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Thought
Normal is but a morbid illusion held within the phycosis of the criminally insane allowing individuality to become shackled and hidden in the never ending march of robotic stereotypes forced down the throat of society.

My Sister
Well another update. She's still on the feeding tube shes been on it for a week now and they told her only 3 days ughhhh Gotta love doctors. On the plus side of things She is starving lol which mean she has her appetite back. Hopefully she can start drinking something today. Then slowly work her way to solids. She is walking. slowly. hurts for her to stand upright. Keep the prayers going because they are still needed and they are so appreciated. Love you all huggles Bren

What Kind Of Kisser Am I
Your Kissing Technique Is: Perfect Your kissing technique is amazing - and you know it. You have the confidence to make the first move. And you always seem to know what kissing style is going to work best. Sometimes you're passionate, sometimes you're a tease. And you're always amazing! Are You a Good Kisser?

Peace
i feel at peace right now. Unsure of things I want to happen, but I feel pretty at peace with myself. I might even dare to say happy. I have so many new people in my life to thank for that. Especially since all this shit went down, i found out who some of the true people in my life are. And ya know what, it was a pleasent suprise. I just hope the good things keep coming because I am lovin it right now. I cannot wait for easter! I love seeing my crazy as fuck family. but what's even better is ONE WEEK TIL MY BIRTHDAY!!!! WOOOO! All I have to say is, you better get me something good! (Those of you I'm talking to, you know what I want =P ) Oh well, im gonna lay down for a nap now.

Was I Naughty Or Nice This Year
You Were Mostly Nice This Year! Sure, you had your naughty moments... but guess what? Santa was probably sleeping when you were living it up. As far as he's concerned, you've been on your best behavior. So cross your fingers, and you might score good presents. Were You Naughty or Nice This Year?

Each Day
each day that i am alone,i grow cold and bitter,wanting to be held at night as we turn out the light, i lay here alone in my bed thinking of a love story i read,the nights grow dark and cold,the stars fill the sky,and being lonely i wish i could die.love is a beautifull thing,just like a dove that spreads her wings.we tend to take the person we are with for granted,life is too short.we should love and charish the ones we love cause one day they will not be there for us too love

My Pizza Personailty
Pepperoni Pizza Robust and dominant. When you go for something, you go full force. You tend to take control of situations easily. And in return, you get a ton of respect. What's Your Pizza Personality?

Odd Week
I do not enjoy going to visitations but consider them something that must be attended. It is a sign of caring but I never know what to say. This week I get to go to three. A co-worker's father died, someone I used to work with died (suicide) and someone I graduated with died. I'll try to take these two attitudes with me - "People don't care how much you know until they know how much you care" and "That which does not kill us only makes us stonger." It's unfortunate but a way of life that funerals and visitations are a way to see your old friends. later

Do I Have An Addictive Personality?
Your Personality is 47% Addictive You may have an addictive personality, but you have it mostly under check. Just don't start any new bad habits, okay? Do You Have an Addictive Personality?

Skateboarding
Well today I got a skateboard I ordered through whaolesalesskateboards.com and went to rip for the first time in 12 years. I have a bunk knee and thats why i actually had to stop 12 years ago. I slipped on a knee brace, assebled my new deck, wheels and trucks.....ready to ride again.I surprised myself with all the tricks i could still do and the gaps i could ollie over. i did slam one good time and boy did it hrut worse than it used too....LOL i bet i'll be sore tomorrow.

How Horny Am I?
You scored as pretty damn horny.... you're horny like every avg. personpretty damn horny...90%UBERHORNY MOTHERFUCKER80%SEMI-HORNY BASTARD70%not that horny60%Homosexual Horny Motherfucker!30%anti-horny0%How horny are you?? (explicit)created with QuizFarm.com

Firestorm
You came into my life like a Firestorm Your flames swirl around me touching me in ways no one has touched me before. Your flames touched my soul melted and moved my heart my body moves and sways with your flame with you i never do what to part This Firestorm is like no other it moves with a purpose wraps me with his flame caresses me guides me slowly It's a Firestorm unlike any other its a storm of love and passion but unlike most other Firestorms that burn out fast this one is a slow controlled burn a burn to last ever after

Urine Test
Pi$$ Test > > > > I have a question, not only for Jefferson County, > > but for the entire state of Missouri, and all 50 > > states. > > > > Like a lot of folks in this state, I have a job. I > > work, they pay me. I pay my taxes and the > government > > distributes my taxes as they see fit. > > In order to get that paycheck. I am required to > pass > > a random urine test, which I have no problem with. > > > > > What I do have a problem with is the distribution > of > > my taxes to people who don't have to p ass a urine > > test. Shouldn't one have to pass a urine test to > get > > a welfare check, because I have to pass one to > earn > > it for them? > > > > Please understand, I have no problem with helping > > people get back on their feet. I do, on the other > > hand, have a problem with helping someone sit on > > their ass. Could you imagine how much money the > > state would save if people had to pass a urine > test > > to get a public assis

If My Heart Could Speak
My heart Can tell A story Beyond anything My mind could ever write the words I express in poetry nothing like what i feel in my heart I have a Pain so deep A sorrow so Plentiful If only my Heart could Speak what A story it Could tell A story of love A story of Deep pain A story of Loss and of greif. If only I could express WIth words These feelings I feel as Well as my heart Could tell These burdens WOuld be lifted The pain washed Away.

Easter Is Right Around The Corner And.....
Hey Yall just want to say HAPPY EASTER to yall. Hope its a great one. Those who have kids enjoy your time with your family....I know I will. Easter Egg Hunts are the best ;0) Well take care and HAPPY EASTER!!! Luv Always, Jenn

Let Me Love You
I will live my tender touch on you and I will feel your body shiver beside me. By candle ligth I will give you my naked body full of pasion under the bright moon. Close your eyes and let your heart guide you in this momenntes of eternal love. Your are my men and I your women, your friend, your lover, let me love you like no one love you before. Irma Iris

Maybe People Are Right
MAYBE PEOPLE ARE RIGHT. I GIVE AND GIVE AND PEOPLE TAKE AND TAKE. I BEEN TAKE CARE OF MY GRANDMA ON AND OFF FOR 4 YEARS. NOBODY IN MY FAMILY REAL HELPS. I GIVE UP LOT TO DO THIS FOR MY GRANDMA. I LOVE HER AND CARE FOR HER LOT. BUT JUST ONE TIME. LIKE HAVE MY FAMILY SAY THANK YOU MARK. FOR TAKE CARE MY GRANDMA OR MOM. BUT I DONT GET THAT. I KNOW GOD THINK I AM DOING GOOD JOB. BUT DOSE MY FAMILY KNOW I AM DOING GOOD JOB. IF SOME THING HAPPEN TO GRANDMA. GOD FOR GIVE WILL MY FAMILY BE THERE FOR ME. I THINK THEY WILL NOT BE THERE. BUT I AM GOING FAR WAY. SO MY FAMILY FEEL LIKE THEY HELP ME. BCUSE I KNOW THEY WILL NOT HELP ME. WILL U ALL HAVE GOOD ONE. AND THANK YOU REND MY FIRST BULLETIN. YOUR FRIEND MARK AKA OZ.

Calling All Bikelovers Slots Filling Up I Wanna See Some Bad Ass Bikes
MUST BE SAFE FOR WORK 1ST PRIZE 3 DAY BLASY 2 PRIZE 3 DAY BLASY 3RD VIC GIFT OF YOUR CHOICE 4TH..POSCHE CONTEST STARTS AS SOON AS ALLENTRYS HAVE BEEN FILLED PRIVATE MEESAGES TO ME ON WHAT BIKE SOI CAN RIPAND ADD IT WEN ALL ARE ENTERED..ILL POST A STICKY PLUS SEND Y UR LINK GOOD LUCK..BIKES RULE MEN/WOMEN ARE TO ENTER MUST BE STW ANY FLAGGING OTHER CONTESTENTS WILL BE AUTOMATIC DELETED..WILL NOT TOLERATED JELOUSEY..

Transformation
(Originally Posted on July 25, 2006)I found this in one of my Satanic discussion groups, Dark Sanctum. The original article can be found here.The Transformation Many of us who choose the path of the occult find down the line that it is not all fun an games, but a process of trial and error as well as growth. It isn't an easy path to take for those who are True Ones, meaning `sincere in their Satanic growth' and are not posers, find it quite challenging to say the least. As True Ones the transformation from the conditioning of this world to the next can be a very hard process. Crossing the abyss, "death" is an evolutionary process and one can achieve it through growing in the ways of the LHP. Once a person crosses the abyss what is obtained is a god like mind set for we become as gods in our own right. Not meaning that we would be rich with worldly goods and own the world, but we become in control of our own destiny and in control of our emotions. Also, one become quite proficient in t

Random Questions
1. Do you know anyone in Prison? Yes, but haven’t heard anything about him in years. 2. Have you ever logged onto a boyfriend/girlfriend/crushes myspace? No 3. When is the last time you ate peanut butter and jelly? Several months ago… but it sounds good… 4. Have you ever gotten naked at a party? LOL… no… it should be illegal for me to be naked 5. Name someone you miss... A certain 6’3” friend, the bane of my existence, my “wives”, my grandma… 6. Are you named after a grandparent? Nope 7. Who loves you? o.O? 8. Do you throw up gang signs? Heck no 9. Have you ever broken a rib? 5 or 7 10. Would you rather be a girl or a guy? I like being a girl… to the point that I am… but being a guy would be interesting…. 11. Who is the most spoiled person you know? o.O…. IDK… one of my aunts I guess 12. Would you rather have a million dollars or true love? Love 13. Have you ever had sex in church? No… heck… I think I’d burst into flames for being i

I Love You Sweetheart
you close your eyes, as I kiss your lips, no I've never known, a moment like this, i feel your breath, soft on my skin, I'd give the world, to hold you again, when I look in your eyes, the world looks new, I know there's nothing, I wouldn't do for you, when you're in my arms, time stand still, its the perfect peace, wrapped in the biggest thrill, its your touch, that takes away my pain, you take my breath, everytime you say my name, no i never knew, Love could feel like this, but I know i was wrong, every time we kiss, seems the sun rises, just to see you smile, baby you're the one thing, in this crazy life worth while, no one compairs, to what you give, and i'll give you my all, as long as I live, I'd be crazy, to ever let you go, you're everything to me, and i want you to know, yes, i'm in awe, looking at you, i'll never know what I did, to be blessed with you, i love you angel

I Will Be Offline
To all of my friends, Fans and family on CT I will be off line do to I am moving. I dont know how long I will be off line for but I will be back as soon as I can.... until I come back on line I luv you all hope to be back soon....

