle, but in the end, the bikers won. To be truthful, Mensa played without the services of its president, Jeff Avery. On the other hand, the ABATE team played without Avery also. He disqualified himself, being president of both clubs. After their loss, the Mensans sat down with their opponents a

There's Something Wrong With This Picture. ..
Two patients limp into two different medical clinics with the same complaint. Both have trouble walking and appear to require a hip replacement. The first patient is examined within the hour, is x-rayed the same day and has a time booked for surgery the following week. The second sees his family doctor after waiting a week for an appointment, then waits eight weeks to see a specialist, then gets an x-ray, which isn't reviewed for another week, put on lipitor and aspirin, has a stress test, cat scan, MRI, and finally has his surgery scheduled for six weeks from then. Why the different treatment for the two patients? The first is a Golden Retriever. The second is a Senior Citizen.

Another Non Believer.
No matter how long it takes and no matter if i'm waiting alone or with someone else. I still wait. It doesn't matter if it's a week, a month, or even a year. Fact remains the heart wants what the heart wants and if this girl can please her heart she will. So indulge yourself in the things that make your heart happy. And don't doubt for a second that you're worth waiting for. Because you are.

Nicely Undone
Her hands were shaking as she held them above her swollen sex Closing her eyes she pictured him in her mind Pushing her down on her lovely knees Holding his manhood in his strong, large hand Demanding her obedience as he held it above her face She ran her slender fingers expertly over her pink flesh Watching in her mind as he began to stroke his cock Long, smooth, controlled strokes So close to her mouth she could feel the heat The manly scent that was only his strong in the air She drove her fingers deep within herself Pushing when and where they needed to be pushed Oblivious to the world around her Reaching with one hand for her erect nipple Not so gently pulling on it and then the other He instructs her to stroke his shaft With one hand she cups his aching balls Grasping firmly the skin on his sack Pulling, stretching the skin taunt All the while pulling, stretching, piercing her own No words now He grabs two handfuls of her hair Pushin

Cincinnati
bitch i'm from cincinnati bitch i'm from cincinnati bitch i'm from cincinnati we forever thuggin baby x2 i'm well read i'm well toured but i'm from the city where we get in on the floor fuck round wind up dead just ti when he came by 3 of his psc got popped and died tried to make it rain but we showed ya'll who reigned ridin down I75 unloaded dem 45's ya may be the king in da atl but ya ain't holdin the crown down round here i rep for avondale to bond hill glendale to west hills up in da w.c. slaning pills colerain aint' gotta say a damn thing forest park where they make dem guns spark covington n newport short vine to main central to liberty ave it's all the same bitch i'm from cincinnati x4 we forever thuggin baby i rep da 513 lil city with a big mouth reppin da midwest on da edge of the south welcome to o hi o we got our on you 859 to the 812 937 we do this for you we ain't waitin no more comin fully load fixin to pull a kick doe take

Tyler Part 2
Child care workers were always involved, I guess it is hard to find someone to look after a child with so many problems. He came to my school because he was expelled from the last one for stabbing another student with a pencil when he was in grade 2. The teachers at my school were all afraid of him, even then. He was not even allowed to sit in class with the other students for that year, he took his work and an assistant worked with him in a little room down the hall. He was not allowed to go out and play at recess, he had his own recess break. The gr 4 teacher was young and fresh, she thought she would make a difference and let him in class part time. That went well. The gr 5 teacher happened to come from the school he was at where he stabbed the student and she truly hated him. I could not let him be victimized by her for a whole year, so I asked the principal to give him to me, even though I taught gr 6. And so he came to be with me for 2 years. I thought he was coming along well so

This Evening's Fun...
I remember now why I so rarely go to bars unless I'm playing in the band... wow... the cologne barely hides the desperation, ya know? anyway, turns out that Sean (work and not work buddy) needed me to go tonight for more than just dinner... he wanted to talk about (read: get validation) his decision to cut ties with his long time college on again off again girlfriend. about damn time... she's been playing him for a couple of years... however, after pouring a bunch of coffee down his throat and ensuring his ability to drive, i followed him home and then made my way here... and instantly fell to writing... got a buttload (metric ton, at least) out and onto (e)paper... that not withstanding, apologies all around to any and all who came looking, it has been an odd damned day... *exhales* i wish i were awake enough to start recording now... but later this morning will be soon enough :D

Just Something To Let You All Ponder
Words of Wisdom to Love by... 1. I love you. Not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you.. 2. No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry. 3. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have. 4. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart.. 5. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them. 6. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile. 7. To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world. 8. Don't waste your time on a man / woman, who isn't willing to waste their time on you. 9. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful. 10. Don't cry because it is over,

What Are You?
You are the Hanged Man Self-sacrifice, Sacrifice, Devotion, Bound. With the Hanged man there is often a sense of fatalism, waiting for something to happen. Or a fear of loss from a situation, rather than gain. The Hanged Man is perhaps the most fascinating card in the deck. It reflects the story of Odin who offered himself as a sacrifice in order to gain knowledge. Hanging from the world tree, wounded by a spear, given no bread or mead, he hung for nine days. On the last day, he saw on the ground runes that had fallen from the tree, understood their meaning, and, coming down, scooped them up for his own. All knowledge is to be found in these runes. The Hanged Man, in similar fashion, is a card about suspension, not life or death. It signifies selflessness, sacrifice and prophecy. You make yourself vulnerable and in doing so, gain illumination. You see the world differently, with almost mystical insights. What Tarot Card are You?Take the Test to Find Out.

As
as i said in my blogs before i will get to each of your pictures and rate them i have over 3000 people on my list and if you cant be pationt with me then tell me cause i would want anyone upset with me please try to be pationt with me thanks

She Calls...
She Calls She calls to me across the miles Night winds carry her whispers They float on the breeze and through my windows Falling gently upon my ears - Hush - I hear her now. She calls to me from the heavens Glittering stars cannot compare to the sparkle of her eyes When she looks at me, I am consumed by the fire I see her now. She calls to me through my dreams Dancing together in the shadows of my sleep Where we laugh and love once again I am in her arms I feel her now. She calls to me Every moment of every day Distance couldn't keep us apart When destiny drew us together I'll hold her for eternity For as long as she calls.

Sleeplessness
Sleeplessness I fell upon my pillow and wrestled from it sleep I closed my eyes surprised to find you dancing in my dreams- twisting -turning -trapping hopelessly I watched you sway And then the music took me; helplessly defenseless I knew I was your prey And I had no choice as I watched you dance enraptured anyway but then you stopped--you touched my face as the music slowly died now I'm haunted by your lovely eyes and the angel trapped inside

The Current
The Current I can’t believe these feelings Surging through me now… So strong and so compassionate I can scarce contain the flow What I’m feeling is true love And I know it’s real this time. I realize that now and forever You will be only mine. You tell me that you love me And that forever we’ll be one Did you realize you’d saved me From my own self-destruction? You brought me back from the edge death Your love has made me whole Without your gift of love’s sweet breath I’d be a man without a complete soul. So know, sweet wife, whilst we’re apart That I think of you always It’s your love that gives life to my heart Every moment of every day

What If I Told You…
What if I told you… …If I told you I loved you, would you push me away? Or would you let me fall into your arms, where, forever, I would stay? If I told you I needed you, would you feel the same? Could you let me need you everyday, forever and eternally? If I told you I hated you, would you believe the words I say? Would you turn your back on me and leave me alone to die? If I told you I was crying, would you be right by my side, to put your arms around my shoulders until the feelings pass me by? If I told you everything, could you still feel the same? Now that you know exactly who I am, would you still be mine to claim? If I told you...

I Am So Sorry
Boy meets gurl, boy likes gurl u all know the rest of the story and that always ends up the same way, they fall in love and have a relationship bad or good they still love each other soo much and they cant let go or at least she cant. Her love burns and his is no longer there and she knows it and cant stand to think that it could actually be really over this time. What am i supposed to do if i lose the love ive always wanted?

Snow (hey Oh)
Come to decide that the things that I tried were in my life just to get high on. When I sit alone, come get a little known But I need more than myself this time. Step from the road to the sea to the sky, and I do believe that we rely on When I lay it on, come get to play it on All my life to sacrifice. Hey oh... listen what I say oh I got your hey oh, now listen what I say oh When will I know that I really can't go To the well once more - time to decide on. Well it's killing me, when will I really see, all that I need to look inside. Come to belive that I better not leave before I get my chance to ride, Well it's killing me, what do I really need - all that I need to look inside. Hey oh... listen what I say oh Come back and hey oh, look at what I say oh The more I see the less I know The more I like to let it go - hey oh, woah... Deep beneath the cover of another perfect wonder where it's so white as snow, Finally divided by a word so undecid

Comments
i love the comments you guys send me, but for the ones who keep sending me women, can you please send me men instead? lol i would rather look at men also im making eggplant parmesian and boy is it yummy lol and can someone please buy me a blast? i need something to do lol

Been Busy
I just wanted to let all my family and friends that I love them all and miss talking to every one of you but I have been so busy with work and moving that I have not had time to get on here and chat or send comments, just remember I miss you all and ill be back soon as I get settled in new home.... Love you all and Miss ya too, June (AKA)Plain and Simple

My Expectations (by Me Tasha)
Everyone has expectations, dreams, and goals. But what are mine? I've had one dream, since I was a little girl. What dream is this some may ask. The dream of love and passion. My true soulmate is he what I dream of, and will we ever meet? Who ever is reading what I Tasha Long (Van Horn) am writing remember this and pass it on. All that I have ever written has either come from sadness, despair, gladness, and or fear, but all has come from my true feelings.

The Lost Heart Pt 2
jaclyn wakes with a start, looking around the memories of last night come back in a flood of shame and excitment,,looking down she realizes that she is lieing in a large bed with silk sheet and blankets, a fireplace roaring in the corner, sitting up she looks around the room, the room is elegantly decorated in a old fashion way, feeling the silk blanket slip off the fornt her her,,she gasps in surprise seeing her bare breasts bare,,reaching under the blanket she knows she is completely naked, pulling the blanket up she suddenly hears a knock at the door and a old man enter, standing well over 6 ft tall and build of a man that has taken care of his body, he smiles as he brings a tray of food towards her and speaks "hello, I am john" his deep baritone voice displaying his strength" and you are?" " My name is Jaclyn" my voice quivering " where am I" " You are in the mansion of My employer Lord Julius Kramer, we found you hiding in the foyer, clothes ripped and and you in a state

Metallica - Until It Sleeps
Until It Sleeps by Metallica album: Load (1996), S&M (1999) Where do I take this pain of mine I run but it stays right by my side So tear me open, pour me out There's things inside that scream and shout And the pain still hates me So hold me until it sleeps Just like a curse, just like the stray You feed it once and now it stays Now it stays So tear me open, but beware There's things inside without a care And the dirt still stains me So wash me until I'm clean It grips you so hold me It stains you so hold me It hates you so hold me It holds you so hold me Until it sleeps... So tell me why you've chosen me Don't want your grip Don't want your greed Don't want it I'll tear me open, make you gone No more can you hurt anyone And the fear still shapes me So hold me until it sleeps It grips you so hold me It stains you so hold me It hates you so hold me It holds you, holds you, holds you Until it sleeps... I don't want it.....NO So t

Customer Service Letter
The following is an exchange of correspondence between a customer and Iarnrod Eireann of the Irish Railway Company: Gentlemen, I have been riding your trains daily for the last two years, and the service on your line seems to be getting worse every day. I am tired of standing in the aisle all the time on a 14-mile trip. I think the transportation system is worse than that enjoyed by people 2,000 years ago. Yours truly, Patrick Finnegan ~~~~~~~ Dear Mr. Finnegan, We received your letter with reference to the shortcomings of our service and believe you are somewhat confused in your history. The only mode of transportation 2,000 years ago was by foot. Sincerely, Iarnrod Eireann. ~~~~~~~ Gentlemen, I am in receipt of your letter, and I think you are the ones who are confused in your history. If you will refer to the Bible and the Book of David, 9th Chapter, you will find that Balaam rode to town on his ass. That, gentlemen, is something I ha

Incoming Data
The data light is blinking on my modem like a son of a bitch. Incoming data is very, very slow. I'm trying to "keep up" and rate stuff as it comes in and stuff, but it is just slow, slow, slow. I'm not keeping up. I'm not stressing about it, I''m just saying so. THanks for reading

Area 51 Fetish Night
So Saturday I *finally* made it to Fetish night. I had a blast. . .I'll admit the evening started out rather slowly but after enough boredom set in for me to act outside my usual stoic nature I had quite the blast. I cage danced. . .No really in a cage there was dancing. I even managed to do it without laughing so that was fun. The best part however was that unlike my usual club experiances I was not left to the mercy of my group of friends as dance partners. No indeed! I actually spent most of the evening dancing with a rather handsome boy who asked me to dance. I don't imagine I'll hear from him again unless I go back to Area but he was most agreeable company for the evening and I had buckets of fun. All in all I'm still in a delightful mood despite all ensueing drama as the evening drew to a close. Though I have to say spending the whole night dancing in heels has some definate disadvantages my legs felt like jello the next day while I was taking my usual walk.

Here Is One I Posted A Long Time Ago And Didn't Get Any Comments On...but I Still Wanna Know!
WHAT ARE YOU AFRAID OF????? Do you ever find yourself home alone at night, wind howling, house pretty dark, in the distance maybe there is a dog howling.... ever find yourself in that situation and you feel the hairs stand up on the back of your neck? Does being alone creep you out? Are you afraid of the dark? How about heights? When you are in a building on a really high floor or maybe in a highrise hotel with a balcony....are you too scared to stand too close to the window or go out on the balcony? Do your knees go weak when you are somewhere where there is a "look out" type of ledge? Do you refuse to walk on the side of the mall walkway that overlooks to the floor below? Do heights make you a big ole scardy cat? When you see a spider repelling down from the ceiling, inching it's way closer to you does it make you scream out in fear? If one is on the floor and scurrying in your direction do you flee? Are you afraid of spiders? What about snakes or dogs or birds or bats or

Cheating Husband
D.J. M & M@ CherryTAP I am tired of rumors being spread around, I dont see the point in flirting with every god dang person on cherry tap. Then of course there is a guy that cheats on his wife on here which should be drop kicked. I am sure everyone would agree.

Would You.....
BE HONEST... 1. Would you be in control? 2. Would you pull my hair? 3. Would you whisper in my ear? 4. Would you talk dirty to me? 5. Would you kiss me with a little tongue or a lot of tongue? 6. Would you say my name? 7. Would you go down on me? 8. Would you give me a hickie? 9. How many rounds would we go? 10. What would you wanna do afterwards? 11. Would you take off all ur clothes then take mine off slowly? 12. Would you lick and bite me all over? 13. Would you like 2 play or get straight to the point? 14. Would you want me to take my time? 15. Would u fall asleep with me when we were done? 16. Would u want me to go fast or slow? 17. Where would u wanna "do it" at? 18. Am i fuckable?? 19. Would u be loud or quiet? 20. Would you mind if i licked you? 21. Would you do it 2day? 22. Would you do it 2morrow? 23. Are you going to re-post these so I can answer them for you?

This Has Got To Be The Funniest Shit I Have Ever Seen :)
->jangs: If you had said that in English, I might be able to say something back...Like I said...learn to spell, you're looking like an ass. jangs: aww u need some make up or somthing bitch get off the dick inless u have a saddle 1 ->jangs: roflmao...sure...you're just jealous because I have a brain and you lost yours jangs: u still look used up lol ->jangs: get out of my shoutbox til you pass 1st grade please jangs: honestly ur ungly and i dint take the time to check ur profile out

Omg
looks as if some of my pics have been reported as NSFW. And now my profile is supposely NSFW. I understand something may be that way but why should we have to have our backgrounds a certain way just so people and look at your profile.. I think there should be a feature where only friends family and fans can veiw your profile. But others can check out the main pic if they want and then have the chance to become a friend and what not to see the rest so these NSFW complaints dont happen and so we wont have to change things with out being flagged.