Innocence
When we first met I made you promise you would never leave, then I told you of the demons, and how they made me bleed. I made you promise crazy things, but your words were not enough. I couldn't believe you loved me I thought to love me was too tough. When I cry about my past and say that I'm ashamed I tell you I am the only one who is to be blamed. Then you crawl in bed beside me and say that it's ok- so I cry for my loss of innocence and the things I gave away. When I can't sleep through the night, when I toss and turn in bed, you wrap your arms around me and chase the demons from my head. You say don't talk about the past you tell me that it's gone, you say since we're together now it's time that I move on, you say that I'm your angel but if you only knew the kind of thoughts I think and what I used to do. You tell me it doesn't matter and that you love me anyway- so I cry for my loss of innocence and the things I gave away. They said that

The Child Of God
My glorious savior My precious Lord As I kneel at your feet My wonderful tears are falling onto your feet I extend my hand to yours So you can lead me to your kingdom The beautiful skies The peaceful angels I pray onto you I sing in your praises Your my father, your my savior I am deeply devoted to you you lift me up to be a wonderful child I am yours my Lord forever and ever. Amen

The Easter Story
The Easter Story From the garden of Gethsemane Where Jesus knelt to pray To the betrayal done by Judas On that grim and fatal day. From the mighty hands of Pilate Who wished to let Him be To the noble priests and leaders Who refused to set Him free. From the crown of thorns upon His head And lash marks from a strap To the weight of such a heavy cross Placed there upon His back. From the thief who hung beside Him Crying, “Lord, remember me” To the gentle words of Jesus “Today, you’ll be with me.” From the darkness of the noon time As He died upon the cross To the earth that shook and trembled In response to such a loss. From the cheering cries of soldiers As they took His body down To the caring hands of Joseph A follower new in town. From the tomb where He was laid to rest In linen cloth of white To the guards who had to stand close by Throughout both d

The Mutilation Test
18% destructiveness Well, this is basic percent of how self destructive you are. Let's just pretend that maybe the higher the score, the more destructive you are. Because you know what, thats how it works. I could in theory give you a grand introduction to basic psychology, but I don't think you care, and if you do, you've probably already taken the class. If your sick, get better. If your sad, get happier. If you need sex/drugs, well fucking get your own. If uour just fine, you probably shouldn't contact me as chances are you really won't like me. This test tracked 1 variable. How the score compared to the other people's: Higher than 44% on destructivenessLink: The Mutilation Test written by azraeyl on Ok Cupid

Poetry
Can you feel what i feel?, Am i wrong for wishing my heart would be still?, Just please oh please leave me alone and go away, I beg of you just one time of peace for just atleast one day, Spend one day in my shoes and deal with my pain, My heart is a battlefield after the war and everybody is slain, Your killing me like a leech just sucking the life out of me, I gave you everything and it just didnt work so let me be, The words cut like a 1,000 teeth that dig into my flesh, The sweetest dessert for me right now would be a big bowl of death, So hand me a fork and let me eat, Until my strength disappears and i cant hear my heartbeat, Halloween isnt just a holiday but every time of the year, Because you shouldnt believe everything you hear, And an open mind just might be the key, Because everyone isnt what they appear to be, Hello? Is anyone listening to my words?, Or are you refusing to listen because of what you've already

The Sexxii Big Men Here They Are (now Plz Repost)
heres all the sexxii men that has enter please show all of them love IF YOUR IN THE CONTEST MAKE SURE U HELP REPOST THE BULLENTINS PLZ src="http://cherrytap.com/image.php?u=402601&i=136490971&tn=1" border=0>

The Most Functional English Word
Well, it's shit ... that's right, shit! Shit may just be the most functional word in the English language. Consider: You can get shit-faced, Be shit-out-of-luck, Or have shit for brains. With a little effort, you can get your shit together, find a place for your shit, or be asked to shit or get off the pot. You can smoke shit, buy shit, sell shit, lose shit, find shit, forget shit, and tell others to eat shit. Some people know their shit, while others can't tell the difference between shit and shineola. There are lucky shits, dumb shits, and crazy shits. There is bull shit, horse shit, and chicken shit. You can throw shit, sling shit, catch shit, shoot the shit, or duck when the shit hits the fan. You can give a shit or serve shit on a shingle. You can find yourself in deep shit or be happier than a pig in shit. Some days are colder than shit, some days are hotter than shit, and some days are just plain shitty. Some music sounds like sh

Emoticons
We all know those cute little computer symbols called "emoticons," where: :) means a smile and :( is a frown. Well, how about some "ASS –I- CONS?" Here goes: (_!_) a regular ass (__!__) a fat ass (!) a tight ass (_*_) a sore ass {_!_} a swishy ass (_x_) kiss my ass (_X_) leave my ass alone (_zzz_) a tired ass (_E=mc2_) a smart ass (_$_) Money coming out of his ass (_?_) Dumb Ass

God Knows
He placed diamonds in your eyes, That outshine the sun, Such a perfect splendor, He shows them to everyone, He threaded the finest silk, With ut-most care, Then he sat back and smiled, So proud of your flowing hair, He gave you hands of velvet, So soft and smooth, Meant for the most beautiful of angels, Which is why he gave them to you, He covered your lips with honey, The sweetest in the land, So impressed with his own work, He gave himself a hand, Your heart he made of the purest gold, A treasure like no one has seen, Hidden so deep at the bottom of the ocean, Then he burried it in a dream, He's so proud of you, He shows you off time and again, Cause even God knows, He'll never make and angel like you again...

A Friend Most True
I need to know if you’re my true friend, will you be by my side until the end? Can I tell you my secrets deep, and trust them in your heart you’ll keep? We are neither of us without our flaws, can you accept mine as I will yours? I’ll be a shoulder to cry on when you’re blue, will you be there for me when I need you? No matter how busy I will make time for you, if you are busy will you make time for me too? I will take your hand and comfort your tears, will you hold me and soothe my fears? I will give you joy and many warm smiles, can we share that even across many miles? I will not forget what’s important to you, will you remember what’s important to me too? With you my most favourite things I’ll share, If only I know do you truly care? If you can accept me as I do you, then I will know you are a friend most true.

Me
thoughts twisting swirling pulling me under the waves of confusion once again. i gave you my heart now it's yours and i can't get it back though i try and try to make it right, to make it make sense, to think with my brain instead of my emotions. i hate where i am, i hate where you are, i don't know why it has to be so fucking hard when all i want is to run to you, to curl up in your arms and have you hold me forever, forever, and never let go, forget about everything else, forget about the stuff that doesn't make sense, because this is what my heart wants and always will

Now For Sum Fun
1. Your Name: 2. Age: 3. Favorite position (s)? 4. Do you think i'm hot? 5. Would you have sex with me? 6. lights on or off? 7. Would you have to be drunk? 8. Would you take a shower with me? 9. Have you ever thought about having sex with me? 10. Would you leave after or stay the night? 11. Do you like cuddling afterwards? 12. Condom or skin? 13. Do you give Oral pleasures? 14. Do you like to recieve Oral Pleasures? 15. Have sex on the first date? 16. Would you kiss me during sex? 17. Do you think I would be good in bed? 18. Three sum? 19. Anal yes/no? 20. How many times would you like to cum? 21. Would you use me as a booty call? 22. Do you like fore play? 23. What is fore play to you? 24. Can we take pictures of the act? 25. did you have fun filling this out?

~sexy Zodiac~
Aries women: Wildly sensual, passionate and adventurous. You'll have sex anywhere. You know what you want. Intense and frequent sex. You have a need for complete control, but you're also in love with love. As a mate, you are ardent, loyal, sentimental, and earthy. Biggest thrill - the tickle of a man's facial fuzz. Aries men: Sleeping with him is like playing croquet with live bombs - you . never know what is going to happen! Never expect him to wait for you to be ready - he will rip your clothes off if he is ready to go. Don't tease him or you'd better be ready to deliver. Fond of slave/master games and he likes it rough. Aries men are also explorers, so be ready to go where no woman has gone before. His favourite position: a woman on her knees leaning forward. Taurus women: You expect your man to be kind and patient and make love to you by the book. Like to be pleased by sex, but don't look for unusual approaches. But you are a demanding lover and you leave your partner breat

I Wanna Scream
I was sent this article today and wanna actually find this women and torture her. Why risk such a beatiful life... she was to young to have to suffer lije that..... ALVARADO, TEXAS: Baby killed in highway crash after high-speed police chase A woman led police on a 25-mile high-speed chase until she crashed into a concrete median, killing her 9-month-old daughter in the wreck, authorities said. Alexxus Riza was thrown Friday night from the SUV, which rolled several times under an Interstate 35 overpass, said trooper Dub Gillum of the Texas Department of Public Safety. Aimee Andrea Riza, 36, of Keene, sustained minor injuries and was arrested on suspicion of manslaughter, evading arrest, resisting arrest and reckless driving, Gillum said. “She was combative after the crash when they tried to extract her out of the vehicle,” he said. “The officers had to wrestle her to get her under control.” A driver had called the Somervell County Sheriff’s Department to report a rec