Dirty Survey
Welcome to the Dirty Survey. Are you daring enough to answer this for this person?+ +Rules: Answer this for the person who posted this and then repost it for yourself!+ 1. Would you fuck me? 2. What positions would u fuck me in? 3. Would u suck/LICK me ? 4. Would u fuck me hard? 5. Would u fuck me the first night u met me? 6. Would u let me pull your hair while i fucked you? 7. Would u fuck me in the shower? 8. Would u hancuff me or tie me up to the bed and then fuck me? 9. Would u have 3-some with me? 10. What about me makes u want to fuck me? 11. Would u talk dirty to me while we fucked? 12. Where would you fuck me? 13. Would u fuck me in front of people? 14. Would u fuck me again? 15. Would u fuck me in the rain? 16. Would u mind if i fucked like a porn star? 17. Would u have phone sex with me? 18. Would u cheat on me? 19. Would u break my heart? 20. If I gave u my heart would you love it or let it go? 21. Would y

Abcs
A-B-C-D-E-F-G H-I-J-K-L-M-N-O-P Q-R-S T-U-V W-X Y and Z Oh how happy you will be once I teach you my A-B-C A is for asphyxiation, you won't catch your breath B is for the blindfold, that keeps you dark as death C is for your cockwich that I squash beneath my shoe While I watch you wiggle, and I laugh at you (ha ha) D is for my dildo that you will learn to blow E is for your enema, I control the flow F is for my flogger, I whip you so violent G is for the gag in place to keep your screaming silent H is for humiliation that you must bear I will immobilize you in my sexual lair J is for your jizzy, jerking tendency K for kisses, L for love and licks you offer me M is for the manacles imprisoning your feet N is for your nelly little nimby so sweet O is for the O-rings, holding you in place P is for the perspiration dripping down your face Q is for the quirk I use to whip your eager ass R is for restraints, to make the magic last S is for sweet suffering that on

Livin With The Bytch.....and Its Called "life"..
I have come to realize that Life can be a bytch but then it is also what you make of it..When you think you are really getting no where in life take a look again.... Look back on time from what you had then and look at what you have now... Confused yet? Well I have always thought I never had anything in life but now that I look back, I realize that I have more than I could ever have..I have a beautiful lil girl and a handsome young man that I pray and thank GOD everyday for. Without them I would have nothing... I may have a house but wouldnt be my home without them.. So yes, Life can be a bytch but if you live it to the max and try to fulfill it then it can be lived anyway you want.. So if things look bad we have to just hold our heads up and say "Everything is gonna be ok".. Then we can move forward and accompish the things we set out to do, and that is to conquer life the way we need to do.... This may not make since to some of you but it gives you something to actually thin

This Is Daddy!
"Hello?" "Hi honey. This is Daddy. Is Mommy near the phone?" "No Daddy. She's upstairs in the bedroom with Uncle Paul." After a brief pause, Daddy says, "But honey, you haven't got an Uncle Paul." "Oh yes I do, and he's upstairs in the room with Mommy, right now." Brief Pause. "Uh, okay then, this is what I want you to do. Put the phone down on the table, run upstairs and knock on the bedroom doorand shout to Mommy that Daddy's car just pulled into the driveway." "Okay Daddy, just a minute." A few minutes later the little girl comes back to the phone. "I did it Daddy." "And what happened honey?" "Well, Mommy got all scared, jumped out of bed with no clothes on and ran around screaming.Then she tripped over the rug, hit her head on the dresser and now she isn't moving at all!" "Oh my God!!! What about your Uncle Paul?" "He jumped out of the bed with no clothes on, too. He was all scared and he

Wooooooohooooooo
I went to ticketmaster.com tonight and ordered my tickets to see Jason Aldean in concert the 29th of this month in Corpus Christi. I am a huge Jason Aldean fan and he is one of the many I have been trying to see. I am so glad that I get to go. You know I will be front row center as always. HEHEHEHE I am so happy. Take care everyone and have a great 4th. Love yaz Toodles....

Daddy I Miss You
Well today marks 7 years that my dad passed away yup he died on the 4th of July and he went out with a bang. So daddy help me out today and help me stay strong so I can't break down. I miss you badly and wished you was here..

July 4, 2007
Part of you wants to jump from what you instinctively know is a sinking ship. The other part of you wants to play Good Samaritan and save as many other people as you can. What do you do? Only your heart has the answer.

What Happened To The Signers Of The Constitution?
Have you ever wondered what happened to the 56 men who signed the Declaration of Independence? Five signers were captured by the British as traitors, and tortured before they died. Twelve had their homes ransacked and burned. Two lost their sons serving in the Revolutionary Army; another had two sons captured. Nine of the 56 fought and died from wounds or hardships of the Revolutionary War. They signed and they pledged their lives, the ir fortunes, and their sacred honor. What kind of men were they? Twenty-four were lawyers and jurists. Eleven were merchants, nine were farmers and large plantation owners; men of means, well educated. But they signed the Declaration of Independence knowing full well that the penalty would be death if they were captured. Carter Braxton of Virginia, a wealthy planter and trader, saw his ships swept from the seas by the British Navy. He sold his home and properties to pay his debts, and died in rags. Thomas McKeam

Why Are They Calling Me?
It's the 4th of July. People should be at the beach, or barbecuing, or picnicking or whatever. NOT calling their car insurance. Being a phone wench is bad enough, but being here on a holiday means you get to talk the the utter bottom of the barrel. People who wait until the last minute to pay. People who have nobody to talk to and nothing better to do than scream at their car insurance phone wench. *rolls eyes* Teh stoopid. It burnss usss

What It Means To Be An American
MY POEMS Dean Alfange was born in Istanbul, Turkey and came here as an infant and was raised in upstate New York. After serving in the Army in World War 1, he went to Hamilton College and was elected Phi Beta Kappa. He attended Colombia University where he received his law degree and opened a practice in Manhattan. He ran unsuccessfully for governor of New York in 1942 as the American Labor Party candidate and he died of cancer in Manhattan at the age of 91 on October 27, 1989 What It Means To Be An American I do not choose to be a common man It is my right to be uncommon... If I can. I seek opportunity... Not security. I do not wish to be a kept citizen, Humbled and dulled by having the state Look after me. I want to take the calculated risk; to dream and build, to Fail and succeed. I refuse to barter incentive for a dole. I prefer the challenges of life to the Guaranteed existence; the thrill of Fulfillment to the stale calm of utopia. I will not trade free

Men Are Pigs
...but I love pork. I can't live with you and I can't live without you. Over the last year I've found myself less wanting the "fuck buddy" and wanting a lover. The fuck buddy feels like the "thank you mama" and that's it, where as the lover brings a connection that enhances the sex. I wish that more men would appreciate a connection and understand that connection doesn't mean commitment or the end of "fun", but can let it make an intimate encounter, well, intimate. I've been disappointed that I have to education people on the difference between making love and being in love, the difference between fucking and fucking someone over, the difference between being in the moment and easing a carnal ache, and the difference between being someons fuck buddy and being their lover. For me, the way a to measure someone who is good in bed, is not only how well he made me come but how often I want him to make me come again.