I Am...
i am a lemon with a twist, i am a dewdrop full of mist, i am a lady filled with bliss, i am but a gentle kiss, i am invisible but i show, i am a burned-out lamp that still does glow, i am bold,though you may not know, i am a horn that does not blow, i am used,but still brand-new, i am a mystery without a clue, i am flase,but forever true, i am me and also you.... i am a flower opening my buds; i do not fight with fists,but with hugs, i am a push without a shove, creeping,oh,so softly,i am love. i am deaf,but i can hear, i am afraid,but i have no fear, i am forever constant throughout the year, i am smart and my actions make it clear, i am with the doll who was thrown in the corner, i am at the funeral standing next to the mourner, i hear the cry of a small boy saying his prayers, i see the hearts of a million set up in flares, i taste the bitter words and the nasty stares, i can touch the small gurl and feel her many tears, i am with the stresses-out man livin

Wasting Away In Margaritaville, Don't Call Me Boo
well, not margaritas. but tequila all the same. lol tonight has been interesting. I had a wonderful conversation with an old friend and an even better moment with another. missing one friend yet knowing he is always with me. stoopid tequila. lol. there is nothing on tv tonight. grr pyo. I really should get to bed or something, but instead I am rambling on here like an idiot. why do I always attract the pervs who think I am looking for some extramarital thug life? lol. I blocked a guy today because of the following conversation (names have been changed) idiot: hey baby, you fyne me: umm thank you? I think? idiot: you married gurl me: yes I am idiot: that coo me: glad you approve idiot: I dont care boo omfg u r hawt I will not tell the man if you give out the vanila sugar then I blocked him without another word.... seriously, this is not how to approach a woman guys...

Just Me!
My name is Janna, 24 years old. I have a 7 year old son. I love all kinds of music. Love watching horror movies, and just about anything that I get into. I live in Alabama which is pretty boring. Not much to do here. I'm new to this thing so I'm still figuring out what to do on here. So rate me, hate me, whatever. If you think you might have something in common with me than message me if you want. See ya later.

Our Angels..
He's a recent High School graduate; he was probably an average student, pursued some form of sport activities, drives a ten year old jalopy, and has a steady girlfriend that either broke up with him when he left, or swears to be waiting when he returns from half a world away. He listens to rock and roll or hip-hop or rap or jazz or swing and 155mm Howitzers. He is 10 or 15 pounds lighter now than when he was at home because he is working or fighting from before dawn to well after dusk. He has trouble spelling, thus letter writing is a pain for him, but he can field strip a rifle in 30 seconds and reassemble it in less time in the dark. He can recite to you the nomenclature of a machine gun or grenade launcher and use either one effectively if he must. He digs foxholes and latrines and can apply first aid like a professional. He can march until he is told to stop or stop until he is told to march. He obeys orders instantly and without hesitation, but he is not wit

The Mysterious Stranger From Dreamsville
Walking in to their destination, all his eyes can see is her apple shaped bottom walking before him, Walking up the stairs due to a faulty elevator, his eyes catch a glimpse of bare flesh under her skirt. He tries so hard not to look, but his sight seems to just zero in on her legs following the seems of her thigh highs straight to their lacey tops. He begins to feel warmer then before, his blood rushing through him. Arriving at their suite she bends down to drop her bags, and again he sees an awesome sight, corset induced cleavage as if about to just break loose from their binding. Well that's the vision he now sees in his mind. Noticing the look on her gentle lovers face, she strolls over to him kneeling before him. She rest her head against his thigh and hip, looking up at him with doe like eyes. She can feel his happiness pressing against her cheek. She asks if he's ok, and receives a distant nod of yes. She asks him to sit on the large chair in the corner and he does. She remov

To Miss A Piece That Felt Like It Belonged.
Lost. Merely smiling by the side of the light I thought might still be. It hurts so damn bad. But such is life, and life it is. Screaming for the surges of chains to quit their striking wrath against my back. A moment brought the thoughts airborne for the feild of domestic criminal intentions. Loosing was not the plan, but winning was not to be obtained. Its a stand still when ur heart stops. When it gives up. When it decides it cant go forward. Swinging in and out of the has beens and the should of beens. It was all a collection of moments to be remembered. The fuck yous and the fuck offs ring in loud and clear. A smile still can be had. Fair is a game that isnt played in this world. To watch one suffer and not to be able to do a damn thing is a wound that digs deeper than he will ever know. At this point i realize that it doesnt matter. Because this is life and such as life. Just knowing that i once had a place at the end of his tunnel. That is enough to happy for.

My Life These Days
My life these days is up and down. I started the year in good spirits. Something told me this year would be great. Something LIED!! I was diagnosed with Polycystic Kidney disease in Feb., a disease that has taken two important people from me, put 2 aunts and my mom on dialysis, caused 3 of my aunts and uncles to have transplants. Then, I fianlly start to accept the fact that I will join them someday. I came to terms with the fact that I will deal with this for the rest of my life. Right when my spirits are up again, I go to the first visit with my kidney doctor. It's supposed to be just a discussion and they send you on your way for another year. NOT IN MY CASE!! Apparently I have an infected cyst or a cyst with a kidney stone in it, which has been causing me to have almost deadly kidney infections. SOOO I have to take an antibiotic for 8 weeks, which has upset my stomach every time I take it. Not to mention the fact that I have to get blood work done again next week and

Snow?
Come on I am so sick of the snow and what do I wake up to, having to clean off the vehicle cause we managed to get a couple of inches to stay. Having the hotel room for the week is great, so much less stress worrying whether or not I have a place to sleep. The simple things make it great though, TV, bed, shower, and yes I know it sounds stupid but I do those minor things that people take for granted I was I need and appritiate so much.

I'm Lemon Meringue
THIS IS INTERESTING........ If all of the desserts listed below were sitting in front of you, which would you choose. (you can only pick one!) DARN!!! Trust me... this is reputed to be very accurate. Pick your dessert; then look to see what psychiatrists think about you. After taking this dessert personality test, send this e-mail on to others, but when you do, be sure to put your choice of dessert in the subject box above. ALSO, SEND IT TO THE PERSON WHO SENT IT TO YOU. Here are your choices: 1. Angel Food Cake 2. Brownies 3. Lemon Meringue 4. Vanilla cake with Chocolate Icing 5. Strawberry Short Cake 6. Chocolate on Chocolate 7. Ice Cream 8. Carrot Cake No, you can't change your mind once you scroll down, so think carefully what your choice will be.... OK - Now that you've made your choice this is what research says about you...

Today
well all as we know today was not a great day cuz of the weather but besides that it was wonderful. my neice is doing so much better since she moved in here. school is going great just board when we have nothing to do at all. days like this no one gets there hair done so i was board got a manicure today getting a pedicure tomorrow hopefully. well if you read this go get your hair done at toledo acadmey of beauty culture we do great jobs. later all

"if A Child........."
If a child lives with criticism, he learns to condemn. If a child lives with hostility, he learns to fight. If a child lives with ridicule, he learns to be shy. If a child lives with shame, he learns to feel guilty. If a child lives with tolerance, he learns to be patient. If a child lives with encouragement, he learns confidence. If a child lives with praise, he learns to appreciate. If a child lives with fairness, he learns justice. If a child lives with security, he learns to have faith. If a child lives with approval, he learns to like himself. If a child lives with acceptance and friendship, He learns to find love in the world.

Hopeless Dreaming
Hopeless dreamingby Chamorrican06 Lifting me high higher than ever before looking into my eyes always wanting more more than what the outside layer shows needing everything within to be able to see the light that truly shines inside holding my hand guiding me to what is right your the one that makes me complete but when i wake up it would have been just a dream

Urges
Why do my wrists burn with the urge to cut? I have cut many times in the past but I have never had the urge to cut my wrists. My thighs are usually what burn and then receive the brutal torture of being carved upon. It is a comfort to me to cut. It is like it takes all of my problems away. I feel like I have been cleansed. As weird to some as it may sound it is the way that I feel. The feeling of being cleansed is usually only temporary but it is effective. Should I face the fate that most say is inevitable? Medicate or end it? Over the years I have had many people tell me do the smart thing and medicate yourself like your father did before you make the same mistakes that he did. I have even been told before that I can either get on meds or make the needed funeral arrangements because with out treatment that fate is inevitable. I dont want my kids to see thier mom all medicate and almost unable to function normal everyday activities because most of the anti depressants make me either s

Read Guys... What We Do And What I Meant...
Body language: GUYS..... WHEN I FLIP MY HAIR -PLAY WITH MY HAIR WHEN I RUN AWAY FROM YOU - CHASE ME WHEN I POUT MY LIPS - KISS ME WHEN I KICK & PUNCH - HOLD ME TIGHT WHEN I CALL YOU A LOSER - JUST KNOW THAT YOUR MY LOSER WHEN I IGNORE YOU - I WANT ALL YOUR ATTENTION WHEN I PULL AWAY - GRAB ME BY THE WAIST AND NEVER LET GO WHEN YOU SEE ME AT MY WORST - TELL ME IM BEAUTIFUL WHEN I SCREAM AT YOU - TELL ME YOU LOVE ME AND MEAN IT WHEN YOU SEE ME WALKING -SNEAK UP BEHIND ME GRAB ME BY THE WAIST AND GIVE ME A KISS

Womens Compact Instruction, Print And Bring Everywhere...
Women's Compact Instruction Booklet 1. Never do housework. No man ever loved a woman because the house was spotless. 2. Remember: you are known by the idiot you accompany. 3. Don't imagine you can change a man - unless he's in diapers. 4. What do you do if your boyfriend walks out? You shut the door. 5. So many men - so many reasons not to date any of them. 6. If they put a man on the moon, they should be able to put them all there. 7. Tell him you're not his type - you have a pulse. 8. Never let your man's mind wander. It's too little to be let out alone. 9. Go for younger men. You might as well. They never mature anyway. 10. Men are all the same. They just have different faces so you can tell them apart. 11. Definition of a bachelor: a man who has missed the opportunity to make some woman miserable. 12. Women don't make fools of men. Most of them are the do-it-yourself types. 13. The best way to get a man to do something is

So You'll Play The Mistaken And I'll Play The
So let's not even try you're right let's ball it up and throw it out the window It's becoming all so clear in my mind I've thought this thing through like once or twice I feel that this is my last request to you Hold your breath Bottle it up and save it for the next one It's safe to say we've been riding this all night None of this will ever change your mind It's never safe to rely on borrowed time Now we're both undone and it's time to open up your eyes Consequence, it's our need in times like these Feeling free is our modern disease You're a classic disaster, with a knack for losing your exterior I'm so sick From staring at the mirror This all needs a break from you And I'm used to this I fear that I am just an end So you'll play the mistaken and I'll play the victim In our screenplay of desire and I'm still writing the letters I'll never send Running in circles I can't forget how many times I've played this in my mind Feeling free, Feeling free Consequenc

Why Is This???
WHY IS IT? Alot of guys think that tits or boobs are the best ting ever and I have to dissagree!! I think that a female butt is like the best thiong along with the hips and there face, eyes, hair as well as mabe saying that shor and petette is the best thing!!! We all know that butts come in many different types of shapes and sizes like other thing we know of!!! Some guys even thing that a female has not butt when they do!!! See a few of the pic samples bellow of what I think is a hot butt!!! This is what looks good to me!!! However the middle pis is the perfect one to me!!! Do you have one better? Show me a pic and I will tell you if its better!!!! NOW THOSE ARE GREAT BUTTS

Burning And Yearning
I'm burning and yearning, Oh these urges inside. I am lost within them. Too many pulling in different directions, The one to cut my wrist is so strong. Yet the one to be here for my kids is much stronger. I'm burning for the touch of true love, And yearning to be loved. I make many mistakes, And I dont know why. Oh the burning and yearning of urges inside. The urge to cut is always on my mind. My simple release is this machine. Burning for your touch, And yearning for a love. Urges so strong that they push away love. DAMN burning and yearning! Do the urges take over? If I do it am I weak? Oh how my wrists and legs burn. As they yearn for the outside pain to release the in. Giving in is giving up. Why cant I fight them away? Oh the burning and yearning. Please touch me, Hold me tight and help me push the pain away. Please kiss me to kill the burning. And PLEASE caress me to kill the yearning. Scratch me to stiffle the need to cut. Rip my flesh with your nail

Booked On 'medium'
Just got a call from my agent, on Monday I will be on the TV show 'Medium' starring Patricia Arquette and Jake Weber. It is an honor to be able to work with Jake, he has been in so much stuff. I am playing a Mexican restaraunt patron. I am so happy because it's a Paranormal show and I have ALWAYS wanted to do stuff like this, you guys know me, ghost and haunted house and horror movie freak! I will post a blog after I get home from set Monday night or Tuesday.

Dont Forget Ur Soap!!!!!!!!!! Lmfao
Two priests are off to the showers late one night. They undress and step into the showers before they realize there is no soap. Father John says he has soap in his room and goes to get it, not bothering to dress. He grabs two bars of soap, one in each hand, and heads back to the showers. He is halfway down the hall when he sees three nuns heading his way. Having no place to hide, he stands against the wall in the dim light and freezes like he's a statue. The nuns stop and comment on how life-like he looks. The first nun suddenly reaches out and pulls on his manhood. Startled, he drops a bar of soap "Oh look," says the first nun, "it's a soap dispenser". To test her theory the second nun also pulls on his manhood.... sure enough he drops the second bar of soap. Now the third nun decides to have a go. She pulls once, then twice and three times but nothing happens. So she gives several more tugs, then yells, "Holy Mary, Mother of God - Hand Lotion, too!"

Slipknot Song Quiz
You scored as get this. get this94%surfacing94%the heretic anthem88%new abortion81%my plague75%duality75%skin ticket69%wait and bleed44%no life38%vermilion19%what slipknot song are you? (detailed)created with QuizFarm.com

Don't Fuck With Old People
DR. APPOINTMENT They always ask at the doctor's office why you are there, and you have to answer in front of others what's wrong and sometimes it is embarrassing. There's nothing worse than a Doctor's Receptionist who insists you tell her what is wrong with you in a room full of other patients. I know most of us have experienced this, and I love the way this old guy handled it. An 86 year old man walked into a crowded waiting room and approached the desk.... The Receptionist said, "Yes sir, what are you seeing the Doctor for today?" "There's something wrong with my dick", he replied. The receptionist became irritated and said, "You shouldn't come into a crowded waiting room and say things like that." "Why not? You asked me what was wrong and I told you," he said. The Receptionist replied, "Now you've caused some embarrassment in this room full of people. You should have said there is something wrong with your ear or something and discussed the problem further wi

Facts
1) 94% of men lie about their penis size. According to condom manufacturers, only 6% of men need to use extra large condoms. 2) The average man is 5 inches long when erect (no matter what you have heard ladies, that's the truth). (incidentally the average vaginal capactity is only 6 inches, for you women who think you can handle king kong) 3) 80% of American men are circumsized. Even though Pediatricians say it is not necessary. 4) No matter what all the ads say, nothing can make your penis grow but time (most men reach the end of their growth by the early 20's) 5) There is no correlation between penis size and shoe size, hand size, or nose size. 6) Blue balls does exist! It's technically called "prostatic congestion." 7) Only 16% of men shave their privates. +Some stuff on the ladies+ ------------------------------ 1) Only 9% of women around the globe consider themselves "attractive" (20% of British women do). 43% of women use the term "natural",

Sevendust-hurt (nin Cover)
I hurt myself today To see if I still feel I focus on the pain the only thing that's real The needle tears a hole the old familiar sting try to kill it all away but I remember everything What have I become? My sweetest friend Everyone I know goes away in the end You could have it all My empire of dirt I will let you down I will make you hurt I wear this crown of shit upon my liar's chair Full of broken thoughts I cannot repair Beneath the stains of time the feelings disappear You are someone else I am still right here What have I become? my sweetest friend Everyone I know goes away in the end You could have it all my empire of dirt I will let you down I will make you hurt If I could start again a million miles away I would keep myself I would find a way... -------------- Strong side! Double wide!

My Soul
You Are a Newborn Soul You are tolerant, accepting, and willing to give anyone a chance. On the flip side, you're easy to read and easily influenced by others. You have a fresh perspective on life, and you can be very creative. Noconformist and nontraditional, you've never met anyone who's like you. Inventive and artistic, you like to be a trendsetter. You have an upbeat spirit and you like almost everything. You make friends easily and often have long standing friendships. Implusive and trusting, you fall in love a little too easily. Souls you are most compatible with: Bright Star Soul and Dreaming SoulWhat Kind of Soul Are You?

Rough Sex Facts!
Having nice sex burns 358 calories. Having rough sex [make it hurt] burns 543 calories. Giving .........head....... massages the jaw....while burning 32 calories. Swallowing foreign body juices is actually like taking vitamins and it whitens your teeth The American Dental Association says that semen cuts plaque better than mouth wash, so suck a dick and save a smile. Take off her clothes with her consent.........................12 cal without......................187 cal Take off her Bra With two hands..........................8 cal With one hand.........................12 cal With mouth.............................85 cal Put on Protection hard ........................... 6 cal soft..........................315 cal Foreplay Looking for target...................8 cal Finding G spot ......................92 cal I don't F***ing care.....................0 cal Entry Holding her..................12 cal On the floor.................8 cal With Different Posi

Taking Tina
Tina was and still is a close friend of my ex-wife. She was always around before and after we got married. She was to my mind an attractive woman. She had hair that was dyed an interesting reddish-brown hue, brown eyes, large round 36C breasts, nice wide hips and a very spankable ass. I had never said anything about my attraction to her, to Chris (my ex-wife or for that matter to Tina, figuring that discretion was the better part of valor or some such shit. LOL. I would come to find out that Tina’s affection for Chris and I was more than just platonic. Tina was very prone back then to getting what I like to call the “drunken guilties”, and confessed to me one night while Chris was out of earshot in the bathroom that the two of them had been having sex. I was a little surprised by this but not at all upset. When I queried Chris about it later, she readily admitted to it. She also told me that I should feel free to in her words “feel free to sample Tina’s Goodies”. I have to admit t

My Sexual Iq
You have a sexual IQ of 138 When it comes to sex, you are a super genius. You have had a lot of experience, and sex interests you so you know a lot about it. You pride yourself on being a source of information and guidance to all of your friends. Take this quiz at QuizUniverse.com

Secrets Of Ginger (given To Me By Lady Victoria)
Secrets of Ginger Adapted from Aromatherapy for Everyone, by PJ Pierson and Mary Shipley (Vital Health Publishing, 2004). Ginger is one of the most highly valued spices in the world, renowned not only for the spicy flavor it gives to food--including holiday gingerbread!--but for its healing properties. The ancient Greeks used it to counteract the effects of poison, and traditional Chinese medicine recommends it for a vast array of ailments from respiratory issues to toothache. Today, healers rely on ginger to combat digestive and joint complaints, ease mood swings, and help to boost the libido. To re-energize body and soul This simple technique eases mood swings, helps shake off a tendency to procrastinate, and alleviates general feelings of disconnection: Place 2-3 drops of pure essential oil of ginger in a diffuser, or place on a cotton ball and inhale 2 to 3 times. For joint complaints, muscle pain, and backache Use 2-3 drops of pure essential oil of ginger into 1 oun

My Son
I recieved a phone call from my son tonight.I have'nt talked to him in awhile,I was realy starting to get worried.He told me why I havent been able to get him on the phone and why he had'nt called in awhile.He tried to comment suicide,that scared the hell out of me.I ask him why his words were I DONT KNOW.Have you ever known anyone who commited suicide,I have I've always wondered what makes a person take their own life and maybe my son answered that question maybe they dont know,my son said he just felt he could'nt deal with things anymore,but I talked to me for an hour or longer and he was better.All he had to do was call me we are very close,he didnt want to worry me.Thats what Mothers are for and we worry reguardless.My children are my world I honestly dont think i could survive the lose of one of them.It makes you wonder what goes through their minds,because they never say why or what made them decide to do this.But he's ok and i made him promise to call me everyday and he has neve