Partytime!
Well, hell- Enough fucking around on Cherry Tap! I have to get my house ready for the party... Pools clean and so's my buzz... I am ready to go! Everyone- Enjoy your day! Have a great time on Independence Day! Hope you all get exactly what you want today! Dont take any shit off anyone and just as a favor to me, Kiss someone you love when they least expect it! Love to All- Kirk

Happy 4th
just want to wish all my friends a happy and safe 4th and if you are going to drink make sure you arent dumb enough to drive, and watch that the fireworks dont fall down your pants id send all of you a gift but not many of you talk to me and i send gifts to those whom i know are on my list lol take care everyone

Letting The Thoughts Of My Mind Run Rampent
For the longest time i have always questioned life how it goes for me the lives i affect along my path my journey but why does it happen that way? whats wrong with me that i attract certain people? im not complaining i love the people ive met thus far but i suppose ive pushed them away from myself in some way..... Ive been told im very wise an mature for my age im not ive been through so much that ive hardened an know the truth about relationships and people for that matter. I can tell alot about a person from how they act talk or the pics they take sure we've all been hurt by someone we thought loved us all back but what price did we have to pay for the pain? the knowledge of finally being told?....why we were so blind to the truth?.... I honestly dont give a shit what anyone thinks of me i am what i am, i am who i am because of the shit ive been through i dont need to be told do this do that i know life i know what i want from it and if thats something you couldnt handle then

I Will Always Wait For You
As I look into his eyes, and deep into his soul, I couldn't bring myself to say those words that would make me feel whole I think about you day and night, you are always on my mind There's no one else out there your one of a kind Even though you live far, I can still feel you near I wish I could hold you now please come take away my fear Please don't be afraid I finish what I start The love I have for you, is written deep in my heart I never thought I would care, for you as much as I do But I want you to know I will always wait for you.

I Am This Sweet Hearted Girl
I'm the girl who will put her head on your shoulder, not because I'm sleepy, but because I want to be closer to you... I'm the girl who likes to be kissed in the rain, more than in an expensive resturant... I'm the girl who says, "Okay, but you owe me..." jokingly. Not because I actually want something, but because it means I get to spend more time with you and I care... I'm the girl you can take absolutely anywhere and I will have fun because it means I am spending time with you... I'm the girl who is incredibly picky, but when I find someone I like I want to spend the whole night curled up in their arms... I'm the girl who never forgets all the sweet little things you do for me... I'm the girl who once I let you into my heart, there's always a place there with your name on it. And even if we spend time apart, I'm the girl who never forgets you.. I'm the girl who loves to end a hug with a kiss.. I'm the girl who you can talk to about anything.. I'm the girl

Alone
Sitting alone wondering why why did it all go awry I've tried my best done all I could gave the love that I should Tried to understand what's in his heart but he won't share or become my equal part So as I sit here, all alone I dry my tears and I try to push away the fears Not sure now where my life is headed but I'll be strong and try not to dread it I'll move on and do whats best for me and hope that in the future a new love will find me.

Memories Of Him By Jöseph Lee Foster-shumpert-lear, 1995
Memories of Him by Jöseph Lee Foster-Shumpert-Lear, 1995 Published 22 March 2004 :: Prose Poem Read more by Jöseph Lee Foster-Shumpert-Lear Can you imagine it? After all of those times of seeing my grandfather, all of those times that I left home to spend thirteen long hours of agonizing and excruciating anticipation of what him and I would do together, in a car of mid-June heat. Some of the hottest as I remember it. Can you imagine doing that from the time I was a week old until I was thirteen, only to suddenly have to say goodbye? It happened on a mid-September night. My mother entered the darkened basement room to trip over the clothes which were spawned across the floor and couch. She cursed her way over what was probably to her like going through a mine field. One wrong step and she would break something of importance to me. When she reached her destination, my bed, she bent over and whispered, “Jöseph . . . Jöseph , baby comes on you have to get up now.” The words were inco

A Reason !
Why it is hard for me to see, what it is I really want to be? Always kind of hard to start the day, with nothing really good to say. I feel frustation,anguish and guilt; as if my brain is going to tilt. Surrounded by so much strife, and all I want is a brand new life. Need to start out on another foot, digging through all the ashes and soot. No matter what other people think, I know I cant pick up that drink. I dont know what life has in store, but there is one thing I know for sure. I have been shown a different way, and have learned what it means to pray. So no matter what it is that I do, I need to walk with you. Even through all the memories I kept, you were by my side with every step. So now I have a reason to live, and I know what I have to give. Thank you GOD, for showing me the light, and I will love her you with all of my might.

Thong Bikini Of The Day 6-28
THONG BIKINI OF THE DAY 6-28 CLICK THE PIC TO VIEW FULL SIZE IMAGE Check out this sexy pic larger, by clicking on it! ALSO, Please rate this sexy a$$ 1-10(1 = worst and 10=best) THONG BIKINI OF THE WEEK CLICK THE LINK TO VIEW THE TOP 10 IMAGES AND VOTE ON THE TOP PIC OF THE SEXIEST THONG BIKINI VIEW TOP 10 PICS AND VOTE HERE EVERY SUNDAY 10 NEW PICS WILL BE POSTED AND A NEW BIKINI OF THE WEEK COMPETITION WILL BEGIN! PLEASE VOTE =)

Nothing Compares To You
Cant explain the feelings inside, and I just cant seem to hide. The way you make me feel, because my heart is what you steal. Your laugh just makes me want you more, your smile has me down on the floor. Your eyes just light up the room, all I want is to be your groom. Nothing compares to, the way you make me feel. Nothing compares to, the brightness in your eyes. Nothing compares to, the love you give. Nothing compares to, the sweetness of your touch. Nothing compares to, anything that you do at all. Nothing compares to YOU!!

Do You Want To Live Forever? I Can Make It Happen ....vvv-vvv
Do you want to live forever? She stands behind me, I feel her body pressed up against mine, feeling her breath on my neck. I hear her voice whisper in my ear. "Do you want to live for forever, my love? I turn around to face her, I look her in the eyes, oh her eyes, so brilliantly green, I answer, "Yes". She tells me, "Never will your life be the same, you will live in the darkness of the night, you will love me forever, I will be your Mate, you will be my love, this shall be the your fate. She asked me again, "Do you still wish to live forever? I answer her, looking into her eyes;" Yes." Her arms holding me, strong, but gently, I feel her lips gently kissing my neck, oh god, I feel the chills running down my spine, I throw my head back to let her enjoy more of my skin, my neck, my chest, giving my body to her. Her kisses gently moving down my body, oh I want her. She moves back up to my neck, her tongue dancing on my skin, I feel the coolness of her breath, she whispers in my e

For Attention Of Friends
i have started a english christain fun room every top member has been rated a 10 or more by lots of people other friends rate every one of my pics and you become a member give every pic a rating asnd your a member top member rate you theres lots of points every one that comes to page rated you your cherry level will go up quick just rate all and you become a member your pic goes on as a pic and then your fun begins join today dont delay derek god bless you all derekxxxx

Nawtee Horoscope
I'M A CAPRICORN!!!!!! LOL ---------------------------------------------------------------------------- Taurus (April 20 - May 20) --Don't tease them. It will only piss them off. Taureans are realists. If you say that you are horny: Prepare to be fucked. Taureans are heavy indulgers, though. All forms of indulgence: Sex-drugs-wine-food...whatever their vice may be: they simply cannot get enough. They do not believe in moderation. They will fuck until they are sore. Taurus likes to have sex just for the sake of having sex. What they lack in originality, they make up for in stamina and endurance. Okay...so they may not be into bondage, okay? But they WILL lick you until you have at least three orgasms or until you pass out...whichever comes first. Taurus uses their tongue for EVERYthing...and I mean that. They love to lick people in whipped cream, alcohol, chocolate, flesh and candy???Bring it on! Caution: They are looking for a relationship so be kind to them. They also have a BIG wet th

Life
DAYS COME AND DAYS GO BUT ONE WILL ALWAYS BE HERE, IT'S NOT AN ORDINARY TYPE OF DAY BUT ONE YOU SHOULD HOLD DEAR. FOR ALL THE YEARS I'VE BEEN LOOKING AND MY SIGHT TAKES ME HERE, THINKING OF ALL THE UNANSWERED PRYERS SLOWLY DRAWS A TEAR. WHEN YOU NEED SOMONE TO RELY ON AND THEY ARE USUALY THERE, LIFE IS NOT WHAT YOU THINK IT IS; LIFE DOESN'T AT ALL CARE. MYSTERY CAPTURES ALL YOUR TIME AND LEAVES YOU WONDERING AND FEELING BLUE, YOU FINALLY THINK YOU'VE FIGURED IT ALL OUT BUT DON'T EXPECT ANSWERS TO STAY TRUE. DECISIONS SURROUND YOU EVERYWHERE AND SMOTHER YOU FROM A BREATH, SOMETIMES IN LIFE ONE GETS TO ROUGH AND CARRIES THE WEAK TO DEATH. THERE'S A WAY FOR EVERYTHING TO TURN TO GOOD BUT IT'S HIDDEN DEEP WITHIN, SO TRUST YOURSELF AND BE STRONG AND BECOME YOUR OWN BEST FRIEND.