My Kids Are In A Contest..
Well this shows you who your true friends are when you need them they are never there for you you post bulletins to get their help and nothing they don't even open it up. Sheww this just fustrates me so much. But for the few that DID open the link and go rate my boys THANK YOU SOOOO MUCH. If you would like to look and help me out then I will post the links below... [ CherryTAP.com photo: 1507213742 ] & [ CherryTAP.com photo: 3889961556 ]

Warning.. Pissy Mood
I realize I am the cause of a lot of the confusion and struggles in my life. Its just how I am. My self esteem has never been the greatest, I think too much, and I leave myself open to getting hurt. When I let people make me feel bad about myself, I need to step back and stop it. I am the one letting them do that to me... giving them the power and control over me. So you know, if you are going to treat me in a way that makes me feel bad, I am just going to tell you to F OFF and leave me alone. I beat myself up enough and I don't need your help. The problem is, I always think giving up is failure. Not really. I need to remember that. Sometimes no matter how hard you try, things don't work. Did I fail with my ex? No, she was a B#tch and didn't deserve me. Did I fail at my last job before opening the busines? No they were dishonest A$$holes who didn't pay me. Did I fail to be a friend to some people here? Actually yes at times. I have struggled and withdrawn. But with s

Yahoo...
If any of you got any strange messages (well stranger than usual) from me over the weekend, I think someone got my password and logged on. I got signed out and it said someone signed into my account on a different computer. Changed my passwords so hopefully it will not happen again.

4/16/07
Ironically enough what few men are interested in me in real life now are no where near the type of man I want in my life. I again wonder if I shall ever be happy. I was asked this weekend if I am ever happy and to my surprise I replied with "Yes, I was happy about a year ago when I was with my ex before everything went to hell. I seen my beautiful little girl everyday, had a man whom I loved and thought loved me, a house to go home to, a bike shop to call "ours", and my money issues were not really issues." I know what I need to be happy and I don't know if I will ever get there again but I am sure going to try. I need to be happy: 1. Seeing my daughter everyday 2. Having a place to call home 3. Control of money issues 4. To feel loved Things that help me smile 1. Getting flowers at work out of nowhere 2. Compliments 3. Seeing my daughter 4. Being able to buy something nice 5. Someone buying me something nice 6. Knowing someone is really there for me not j

Mathew
Mathew can conceal his pain no longer, because, from my vantage point, no matter how cleverly i may sneak upon a mirror, my reflection is always right there, to stare back at me. And do you know what i see? i see a troubled, tortured, tormented soul. But this is my destiny and no one feels my pain.

The New Colossians
"Give me your tired, your poor, Your huddled masses yearning to breathe free, The wretched refuse of your teeming shore. Send these, the homeless, tempest-tost to me, I lift my lamp beside the golden door!" The last part of Emma Lazarus' poem "The New Colossus" is most often associated with the Statue of Liberty, and it's a dictum the Christian church would do well to adopt. Hear me out; very often even those of us who attend church regularly don't feel like we're part of anything resembling a community. Every Sunday you will inevitably see persons (I've been guilty of this too) looking at their watch as though they're looking forward to getting out of there and not focusing at all on the moment. Why do we do this? Are we that bored on Sunday mornings or whatever our regular worship time is? Have we been going to church so long that it's gotten to where we're just going through the motions. Mark Twain once said that the reason most people don't go to church is because they've

Jeff Bates 20 Questions
1. What was the inspiration for writing "Long Slow Kisses"? It was a relationship I was in at the time. I was headed for a songwriting meeting in Nashville. I was living in Little Rock, Ark., at the time. The last thing she told me before I walked out the door was, "I just don't feel like I'm the most important thing in your life anymore." And I said, "Baby, I've got to go do this. I'm sorry. Just know that I love you." I walked out, and I got about 40 miles out of town and felt so guilty. And I realized that she was telling the truth that I didn't make her feel that way anymore. So I turned around and went back home. 2. I have been to several of your concerts in the last year and a-half. Your dancing has become sexier than before. Do you practice at home in front of the mirror, or do you just do what comes naturally? I just do what I feel on any given night. I'm not a dancer. I have two left feet. However I'm feeling the music that night and how the crowd's responding to it d

Fuck Bush!!!!
Fuck George Bush and his cabinet of assholes. They have cut aid to people with disabilities. Type 1 Diabetes is no longer a disabiling disease and you cannot get a medical card when you need assistance. He has Type 2 mixed up with Type 1. Type 2 is caused as adult onset or just plain fat and fucking lazy which he has cut off completely. What about people like me with Type 1 who need insulin to survive? It isn't my fault genetics has stricken me with this disease. I had almost died last year and 17 months prior because most of the stuff I need I cannot afford and most insurance does not cover. What about when people like me are down on their luck and have no resources to get the needed medications? Does he not know how to have one cut and the other OK for the people who can die from lack of medications? Is he that fucking ignorant to give that same health care to people who don't even live in this country but screw the people who do? he needs to get a good kick to his fucking skull. Typ

Self-destruction
This woman will self-destruct in 30 almost 29 days. Im not sure how I feel about my birthday yet. I have another 20lbs to lose but will be happy with 10 if I can increase my squats and benches. I have been working like a mad woman so I can get my 1st apartment. Work is fucked up and I miss my friends and the comfort of a warm body wrapped around me at night. And Im tired of people being all talk. RAAWR. Damn it! Im so glad I have football. My 1st season game is this weekend and I just found out I will be starting. How exciting! So we will see how the countdown goes.

Small Accomplishments
Well I have been noticed by a MySpace group called Odin's Folk WI! I've been wanting to find other Asatruars here in Wisconsin. I then through them I found The Odinic Rite and had my friend request accepted! So I guess I should pay the membership fee and fill out the application letter, become an official member, hey?! I've been thinking of joining them for quite some time now...like years. Them and the Rune Gild. Anyway, thought I'd give a personal update. Hailsa!

How To Save The Airlines
Dump the male flight attendants. No one wanted them in the first place. Replace all the female flight attendants with good-looking strippers! What the hell - the attendants have gotten old and haggard-looking. They don't even serve food anymore, so what's the loss? The strippers would at least triple the alcohol sales and get a "party atmosphere" going in the cabin. And, of course, every businessman in this country would start flying again, hoping to see naked women. Because of the tips, female flight attendants wouldn't need a salary, thus saving even more money. Hell, I suspect tips would be so good that we could charge the women for working and have them kick back 20% of the tips. Muslims would be afraid to get on the planes for fear of seeing naked women. Hijackings would come to a screeching halt, and the airline industry would see record revenues. This is definitely a win-win situation if we handle it right - a golden opportunity to turn a liability into an asset. Why the

More About Me
My Best Features i am a good friend and i will do everything i can to help a friend in need. other than that does it really matter? what im into my daughter and making her happy cause she make my day brighter when i see her smile. everything else is window decorations . i am me, if u dont like it that is your bad luck. i have a great daughter and a great job. i dont beat around the bush and i am far from p.c. if u want p.c. go hug a tree with the hippies as they protest the men and women that protect their right to do it, but dont come at me with that crap cause i will simply tell u to kiss my ass. elvis is dead and there was no goverment plot that took down the towers, it was some stupid terrorist that thought that they would go to heaven and have 70 virgins waiting for them. their bad, i guess they now know that its hot in hell. dont preach to me about how horrific your life has been unless it is true or i will again tell u to kiss my ass. if u think u had a hard life

Old Friend New Friends
Make new friends, but keep the old: Those are silver, these are gold New made friendship, like new wine Age will mellow and refine Friendships that have stood the test Time and change-are surly best: Brow may wrinkle, hair grow gray: Friendship never knows decay For mid old friends - tried and true Once more we our youth renew But old friends alas may die New friends must replace there supply Cherish friendship in your breast New is good, but old is best Make new friends, but keep the old Those are silver these are gold

Something To Think About
Sometime over the weekend I heard the following..not sure what I was watching at the time though... "Without fear, there can be no courage" I fear lots of things, as we all do. I don't think my fears are unique for the most part. I fear losing my son, or Dad, or anyone in my family. I don't know what I would do if I losteither David or Dad. Hurting someone or losing a friend scares me. I would much rather be hurt, than to hurt another. Love scares me. I guess because everyone who ever told me they loved me, in a romantic way, has hurt me. But that is part of love. And I suppose it is because I chose to love the wrong people. But I keep trying, because somewhere out there is someone that will want my love, and deserve my love. I don't fear being poor, or losing my home, or a job. In the end things like that don't really matter. What makes us rich is the people who we love, and who love us back - our family, our friends. I don't fear my own death. I know there

Black Label Society-blood Is Thicker Than Water
Here comes the rain Another day, another storm I've been down,down, down For oh, so long I'll walk this mile And I'll ask no quarter For in the end Blood is thicker than water They try to break me but I refuse to die They try to break me but I refuse to cry Here comes the rain Another day, another storm I'll walk this mile And I'll ask no quarter For in the end Blood is thicker than water ---------------------

If I Don't Get This Back, I Understand.
If I don't get this back, I understand. But I have a game for you. Once you read this letter, you must send it to 15 people that you really care about, including the person that sent it to you. If you receive at least 7 back, then you are loved. Nobody knows what they have until they lose it. You never leave the person whom you love for the one you like, because that person who you like will leave you for the person whom they love. Tonight, right at 12:00am, your true love is going to realize that they LOVE you! Then something is going to happen to you between 1:00 and 2:00 a.m. Tomorrow, be ready for the greatest shock of your life. If you break this chain, you are going to have bad luck in love for the next years of your life. Send this to 15 people in 15 minutes. Do it if you wanna know who your real love is

Your Name In Russian
This is great... go to the link below to try it out. Ignore all the crazy Russian on the site, just TYPE YOUR NAME IN THE TEXT BOX. then click to see what your name looks like in Russian...very impressive! http://www.callme.nm.ru/

Who Knew????
1. To remove a bandage painlessly, saturate the bandage with vodka. The solvent dissolves adhesive. 2. To clean the caulking around bathtubs and showers, fill a trigger-spray bottle with vodka, spray the caulking, let set five minutes and wash clean. he alcohol in the vodka kills mold and mildew. 3. To clean your eyeglasses, simply wipe the lenses with a soft, clean cloth dampened with vodka. The alcohol in the vodka cleans the glass and kills germs. 4. Prolong the life of razors by filling a cup with vodka and letting your safety razor blade soak in the alcohol after shaving. The vodka disinfects the blade and prevents rusting. 5. Spray vodka on vomit stains, scrub with a brush, and then blot dry. 6. Using a cotton ball, apply vodka to your face as an astringent to cleanse the skin and tighten pores. 7. Add a jigger of vodka to a 12-ounce bottle of shampoo. The alcohol cleanses the scalp, removes toxins from hair, and stimulates the growth of healthy hair. 8. Fill

Perfect Man Or Woman Joke
Once upon a time, a perfect man and a perfect woman met. After a perfect courtship, they had a perfect wedding. Their life together was, of course, perfect. One snowy, stormy Christmas Eve, this perfect couple was driving their perfect car along a winding road, when they noticed someone at the side of the road in distress. Being the perfect couple, they stopped to help. There stood Santa Claus with a huge bundle of toys. Not wanting to disappoint any children on the eve of Christmas, the perfect couple loaded Santa and his toys into their vehicle. Soon they were driving along delivering the toys. Unfortunately, the driving conditions deteriorated and the perfect couple and Santa Claus had an accident. Only one of them survived the accident. Question: Who was the survivor? (Scroll down for the answer. Trust me, it's worth it)

The Sex Questionarre!
1.) Who do You want to iniate things or bring the "S" word into play? You or Them Them to be respectful...but if I get that vibe...then its on! 2.) Do You like to take your own clothes off or be stripped by Your partner? Doesn't matter...the clothes are coming off anyways! 3.) Are You a lover of long foreplay or You like to cut to the chase and just smash? Both...but it depends on the mood! 4.) Do You want oral sex - before, after, before and after, or no thank You none for Me? BEFORE, AFTER, DURING 5.) Do you like to be told how good it is while getting it? Heck yes...tell what's good! 6.) Bed or Floor Doesn't matter...just as long as having fun! Although no one gets carpet burns from the bed! 7.) Are You willing to do anything to please Your lover? ALMOST 8.) Are You into Anal Whatever pleases them! 9.) Do You like your chest or breast attended to? Yep...hell yes! 10.) What position is more likely to make You cum? Or do you cum from

Black Diamond
The Diamond which Shine bright through Dark Ends, Attracted to the night, love without a price, unobtainable, Godly but share the wicked side, no man or woman can handle the sacred crush of lust,beheld behind its cunning scheme, life without is not life, Killa of all killaz, Style so unormal but the ability to be loved,Once eyez are met it blinds you from any other pleasures,You want this Black Diamond? But Your mind cant grasp the meaning because you lack understanding,Ever Breath you take you reach closer to this Destiny.BLACK DIAMOND. I LIKE TO KNOW WHAT YOU THINK PLEASE THANK YOU HAVE A GOOD DAY LOVE YOU ALL OXXO :)

Friends Are Like Baloons Once U Let Them Go U Cant Get Them Back.
FRIENDS ARE LIKE BALOONS ONCE U LET THEM GO U CANT GET THEM BACK SO IM GOING TO TIE U TO MY HEART SO I NEVER LOSE U. SEND THIS TO ALL UR FRIENDS INCLUDING ME! SEE HOW MANY U GET BACK ......I Love you .......I Love you ........I Love you ........I Love you ........I Love you .......I Love you ......I Love you .....I Love you ....I Love you ...I Love you ..I Love you .I Love you .I Love you .I Love you ..I Love you ...I Love you ....I Love you .....I Love you ......I Love you .......I Love you ........I Love you ........I Love you ........I Love you .......I Love you ......I Love you .....I Love you ....I Love you ...I Love you ..I Love you .I Love you .I Love you .I Love you ..I Love you ...I Love you ....I Love you .....I Love you ......I Love you .......I Love you ........I Love you ........I Love you ........I Love you .......I Love you ......I Love you .....I Love you ....I Love you ...I Love you ..I Love you .I Love you .I Love you .I Love you ..I Love you ...I Love you ....I Love

Dont' Get It
without getting into a very long and boring story, I just want to say I just DO NOT understand men at all. and I also don't understand other certain things that I don't even want to bring up,lol. how's that for vague? lol Not to insult anyone on this site at all, but I really feel like this site is just to f*ck around on. It is very easy for people to mess around and do things they shouldn't be doing. does that make sense? like i said, I don't want anyone getting mad or whatever for me saying that but I really feel it's true. some may say well go away then don't come here. Well I could do that, but I don't want to, I do like some people on here and consider them friends. So I don't know, I guess I should just buck up and shut up about shit.

County Jail Employees Are Thieves!!
I was incarcerated on a fucked up charge in a money mill county here in Illinois. I could not figure out why my bank card was not working. So yesterday I had taken a trip to the bank and found out there was a prohibit on the card. I couldn't figure out why and neither could the bank. I called the number on the card and talked to someone who also could not figure it out. They had transferred my call to the fraud department. I was infomed that someone On January 11th and again on the 15th had tried to use my card for some big item things. One was for $663 on western union. I was incarcerated at that time and figured out that a jail employee was stealing peoples bank and credit cards and using them for his or her own gain. WHAT THE FUCK!! A county employee at the county jail stealing peoples credit and bank cards. I hope to find who the perp was because I a filing criminal charges against them. I am also filing a lawsuit against the county because they had me there and one of their employ

Fun
My wife and I (Joyce was on my family list, she deleted her profile though...to many wierdos) are looking for coupes in our area to meet and maybe have fun with...we are clean and as for the rest, well... just ask.

Illinois Crisis -- Budget Cuts
Budget cuts affect area jobs (http://www.suburbanchicagonews.com/heraldnews/news/339857,4_1_JO13_AFSCME_S1.article) April 13, 2007 By STEWART WARREN STAFF WRITER JOLIET -- As a state case worker, Wanda Washington helps the poor, the elderly and the disabled. Should she mop up vomit at her office? For nearly 20 years, Washington, 52, of Joliet, has worked at the Family Community Resource Center, 45 E. Webster St., Joliet. It's a division of the Illinois Department of Human Services, and the workers find food stamps, medical care and other important benefits for needy people who don't have much money. But during the past five years of budget and staff cuts by the state, the number of employees at Washington's office has dropped from 120 to 60. Now there isn't a maintenance worker to take care of the building or its grounds. When a pregnant woman threw up in the office recently, Washington and a supervisor cleaned up the mess. They didn't mind the chore, but it gave the

I Hate Bad Weather
so what the fuck? i have the worst luck this week with weather. i leave utah to go home for the weekend last thursday and we get a huge hail storm and tornadoes that touch down maybe 2 miles from my house. i watched golf ball to lime size hail bounce off my roof (pics to come). this was all on friday. the rest of the weekend was hit or miss with rain and sun. but for the most part there was only 1 day, sunday, of nice weather. it was nice to get some work done in the yard back home though. :) then i attempt to fly back to utah yesterday, tuesday, and my flight gets canceled due to lightning and tornado watches in dfw area. so tonight i finally make it back to utah, and what do you know, its fucking snowing. and the weather man just said that it will be in the morning. showers friday and into saturday. can i please have some spring weather? i'm so fucking sick of rain and snow. [/rant] EDIT: pics of all the hail.

Things I Love With A Passion
I rock and roll with passion I talk out my soul with a passion I eat good food with passion I defeat bad mood with a passion I sleep well with passion I weep hell with a passion I dream endlessly with passion I gleam ceaselessly with a passion I aim for money with passion I do the same for honey with a passion I listen carefully with passion I glisten dutifully with a passion I search for fame with passion I research to blame with a passion I walk everyday with passion I talk and play with a passion I embrace life with passion I face nightlife with a passion I laugh out with passion I chaffe about with a passion I cook with others with passion I look at mothers with a passion I touch gently with passion I clutch tightly with a passion I work hard with a passion I rock mad with a passion I gear up goals with passion I stir up roles with a passion I make friends with passion I take weekends with a passion I love kissing with pas

A Mothers Poem!! Thank God For The Time With Your Children!!!
A mother’s poem Just for this morning, I am going to smile when I see your face and laugh when I feel like crying. Just for this morning, I will let you choose what you want to wear, and smile and say how perfect it is. Just for this morning, I am going to step over the laundry, and pick you up and take you to the park to play. Just for this morning, I will leave the dishes in the sink, and let you teach me how to put that puzzle of yours together. Just for this afternoon, I will unplug the telephone and keep the computer off, and sit with you in the backyard and blow bubbles. Just for this afternoon, I will not yell once, not even a tiny grumble when you scream and whine for the ice cream truck, and I will buy you one if he comes by. Just for this afternoon, I won't worry about what you are going to be when you grow up, or second guess every decision I have made where you are concerned. Just for this afternoon, I will let you help me bake cookies, and I won't sta

Fucking Women
Is there any fucking women out they that can actually do more then just say words?Words are find when u have actions that back em up but when all you do is talk and say shit,yet give no actions (even in a lil way)what good are thoes words? I am so sick of bending over backwords for the ones i like/love and getting fucked in the ass.I give and give and all they do is take and take,want this and want that like a bunch of selfish bitches.For once i'd luve for just one to go out of there way for me,take a rick,hell do something that is big,takes more then 2seconds of effort or something to really show how much they care/love like they say.Instead i get that effort when we are no longer togather and they wanna fuck with me and try and hurt me. I swear if i had a license to kill there would be some dead bitches floatin the greenbay. Man is there any real,honest,careing girls out there that will do more then use,want,take,complain,and that will show you how much they care/love you and s