Where The Cool People Go....
STADIUM CLUB...... 8 FREEWAY AND MISSION GORGE. Every SUNDAY... I Work THERE. SO.. HOLLA AND BE ONE OF THE COOL. Don't be afraid to come hang out wit'cha MAN... I'LL BE There. 6065 Fairmount Ave. SD, CA 92120

Today On Wrr
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How To Make A Woman Happy
How To Make A Woman Happy... It's not difficult to make a woman happy. A man only needs to be: 1. a friend 2. a companion 3. a lover 4. a brother 5. a father 6. a master 7. a chef 8. an electrician 9. a carpenter 10. a plumber 11. a mechanic 12. a decorator 13. a stylist 14. a sexologist 15. a gynecologist 16. a psychologist 17. a pest exterminator 18. a psychiatrist 19. a healer 20. a good listener 21. an organizer 22. a good father 23. very clean 24. sympathetic 25. athletic 26. warm 27. attentive 28. gallant 29. intelligent 30. funny 31. creative 32. tender 33. strong 34. understanding 35. tolerant 36. prudent 37. ambitious 38. capable 39. courageous 40. determined 41. true 42. dependable 43. Passionate 44. Compassionate WITHOUT FORGETTING TO: 45. give her compliments regularly 46. love shopping 47. be honest 48. be very rich

If Only For A Minute
If Only For A Minute, I Could Tell How I Feel Deep Down Inside. If Only For A Minute, True Love Was Actually True. If Only For A Minute, We Could Be Together,Side by Side. If Only For A Minute, I Wouldn't Be So Afraid. If Only For A Minute, I Love You Would Be The Easiest Thing To Say. If Only For A Minute, I Would Long To Hear Your Voice. If Only For A Minute, I Loved You And You Loved Me Too.

My Decision
No one really knows whats going on in my mind, I've been acting happy and content, so you think I'm fine All alone in my bedroom My mind darkens more I hope they find me in a puddle of blood on the floor He caused all these pain and tears Now I can't seem to yell It seems like I'm going through A never ending hell So the way to end it all Is to run this razor across my wrist They wouldn't expect it It would be a twist So as time goes by I haven't ended it yet What I'm waiting for Is something that no one Will forget Slowly the front door begins to open As people rush in the door It has become the perfect time to die I'm now laying on the floor I wish they understood, what he did to me He broke my heart He told me he wouldn't But he ripped it apart But now I'm safe from his evil grip I'm on my way to heaven now My very last trip So now that you've found me,found me please don't cry I'm sorry that I didn't say I Love you and good-bye

Together Forever
Whenever I Feel Your Touch, It Lights Me Up. Whenever I Feel Your Breath, It Warms Me Up. Knowing Your Next To Me, Comforts My Soul. Hearing Your Voice, Makes Me Tremble Inside. For When I Hear It I Know I'm Safe, For Nothing Can Go Wrong When I'm With You. I Know I'm Safe, I Know I'm Secure. For When I'm Not With You, I'm Hurt, Cause Your Not By My Side. We Should Always Be Together, No Matter What, No Matter How, We Should Be Together. So In The End Of Time, You Will Be Next To Me, And I Will Be Next To You. So That Way I Can Say, We Were Together Forever.

Fuck The Rain Cloud Above Me.
Like I told Edika the other day, I think Ive fallen back into depression again. Im unhappy. I cant sleep at night. I dont eat right anymore. People at work dont know what to do to help me get back on the right track. And now that Im so fucking lazy, I dont go out and seek help. So I dont sleep and I stay up all damn night and wither away about nothing at all it seems. Then I go to work. Dead tired. Almost feeling hungover. And I do terrible and feel like crap all fucking day. Then I come home, fall to sleep, only to wake up late the next day trying to catch up on hours lost, and then I feel like shyt still cuz I slept too much. And the cycle repeats itself... over and over and over and over... Stupid shyt never leaves me alone. I cannot make up my mind. Heather came back into the picture. Remember that girl from Vegas I was dating back in the day? Yea. Supposedly she hasnt had her closure on a decision SHE made. So she broke us up, thought she can move on, and sucks ass at life

Think About It And Tell Me What U Think
1) No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry. 2) Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't meanthey don't love you with all they have. 3) A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart. 4) The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right besides them knowing you can't have them. 5) Never frown,even whenyou are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile. 6) To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world. 7) Don't waste your time on a man/ woman, who isn't willing to waste their time on you. 8) Maybe God wanted us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful. 9) Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened. 10)There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep trusting and just be mor

This Month So Far....
I hope the rest of this month isn't like whow the first week has been. It was approximately one week ago today that I got the call from my brother telling me about my uncle. It was one of the hardest things I have had to endure in a long time. Thankfully he is ok and is home recuperating. That took up most of the week then there was today. Today there was a shooting at the local McDonalds right at the end of my street. A worker was there to pick up his check and have some breakfast with his girlfriend. Well, see, his girlfriend was in the process of divorcing this guy who was constantly harassing the worker and such and today this guy shot the worker in the head with a semi-automatic hand gun. He died. I knew him. It's not fair. What the hell is this world coming to? Seriously? And the hardest part of this whole thing, I went to school with him, he graduated 2 years after I did but I knew him through other people. He was always the one that waited on me there if he was working and we w

Hospital
Ok.. i went in for the 1st part.. and it didnt go as well as we all hoped, BUT i am OK!!! and home now... so thats good right? waitin now to hear about whats goin on and when its goin to take place.. so ill let yall know when i know.. love yaz wendy

History Made With Live Earth Online Video
REDMOND (WASH), July 7 -- With plenty of music yet to be broadcast in the July 7th Live Earth series, MSN reported today that it already has served more than 9 million live online streams to users viewing the worldwide music event aimed at promoting awareness of climate change. The concert series opened in Sydney and then moved across the globe to Tokyo, Hamburg, Germany and London, to name just a few cities. The U.S. leg of the concert kicks off at 2:30 p.m. EDT in Giants Stadium just outside of New York City. "History is being made today," said Joanne Bradford, corporate vice president and chief media officer of MSN. "Millions of people around the world have joined together to fight the climate crisis. The more than 9 million streams MSN has delivered so far today represent a milestone in live Internet broadcasting. We expect to see an even greater number of streams after the concerts are over as people return to watch their favorite performances or enjoy them for the first time

~~the Ever Loving Quest~~
When I was 14, I hoped that one day I would have a girlfriend. When I was 16 I got a girlfriend, but there was no passion, so I decided I needed a passionate girl with a zest for life. In high school I dated a passionate girl, but she was too emotional. Everything was an emergency; she was a drama queen, cried all the time and threatened suicide. So I decided I needed a girl with stability. When I was 25 I found a very stable girl but she was boring. She was totally predictable and never got excited about anything. Life became so dull that I decided that I needed a girl with some excitement. When I was 28 I found an exciting girl, but I couldn't keep up with her. She rushed from one thing to another, never settling on anything. She did mad impetuous things and made me miserable as often as happy. She was great fun initially and very energetic, but directionless. So I decided to find a girl with some real ambition. When I turned 29 , I found a

Feelings
Should love feel like your heart is going to burst??? I clove my husband more then anything in the world and yet I do not see him very much!!! I would give up the world for him!!! He always tells me Im beautiful, im the best thing that ever happened to him, and he would die for me!!! He give me everything I could ask for.... It jus hurts cuz he is gone alot not beacuse he is in the army or wit hiz homeboyz its cuz he is locked up!!! I jus wish I could see him all the time cuz i miss him so much and its hard to sleep at night...Everyone tells me it is goin to be fine but I get so upset cuz I never get to see him...Like i said before I would do anything for him!!!