Everything Has A Price
To live and die by karmic law Is to know no human is without flaw And that the nature is to seek what we covet And yet what will we do for these things yet Will we sacrifice on an alter true souls love Will we step on the bodies to reach high above Will we give up the trust of those who for us care Will we become hate filled and live to err So what is the price we are willing to pay To force the world to spin our way Are we willing to become that thing we despise And have the people who loved us look in surprise At the vile thing that we did for want become Loosing all that is precious and becoming numb Is it worth a soul to this world gain Is it worth loosing joy and suffering pain Some things will never be worth the cost When in the process true love is lost By R. Thomas Dinsmore

I Cried Today
An old friend called me today. As I sat and spoke for an hour. She asked of what’s come and past. We spoke of her husbands We spoke of our children. When she set of a ticking time bomb with in me. A question so normal So honest and pure Aren’t you married yet As I rushed her off the phone My mind it swirled Thought of sadness Of loneliness I’m all alone I cried today No one can her what I say No one knew how I felt No one noticed my pain No one saw my tears I cried today Cant you make it go away The pain with in, The hole in my heart

Love
heres my idea of love.when you love some one what loves you back your heart skips when they are near.there touch makes you want more.there smile can make the darkest day better.when you come to your house its only home if they are there.you give them your heart and hold theres to you always.you spend your life making your love happy in all things.you are there when they cry to kisses away there tears and hold them close.when you see them all you want to do is hold them cloes and tell them you love them always .

Against The World
I remember you you said we could take on the world we wrote songs and played shows you gave me confidence the rhythm section the foundation stability talent a breath of life taken late one night you probably were listening to the stones gone in an instant never got to say it was nice to know you nice to be around you nice to call you my friend i miss you i miss those days no worries just music just us against the world

Space
PLEASE DON’T GET MAD RIGHT AWAY LISTEN TO ME I DIDN’T MEAN TO HURT YOU IT IS NOT YOUR FAULT I DON’T HAVE ANYONE JUST LIKE WHAT YOU THOUGHT I JUST CAN’T UNDERSTAND MYSELF I DON’T KNOW THE REAL REASON WHY IM ASKING YOU TO GIVE ME SPACE FOR AWHILE I LOVE YOU, BUT I NEED TO BE ALONE FOR NOW DON’T THINK THAT I DON’T LOVE YOU ANYMORE I JUST NEED TO FIND MYSELF THE LENGTH OF TIME THAT I WILL BE GONE WILL BENEFIT US BOTH PLEASE DON’T CRY PLEASE UNDERSTAND THAT WE NEED TO DO THIS SO WE WOULD FIND OUT MORE ABOUT EACH OTHER SO WE WOULD FIND OUT IF WERE MEANT FOR ONE ANOTHER DON’T STOP YOUR FEELINGS IF YOU FOUND SOMEONE ELSE WHILE IM GONE BUT ALWAYS REMEMBER THAT I STILL LOVE YOU, I JUST NEED TO BE ALONE FOR NOW I JUST DON’T UNDERSTAND MYSELF I NEED SPACE TO BE FREE FOR AWHILE I LOVE YOU BUT I NEED TO BE ALONE

A Through Z
t h e l e t t e r A Are you available?: - No Do you like apples?: - Sure What annoys you?: - Stupid people t h e l e t t e r B Do you know anyone named Billy?: - Yes When is your birthday?: - November 12th t h e l e t t e r C What's your favorite candy?: - Skittles Who's your crush?: - Can't tell you :) When was the last time you cried?: - Uhm, actually.. it's been a while. t h e l e t t e r D Do you daydream?: - Sure What's your favorite kind of dog?: - I dont have one really.. as long as he's cute. What day of the week is it?: - Friday t h e l e t t e r E How do you like your eggs?: - Over easy or scrambled. Have you ever been in the emergency room?: - Yep What's the easiest thing ever to do?: - Eat? t h e l e t t e r F Can you do a flip?: - Can you reach the sky? Do you use fly swatters?: - Nope, I usually wait for whatever flying insect it is that is annoying me.. to land and then I spray it to death

Abusive Love Ii (poem)
Abusive Love II 2/27/07 I told you I forgave you, but I lied. I can never forgive you for what you've done to me, never forget my fear as you overpowered me; never forget the rage that was born inside me. You're insecure desires for power have destroyed me. I dream about that moment, reliving its every terrifying detail. I strive to be strong and independent, but your past wrongs against me keep me under your thumb. I am tired of living in fear of you. I am tired of hiding you from the world; helping you disguise who you really are lets you win, lets you defeat me! I will never forgive you. I will never forget. I will never love you or trust you the same. I will never let you overpower me again... I refuse to let you bring me down! I will stand up to you every chance I get and you will know I am not weak; you will know I am better than you; you will know you can Never break me!

This Is Nsfw ?
Picture cupid with a red tip cane Is that picture too insane I searched for love and lost it all I settled for less and took the fall Wait for love I have been told they say It will find you one lucky day And yet they also say that love is blind So how is love this man to find One day when I am old and gray A blind cupid may pass my way And bump into me and find me at last And leave me in love that comes on fast And during love making I clutch my heart And then I die and from my love part After having waited for that fat blind cherub to come I wonder if waiting on love is just dumb ! By R. Thomas Dinsmore

What Really Suffers
The pain of the flesh dosent compare to the pain of the soul.So we find the need to torturer our bodys,To mask the pain thats in our souls when so many times we think its our hearts that are broken, maybe its the soul that suffers.Funny how you can never see my pain from the inside out. But surely with the help of tattoos and putting holes into your skin,you can see pain from the outside in.I have always considered my insides my temple and my body just my form, thats what you see is not who you are, and that I beleive the the more you stay out of the mirror the better you feel,though the only true passage way to your soul is through your eyes , that is for someone eles to see, my thinking on that is that I dont need to see my soul through my eyes I already know my soul and learning more about it everyday................................

Thoughts And Dreams
As I walk in the beach and watch the waves on the ocean I wonder if true love between us can ever be In my heart are feelings that I can not explain But the words that come to mind are so simple and plain They are words like I love you, I need you, I want you and be with you or It's just the thought of you But when these words come to my mind I don't know what to do I find myself lost, confuse, and out of control I don't know if I should listen to it, ignore it, act upon it or just give it some time I do know that I should let it grow and blossom I wish I could keep my heart from controlling my mind I know someday my true feelings will find the answer I'm longing for But only when it is right and in God's due time will it happen.

My Son
My son is so into wreastling it is funny. He likes to wrestle with his spongebob toy,and after he beats it up. We hold up his hand and say "The winner is Austin." He tells us "Tell us no He is Batista" He is so cute when he doses this. Last night we had do differant poses of wrestlers, and he could do most of them. We had to take pictures of him, and of course I had to post them.

Just A Thought
The look in your eyes, it captivates me. When I close my own, you're all that I see. Your touch, it soothes, and excites me; to a point, words I cannot find. Your kisses; They're so soft, and so sweet. They take my breath away, almost sweep me off my feet. Your body close to me; sends shivers up my spine. I cant believe the day has come, to say that you are mine. The beauty of your smile, has the innocents of a child. You make the rage of my past, become so mellow and mild. When we're together, your love supports me, like a sturdy crutch. Away from you, your radiance is one of many things, that I miss so much. These gestures of how I feel, I know I can't ignore. Yet something deep inside, makes me want a little more. You're someone for my future, you make my colors shine true. Everyday I find myself so very, much in love with you.

Ahhh, Another Weekend Gone :)
I hope ya'll had a great weekend. ;) I sure did, it was so relaxing and nice to talk to a lot of my friends. I know it's been a while for some of you, but we all have lives outside of the internet too. :P I wish you all a great week ahead. :) PEACE LOVE DANCE watchingufromthemoon™ aka lifelover2000™

~things I Need~
*Things I need* 4/22/2007 1.A man, not a little boy to look after and take care of. 2.Someone who will take care of me even when they think I don’t need them. 3.Someone to love me unconditionally even after we have a disagreement. 4.The kind of guy that even after and argument will wrestle me into submission by having a tickle fight; even if it wasn’t his fault, just so he can see me smile. 5.The kind of guy who will make passionate love to me after tickling me into submission. 6.A guy who wants to make love to me for hours, not just fuck my brains out. 7.Don’t get me wrong it’s nice to have sex, but sometimes you just want intimacy. 8.A guy who will respect me. 9.Someone to grow old and spend the rest of my life with. 10.Someone to make me cry only tears of joy, but would never want to see or make me cry. 11.Someone who just wants to hold me. 12.A man that I can just lay and watch a movie with, even if it happens to be a sappy chick flick. 13.A man to run me a hot bath a

What Was I Thinking
oh my god, what was i thinking. so last night, while completely sober mind you, I thought it would be a good idea to shave. you have seen my pics, there is a bit of hair there but nothin excessive I didn't think. Maybe I should be more clear...I shaved my body. Legs, groin, chest, stomach, underarms, the whole 9. the only hair on my is my head and my arms. At least it is nice out maybe i can get some sun and it will be okay. and yes pics will be up later this week so you can all point and laugh. thank you and have a nice day. keep it twiztid.

Im Soooo Tired Of The Bs...
WHY IS IT SOOOO FUCKING HARD FOR SOMEONE TO ACTUALLY BE A FRIEND...PEOPLE ON THE NET JUST DONT LIVE IN REALITY...I HAVE FUCKING OVER 400 FRIENDS AND ONLY A HAND FULL EVEN CARE AND KNOW THE VALUE OF FRIENDSHIP. ITS FUCKING PATHETIC IF YOU ASK ME. I DONT NEED YOUR FUCKING RATINGS...I DONT GIVE A FUCK IF I LEVEL UP...I DONT WANT TO FUCKING HEAR ABOUT DOWN RATERS AGAIN....YOU WANT TO FUCKING RATE ME A 1 GO FOR IT...I WILL NOT LOSE SLEEP TRUST ME....ALL THAT FUCKING MATTERS IS WHAT MY TRUE FRIENDS THINK OF ME..NOT SOME FUCKING DUMB ASS ON CHERRY TAP DOWN RATING...HELLO TO ALL GOOD PEOPLE..FUCK ALL THE REST OF YA!