The Raven: Part 2
A year has past and he sits so daunting , the depths of my soul I find him haunting. This foul winged beast of night that stays perched above my door. The fire I stoke ever so lightly, it's warm embers burning brightly, Warming the room ever so slightly, as I cast my gaze upon the floor. Seeking some comfort in my sorrow, though I know not what for. Avoiding sight of this Raven whom I abhor. With the passing days my mind has wandered, fleeting memories that I have pondered, pondered the reasons and purpose of all that has been before. Madness inside slowly brewing, insipid remarks I find myself spewing, Aware now of my very undoing, but not yet sure of what is in store. I struggle in vain to clear my mind so my situation I may explore. Knowing he is watching, perched silently for ever more. "Sentinel of the darkest hour, I beseech thee to relinquish your power! Allow me to see what wrong has brought you, so that I may settle the score!" And though the bird whom is eve

Lyrics.... Because I Am Girl By Kill
"BECAUSE I'M A GIRL" by: Kiss I just can't understand the ways Of all the men and their mistakes You give them all your heart And then they rip it all away You told me how much you loved me And how our love was meant to be And I believed in you I thought that you would set me free (REFRAIN): You should've just told me the truth That I wasn't the girl for you Still, I didn't have a clue So my heart depended on you, whoa (CHORUS): Although I'll say I hate you now Though I'll shout and curse you out I'll always have love for you Because I am a girl Been told a man will leave you cold Get sick of you and bored I know that it's no lie I gave my all, still I just cry Never again will I be fooled To give my all when nothing's true I won't be played again But I will fall in love again (REFRAIN) (CHORUS) I loved you so Now you leave me in the cold How could this be I thought that you'd only love me Into the night I will pray that you're alrigh

Dead Souls
Not a day goes by without me thinking of you your laugh your sweet smile never did i think id find someone that truly complements who i am on the deepest of levels... See Death may come for me he may take my soul but he would never hold me from being with you. Each day i talk to you each passing moment not a thought passes through my mind that isnt about you. Whether fate is playing a cruel joke on us or god has a sick sense of humor placing us so far away an having us meet each other in the oddest of places sure i had my doubt, doubt that would quickly end as you reassured me of what i should really be thinking about.... So many people come an go within my life i leave my impressions on them as time passes we grow apart it is fate that draws them near an once watever needed to be said or done passes its time for them to move on.... I wish everyone the best i hold no grudges if you hate me you hate me i wont hold anything against you but see holding grudges an hate for anothe

Early Morning Rhymes
EARLY MORNING RHYMES silence surrounds me... your passion astounds me. happiness fills me... your body thrills me. the dawn is breaking... my body is quaking. I want you so much... I imagine your touch. The candles flicker... My breath comes quicker. Slowly I wake you... My tongue wants to take you. The sleeping giant... No longer pliant. My lips open wide... To take you inside. Tiny kisses planted... My wishes all granted. Cupping and licking... Tongue softly flicking. Ah, now you're awake! Your sleep you forsake. A warm salty drop "oh god, please dont stop!" Your hands in my hair Are you almost there? Warm tongue, wet lips... You're bucking your hips. Our eyes locked tight... The moment is right. My tongue still caressing Release is a blessing! My thirst has been sated... Too long I have waited... Your hands on my thighs My moans and my sighs. Nipples dark pink Oh my, I can't think. Your touch takes me higher My body's on fire. Back arched t

Cute Little Story!!
Girl: Do i ever cross ur mind? Boy: No Girl: Do you like me? Boy: Not really Girl: Do you want me? Boy: No Girl: Would you cry if I left? Boy: No Girl: Would you live for me? Boy: No Girl: Would you do anything for me? Boy: No Girl: Choose--Me or ur life Boy: My life The girl runs away in shock and pain and the boy runs after her and says... The reason you never cross my mind is because you're always on my mind. The reason why I don't like you is because I love you. The reason I don't want you is because I need you. The reason I wouldn't cry if you left is because I would die if you left. The reason I wouldn't live for you is because I would die for you. The reason why I'm not willing to do anything for you is because I would do everything for you. The reason I chose my life is because you ARE my life.

Hehehehe
After a hardy rainstorm filled all the potholes in the streets and alleys, a young mother watched her two little boys playing in the puddle through her kitchen window. The older of the two, a five year old, grabbed his sibling by the back of his head and shoved his face into the water hole. As the boy recovered and stood laughing and dripping, the mother runs to the yard in a panic. "Why on earth did you do that to your little brother?" she says as she shook the older boy in anger "We were just playing church mommy," he said. "And I was just baptizing him in the name of the Father, the Son and in...the hole-he-goes." @@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@ John O'Reilly hoisted his beer and said, "Here's to spending the rest of me life between the legs of me wife!" That won him the top prize at the pub for the best toast of the night! He went home and told his wife, Mary, "I won the prize for the Best Toast of the night" She said, "Aye, did ye now. And what was your toast?"

Help
please HELP my friend BETTIE IN THIS CONTEST,AS I WILL CONTINUE TO HELP YOU GUYS Just click on KORN Banner on her profile Page thats all you have to do, It will only count 1 click from each computer so if you have more than 1 clip on all thank you very much1482 wjjmellon Belgrade MT 1280 sH3LLz Kingman AZ 573 pathologist Tokyo 550 khriskorn Pico Rivera 485 yourworstnightmare23 Berlin 388 noting Slupsk Pomorskie 381 roush TX Why is this so important to me? I guess because I have done it for years. If anyone of you has ever done promotional work and have tips for me on how to spread the word, do not hesitate to give me some pointers. I will do whatever just to spread it a little further. Just thought I would recap those that were wondering what my standings were. And now back to your regularly scheduled programs....Kornholia Bettie(Click my Korn link for add ! HELP ME!) this is her profile page

My Friends
Hi I am so sorry I haven't been around much but I am going through a bad time at the moment and I am so tierd to talk.. have 6 weeks off school soon and then will feel more upto chatting. hugz to you all my friends here on cherrytap.

Legend Of The Lupine
Like the Werewolf the lupine are werecreature as well but they shift completly in to wolfs.Lupine are born Werewolves are made.How ever some beleave that lupine are created by magic.Or the use of witch craft."In the spiritual traditions of other cultures, Shamans are expected to seek the assistance of their spirit helpers, who appear most often in the form of their totem animals. In certain instances, to explore more effectively the spiritual dimensions, shamans may even assume the persona of their totem animal and become that animal for a time, be it a wolf, a raven, an, or whatever creature has granted its power to their quest. However, in the Europe of the Middle Ages, those who employed any kind of shamanic practices were in grave danger of being tortured and dragged to the stake to be burned to death."(quoted byCopyrighted 1997-2003 © Vampyra & © BytesByDesign) How ever the lupine can change at will and the werewolf can only change at full moon.The lupine can choose how much n

Strawberry Tequila Overdose
My angel My demon My best addiction She lubes me And doobs me To reduce friction I am her shoulder To lean on My waist She wrestles When it gets To heavy In peace we nestle I may pull Her hair But never scold her The best part Of each fix Is when I hold her I tap it And slap it At her request She is open And listens And treats me best Her heart is My new drug I must confess But I am still Addicted To all the rest

Why Am I Surprised
I cant seem to stop thinking about it. I was bored so I hit the "I'm bored" button and proceeded to rate people. When I say rate I mean look at pics and give everyone one a "10". Why not? It really isnt any problem to make people feel better no matter how ugly they are. Have you noticed that some profiles black out the last few numbers in the rating and its almost difficult to find the 10? I made a mistake and hit a "7" for this woman instead of a "10". In all honesty she was a 7 anyway. I later get this HORRIBLE email message calling me all kind of horrible names and saying that I wasnt even a "1" how could I rate her a "7"? She obviously has an issue with her self confidence. I sent her a message saying I was sorry and that it was a mistake. She never said she was sorry. The more I think about it the madder I get. Why did I appologize? SHE WAS A SEVEN! Who is she to get mad at me because I said so? Then she told me not to worry that she wouldnt report me for down rati

The Mask
The Mask~ A mask of plastic happiness often covers her sadness Her beliefs hidden from most Afraid of, but willing to face the unknown Wondering where her place is in this life She has come close to sharing herself Never completely revealing anything to anyone Feelings of invisible chains corner her When she dreams, reality shatters before her very eyes Accomplishments she strives for just at hands grasp She feels lost sometimes, not yet finding her notch in this world At times the glimmer in her calm eyes slowly disappears But within her heart a silent flame burns her inside and out She roams day by day, playing roles Strength unknowingly resides in her History repeats itself once again The translucent veil she so proudly wears Little by little answers will come, pushing it aside One day there will be no more mask for her to wear One day her beliefs will be known One day she'll know her place in this life One day she will share herself One day this mask will be

Pets & Animals
THE RAINBOW BRIDGE... ... ... ... "FOR MY PERITA DAISY"**R.I.P. 04/28/03-06/27/07*** THERE IS A BRIDGE CONNECTING HEAVEN AND EARTH. IT IS CALLED THE RAINBOW BRIDGE BECAUSE OF IT'S MANY COLORS. JUST THIS SIDE OF THE RAINBOW BRIDGE THERE IS A LAND OF MEADOWS, HILLS AND VALLEYS WITH LUSH GREEN GRASS. WHEN A BELOVED PET DIES, THE PET GOES TO THIS PLACE. THERE IS ALWAYS FOOD AND WATER AND WARM SPRING WEATHER. THE OLD AND FRAIL ANIMALS ARE YOUNG AGAIN. THOSE WHO ARE MAIMED ARE MADE WHOLE AGAIN. THEY PLAY ALL DAY WITH EACH OTHER. THERE IS ONLY ONE THING MISSING. THEY ARE NOT WITH THEIR SPECIAL PERSON WHO LOVED THEM ON EARTH. SO, EACH DAY THEY RUN AND PLAY UNTIL THE DAY COMES WHEN ONE SUDDENLY STOPS PLAYING AND LOOKS UP. THE NOSE TWITCHES THE EARS ARE UP. THE EYES ARE STARING. AND THIS ONE SUDDENLY RUNS FROM THE GROUP. YOU HAVE BEEN SEEN, AND WHEN YOU AND YOUR SPECIAL FRIEND MEET, YOU TAKE HIM OR HER IN YOUR ARMS AND EMBRACE. YOUR FACE IS KISSED AGAIN AND AGAIN, AND YOU LOOK ONCE

I Smoke Weed
Title: I Smoke Weed By: Me so, what if I smoke weed no stems, no seed one hit and I feel I'm free nothing like some good weed nothing like it at all, indeed I can shut my eyes and just be me I smoke that sticky green it's nothing like people make it seem it's wonders are still unseen it's stories, not well told it's constantly bought and sold sometimes it's worth it's weight in gold it's smell is timid yet bold it's been given a bad name but I still smoke it, just the same it's nothing like they claim and for those of us that smoke we must hide to toke this is some kind of cruel joke we can't let the man see if he does, he might take our weed try as he may, he won't succeed it's not a want but a need no stems, no seed so what if I smoke weed

A Poem I Wrote A Few Years Ago
My Passion In the midst of passion,two figures stand.. emerged in ecstasy joined hand & hand.. words are unnecessary, feelings are heard, the body takes control, deaf to words... it is at this stage that i think of you... in gradtitude, for this joy you have exposed. ......me too...... each day is bright.. with you as the dawn with the collapse of each night... a strong bond... in the midst of passion... i remember your kiss... i reminisce, about your touch ....and.... suddenly miss.. the scent you wear &the tone of your voice.... i can't wait to come home, only you can be my choice... ....my passion......

Repost From Bloody Kisses...good Point For Those Not Aware
This is how your site gets hacked....You will be surfing your page and reading the add requests. You may see a profile that you like. Then you may decide to add that person so you do. Very soon after you add this person you will probably go to post a comment. Then what happens is you will get a message that says YOU MUST BE LOGGED ON TO PREFORM THIS ACTION ...... DON'T DO IT! This is how they get your password...Trust me Immediately close your browser then Log back in. If you had paid attention as I do you will notice two things that are dead giveaways. The first one is how many times you have been viewed. I reset to Zero after every session so for me it was easy. Ninety Nine views in 30 seconds- NO way.Then the other thing is when the Fake Login page does come up. Look at the URL in the bar and you will see the word redirect in it. I hope you all post and repost this over and over. NEVER RE-LOG ON During a session Close Out and RE-Log on the proper way

Over And Over
Artist: Various Artists Album: Now That's What I Call Music! 18 Title: Nelly with Tim McGraw- Over & Over Cause its all in my head I think about it over and over again And I can't keep picturing you with him And it hurts so bad, yeah Cause it's on in my head I think about it over and over again I replay it over and over again And I can't take it yeah I can't shake it Nooo I can't wait to see you Want to see if you still got that look in your eyes That one you had for me before we said our goodbyes And it's a shame that we got to spend our time Being mad about the same things Over and over again About the same things Over and over again Ohh But I think she's leaving Ooh man she's leaving I don't know what else to do (I Can't go on not loving you) Cause its all in my head I think about it over and over again And I can't keep picturing you with him And it hurts so bad, yeah Cause its on in my head I think about it over and over again I replay it ove

Sum Shit U Need 2 Try
When it comes to sex positions, after a while it's only natural to fall back on your old favorites. And there's nothing really wrong with that -- except that, well, it's kind of dull. So mix things up! Experiment! Surprise your guy with something unexpected! After all, making even subtle changes to your current go-to list can mean the difference between a sex life that's fine -- and one that's on fire. Digging Deep We're most familiar with man-on-top positions. They're great for gazing lustily into each other's eyes. And as an added bonus, they're terrific for deep penetration. For fans of deep, intense penetration and enthusiastic thrusting, you can't beat this position. With this variation, the top half of your body can't move much, but you can make up for it by moving your pelvis both up and down and side to side. First, lie back on the bed with your torso and bottom on the bed and your legs resting on the floor. When he penetrates, you bend your knees back toward your stom

I Need A Life Preserver
-DON'T NOBODY GOT MY BACK -WHEN I NEED THEM THE MOST -I'M YELLIN WHERE'S THE LOVE AT -BUT YOU DON'T HEAR ME THOUGH -SOMETOMES I THINK I'M GOING DOWN -I NEED A LIFE PRESERVER -BUT YOU THROUGH ME BRICK -TRYING TO HELP ME DROWN -BUT I SURVIVE -WHAT OTHER OPTIONS DO I HAVE -CAN'T BLAME IT ON MY MOM -CAN'T BLAME IT ON MY DAD -I MADE MY OWN DECISIONS -I CHOSE THE PATH THAT I WALK -BUT ME AND MY FATHER NEVER HAD THAT MAN TO MAN TALK -BUT THERE AIN'T NO NEED FOR ME TO HATE HIM -HE DID ME THE FAVOR -WHEN HE CAUGHT ME MAMA OVULATING -HE BROUGHT ME IN THIS WORLD -THE REST IS UP TO ME -SO I'M GONNA DO WHAT I GOTTA -AND BE ALL THAT I CAN BE -NOW I WANTED TO BE A DOCTOR, A LAWYER, OR A JUDGE -BUT IT WASN'T MENT TO BE -SO NOW I GOT A GRUDGE -I WAS WAS MAD WITH PERSISTANCE -WHEN I ASKED FOR ASSISTANCE -YOU KEPT ME AT A DISTANCE -SO FUCK ALL YOU BITCHES -I DON'T NEED NONE OF YALL -I'M GONNA DO IT ON MY OWN -AND WHEN I STOP FALLIN -IM GONNA FLAWS IN FRONT OF ALL OF YAL

Poetry
Im Sorry Im sorry I made you mad when u were already sad Im sorry I made u upset before sunset Im sorry I cried when i should of stayed by your side Im sorry I let u down when i should've stuck around Im sorry I thought maybe but now i just wish i could still call u baby Im sorry I spent the money for our trip to sammone but i thought instead i would buy your gravity colonge Im sorry I say sorry so much so please don't let that be the last touch

I Hate 6 Degrees Of Separation
http://www.silive.com/news/advance/index.ssf?/base/news/1184069791105030.xml&coll=1&thispage=1 Vigil for a wounded cop Islander on life support as police stage all out manhunt for shooter Tuesday, July 10, 2007 By JOHN ANNESE STATEN ISLAND ADVANCE STATEN ISLAND, N.Y. -- Russel Timoshenko went to college to study engineering but ended by following the path of several young men in his neighborhood: He became a cop. "It was a camaraderie of friends that wanted to go out there, to protect and serve," said Victoria Gentile, his next-door neighbor in Bay Terrace, whose 23-year-old son is also a cop. Now Timoshenko, 23, is on life support in Kings County Hospital, where friends, family and fellow officers are keeping a constant vigil. The officer was shot twice in the face after he and his partner pulled over a group of armed men in Crown Heights early yesterday morning. Cops are still hunting the shooters, who ditched their vehicle a few blocks away. Once

Women, Perfect Answers To Dumb Ass Come Ons
Women, PERFECT answers TO DUMB ASS Come ons. Man: Where have you been all my life? Woman: Hiding from you. Man: Haven't I seen you someplace before? Woman: Yes, that's why I don't go there anymore. Man: Is this seat empty? Woman: Yes, and this one will be if you sit down. Man: Your place or mine? Woman: Both. You go to yours, and I'll go to mine. Man: So, what do you do for a living? Woman: I'm a female impersonator. Man: Hey baby, what's your sign? Woman: Dead End. Man: How do you like your eggs in the morning? Woman: Unfertilized. Man: Your body is like a temple. Woman: Sorry, there are no services today. Man: I would go to the end of the world for you. Woman: Really Can You go now and stay there? Man: If I could see you naked, I'd die happy. Woman: If I saw you naked, I'd probably die laughing.

A Little Prince
~~xXx~~ A little prince once appeared to me, He was as sweet as sweet can be. He came to me right out of the blue And said, "I would like to be a friend to you." This little prince has since stolen my heart, Even though we are now oceans apart. His love for life has been an inspiration, I'm sure one day, he would rule a nation. He's funny, he's witty, he's cute and he's charming, Sometimes he acts so "stoopid", it's alarming. He makes me laugh, he makes me smile, He makes me feel like a little 'chile'. I know one day my prince will disappear, Just as quietly as came to me here. But until then, I'll enjoy the time spent with him, Knowing chances of us meeting are very slim. ~~xXx~~

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Lose yourself in lust, my love; Enjoy me as a thing. Make my flesh your fantasy; My soul, your sycophant. I would you would with me, my love, Let all your voices sing, Losing not one ecstasy That some sweet sin might grant. For love loves not that secret space Where dreams turn into wounds, Festering for lack of care, Untended but by stealth. Love enjoys a secret grace, Calliope of tunes Inexhaustible, for there, In trust, lies love's true wealth.

Hey, Yeah - Im Your Superbeast
Shriek the lips Across ragged tongue, Convulsing together.sing Violently, move the jaw Cry aloud. bound up the dead Triumphantly The ragged they come and The ragged they kill! You pray so hard on bloody knees. The ragged they come and The ragged they kill! Down in the cool air I can see. Hey, yeah - Im the one that you wanted Hey, yeah - Im your superbeast Hey, yeah - Im the one that you wanted Hey, yeah - Im your superbeast Stir the limbs across the wrist, Full possession of memory. Bury me as a dog, Icy hands surrounding me. The ragged they come and The ragged they kill! You pray so hard on bloody knees. The ragged they come and The ragged they kill! Down in the cool air I can see. Hey, yeah - Im the one that you wanted Hey, yeah - Im your superbeast Hey, yeah - Im the one that you wanted Hey, yeah - Im your superbeast Shriek the lips Across ragged tongue, Convulsing together.sing Violently, move the jaw Cry aloud. bound up the dead Triu

I Can Relate To Some Of This
I feel so good I feel so numb yeah Mud bath, acrobat, a midnight drive everybody’s slippin everybody survive radio talk show try to project everything you need when you gotta connect Come on come on come on you feel it Come on come on come on you see it Come on come on come on you wanna make it all right Come on come on come on you feel it Come on come on come on you see it Come on come on come on you wanna make it all right blacken the sun! what have i done? i feel so bad i feel so numb yeah! blacken the sun! what have i done? i feel so good i feel so numb yeah! Sugar sweet braniac on your neck get in to tomorrow man I gotta reflect a blue world green girl up the street gotta wake her it cause I don’t want to dream Come on come on come on you feel it Come on come on come on you see it Come on come on come on you wanna make it all right Come on come on come on you feel it Come on come on come on you see it Come on come on come on you wanna make it al

Life Lessons
When will this ride come to a halt? It's been almost a year and a half and there seems to be no end in sight. Try as I may, my focus comes back to where it all began..time and again. What do I have to do to remove the numbness that is a constant factor of my daily life. The scenery changes but remains the same, leaving me scratching my head in inner turmoil that won't escape me. My watchful eyes judge all that is around me, and question every offering thrown my way. It's almost like a bait and switch, throw the dog a bone so he won't rip you to shreds while you loot the house. I've always had a good faith in my fellow man, but the situations recently have caused that to be whittled into nothingness. It seems the more I discover about myself, the less I feel I have to offer anyone I know. I can close my eyes and be taken back or choose to look past what has become my solace, not allowing it to keep me grounded alone. Subtle things can disturb the progress I've made with on

Just How I Feel May 04, 2006
In life someone can only be ignored for so long before they start to forget the reasons of why they do care and will lose all interests, care and turn there back on you just as u have done. Guess u will never know what u are missing.

Poetry
Remember I never knew That life could be like this so simple and easy until I met you Now I see what its all about the heated looks there is no doubt that I want you Then I saw It's not the same the look you give its not for me It's another in your eyes I never knew that life could be so incomplete so empty until I met you Now I see what it could have been in another dream Nights and days without end with you Then I knew I'd never be the same, laughing and free and all because I can't have you You taught me to love You taught me to hate a desire so pure its blinding as mine for you You mastered my heart My soul is your toy My body cries out for your touch I know that I will never be free to forget and I should regret And you have already gone For always alone I will be No lover to ease my soul All because of those little reminders The pain and the pleasure Together they burn me I cry out for you in the night As

A Week Of...
It's been an interesting week. I turned 25 on Tuesday. I surprisingly had no problems with it. I was figuring on some kind of mental melt down, but all went well. Went to a movie with Tara and grabbed a drink before hand. It was fun. Then on Sunday my brother called me and said he and his girlfriend wanted to take me out to lunch for my birthday. So we went out to Fridays. After about 10 minutes he confessed that there was another reason for them to take me out. He looked at his girlfriend and she goes..."WE'RE ENGAGED" . I'm super happy for them. I love them both so much. I'M GONNA HAVE A SISTER! -in-law. So that's been my week. I have lots to get done this week. I have to finish the family cookbook and clean my house, and do laundry, and all sorts of other things that I know I need to do. Things I've been putting off. Oh well, the most important is getting that damn cookbook done. Then my mom will get off my back about it.

A Couple Things I Wrote And Some From My Fav Rock Star
allright here we go..... "Love me for my mind, not my body; But play with my body, not my mind, Seduce my mind and you, can have my body, Find my soul and, im yours forever." "When it hurts to look back, and your scared to look ahead, look beside you and ill be there... ........my friend." "If you find that thing you love, it doesnt necessarily matter whether, you do it well or not- you just need to do it!"