Best Animated Picture Contest
So I decided to do another contest after having so much fun in the first one I did. This contest is for the Best Animated Picture (this includes morphs). You can choose any picture as long as it is SFW and it is animated. If you have any questions please don't be afraid to ask. This a comment bombing and rate contest. Comments will count as one point each and ratings will count as 10 points each. Prizes are as follows: 1st place: Silver Motorcycle. 2nd place: Vacation. 3rd place: Mens or womens ring. I have room for ten entrants. Contest will open once I have ten entrants willing to participate. If you wish to enter please click on the link below and send me a message with the link to the picture you wish to enter the contest with. I will message you shortly after with a link to your particular picture in the contest. Even if you are not interested in joining ths contest, please repost it so that others get word of the contest. Thanks! ÐJ Çã§h™ [Nikki's CT Hubby

Update On The Email Campaign.plz Read
FOR PEOPLE WHO DONT KNOW....I HAVE BEEN ENTERED INTO A CONTEST BY CAPONE AND NOREAGA...THEY SOMEHOW SAW MY VIDEO AND ENTERED ME....IN THE MEAN TIME IM GATHERING MY CLOSEST SUPPORTERS TO FORM AN EMAIL CAMPAIGN....IM NOW ONLY ASKING THAT U EMAIL ME A MESSAGE TO PROVE THAT YOU WILL REALLY HELP IN THE CAMPAIGN.I WILL ADD YOU TO FAMILY...AS IT STANDS NOW THIS IS THE REVISED PLAN.... WE WILL MOVE LIKE THE 300 SPARTANS. ALTHOUGH WE ARE ONLY A FEW.WE ARE DEDICATED. WE WILL USE THE SAME STRATEGY OUT NUMBERED ARMIES HAVE USED FOR YEARS...WE WILL MAKE EVERY HIT COUNT.........................THIS IS THE WAR PLAN WE WILL EACH SEND 3 EMAILS ON THE 1ST DAY 1)CAPONE AND NOREAGA 2)NYC RADIO STATION 3)A SPECIFIC RADIO DJ WE WILL START AT NIGHT CAUSE WERE SENDING IT TO THE MORNING SHOW WE ALL USE THE SAME BODY MESSAGE....BUT WILL ALL USE DIFFERANT SUBJECTS...IF WE USE THE SAME SUBJECT THEY WILL ERASE THEM WITH OUT READING...SPAM......BUT IF WE ALL USE A CREATIVE TITLE TO MAKE THEM OPEN.

Flirt
Another badass quiz from eSPIN-the-Bottle... What's Your Flirt Style? MY RESULT:Touchy Feely When you see something you like, you’re not afraid to reach out and grab it. Literally.Being touchy-feely is by far the most effective means of letting someone know you’re interested. Well, interested in fondling them, at least. If you want to let them know that you like them in a deeper way, we recommend trying something a little more subtle...which would be, oh, just about anything. Maybe you should offer them half of your sandwich or something. Take This Quiz!

Erotic Ecplorations
The secret world of smooth warm flesh your graceful curves delight my eye they call my fingertips to explore them such a wondrous geography, Paradise I ache to be your favorite native son, born to love each rise, and silken valley, humbly I bow my head to drink so deep from your wellspring of sweet desire I long to quench my lusty thirst in you parched, like a desert nomad's throat dream of the day when you float above finding sweet release, like clouds and rain your fingers plow furrows in my hair and trace my brow, fever flushed softly you croon a song of love to me need binds me tight to your side Do you feel me throb so deep inside? a counterpoint to your rolling motion! my growling voice echoes in the room your name kisses my lips and tongue trembling thighs, so graceful spread heaven's gate open so wide to see I explore the hot and fragrant depths as you moan and deeply caress me

My Horoscope Today
An off-the-wall idea could indirectly add some snap to your romantic prospects. This is how the universe sends you suggestions, so pay attention to even the most outlandish ideas that cross your mind. You never know! My question to this one is>>>>What romantic prospects!!! Show me!!!!

Ding Dong The Bitch Is Gone
Yeah I went there. So this weekend Ryan & I stayed up at Kelly’s, to help with the move. Amy’s Gone Amy’s Gone, thank God. It’s really pathetic thou she had to borrow money from her ex husband, to pay the deposit and rent on her new place. Then had to have her brothers rent a u-haul b/c she doesn’t have money now that Kelly and her broke up. She through a fit when We told her that Kelly wasn’t paying to anything, for her moving out. Well they trashed the house the first day, And I mean trashed. Busted the crown molding in the stair case, broke the banister, put hole in the floor, and cracked so many tiles I lost count. And b/c we didn’t care we just wanted her out, Kelly gave her everything, All the beds, the computer desk, the computer, All the dressers, chest, toys for the girls. Then she called after they left on Saturday and said that she had stuff in, Emily, her daughter’s (Kelly’s step daughter) room, So we bagged it all up and had it ready to go. OH I forgot to menti

The Affair........
The affair began one day with a conversation on the Internet. They had met in one of those sights that specialize in married people. Those that were unhappy, or at least unfulfilled in their personnel or sexual life as they sought someone else to fill the needs they had. His was one of loneliness. His wife left for periods of time, going to exotic places. He got left at home with the kids and the laundry. When his wife was at home, sex wasn’t part of the equation much anymore. After 20 plus years, two kids, and menopause about to happen, the feelings of sexuality got left behind the feelings of exhaustion. She didn’t notice the neglect she was giving him; only that he rarely touched her anymore, which seemed fine most of the time. The woman he met was just as lonely, just as isolated. She rarely got a touch, a kiss, or a hug from her husband, He usually was asleep by the time she came to bed. Most of the time it was the alcohol he drank each night, and then when they did

Life
I have had soooooooooo much shit happen to me in the past 4 months! I just keep wondering, when will it stop, when???? I keep asking myself. I recently thought I had found the best guy in the world, well I still think he is, but we can't be together. It just really pisses me off. I keep wondering, when is it my turn to be happy. I sometimes think that I dont get that chance. I know that it really isnt like that, but it sure as hell feels that way. I want the chance to make him happy to. He deserves to be happy just like I do..........Maybe we are both meant to be unhappy forever. I dont believe that or atleast I keep praying that it isnt like that...

That Special Someone
Have you ever had someone special in your life who you cared so deeply for yet couldnt have them,be it they had someone else or where so far away. That someone who is always a friend...endlessly..always there for you...yet you want so much more..and your unsure of where you stand with them. They say they care and want the same yet you have some kind of obsticle in the way.. I want this person...I dont want to share..its my only choice...do I protect and hide or live...fear is such a strong factor...and no matter how much your apart they are still on your mind...

I Like This Song!!!
AVRIL LAVIGNE LYRICS "Girlfriend" [Chorus] Hey! Hey! You! You! I don’t like your girlfriend! No way! No way! I think you need a new one Hey! Hey! You! You! I could be your girlfriend Hey! Hey! You! You! I know that you like me No way! No way! No it’s not a secret Hey! Hey! You! You! I want to be your girlfriend [Verse 1] You’re so fine I want you mine You’re so delicious I think about ya all the time You’re so addictive Don’t you know what I could do to make you feel alright? Don’t pretend I think you know I’m damn precious And Hell Yeah I’m the motherfucking princess I can tell you like me too and you know I’m right [Bridge] She’s like so whatever You could do so much better I think we should get together now And that’s what everyone’s talking about! [Chorus] Hey! Hey! You! You! I don’t like your girlfriend! No way! No way! I think you need a new one Hey! Hey! You! You! I could be your girlfriend Hey! Hey! You! You! I know that you

Ibuprofren
WARNING: THIS BLOG WILL ONLY MAKE SENSE TO TWO OTHER PEOPLE, MAYBE THREE! Chocolate, unhappy face, what's up with the bird? Vanilla, too effin close, I dont like it. The planets are aligning and I dont like it. That is all.

Be My Baby Tonight...
Yes I know it's a song lyric... but it fits me... But probably not for the reasons people would think... I have a friend (with benefits)... It's a strange but good friendship... Things are very warped with him... He has been around a bit this week... Helping me with the garage sale, moving, and just keeping me company... It's been really nice to have him around for all that... And I guess I've been using my "feminine charms" to get more help than he probably wanted to... I've been accused of doing this... but I don't realize I do it... (So I'm dense when it comes to guy-girl stuff... we already knew this) But anyway... We messed around this past weekend, and no I didn't disobey the doctors and have sex, it was interesting... and good enough... all things considered... But it was strange for me... He didn't know that the doctors don't want me to have sex (because of the prolapsed organs)... I was sooo frustrated with life and lack of sex I was willing t

Game 5 Vancouver Vs. Dallas
SCORING SUMMARY 1st Period NONE 2nd Period NONE 3rd Period NONE 1st OT Period 06:22 PPG - BRENDEN MORROW, Assists: SERGEI ZUBOV and MIKE RIBEIRO PENALTY SUMMARY 1st Period 02:14 HAGMAN, N. : Tripping - 2 min 08:54 COWAN, J. : Delaying the game - 2 min 12:58 HAGMAN, N. : Interference - Goalkeeper - 2 min 2nd Period 12:29 OHLUND, M. : Hooking - 2 min 3rd Period 01:57 NASLUND, M. : Hooking - 2 min 13:11 OTT, S. : Slashing - 2 min 1st OT Period 05:18 PYATT, T. : Too many men/ice - bench - 2 min

Uncanny Zodiac...p.s. I'm A Leo
Once you have opened this e-mail, there's no turning back. Below are true descriptions of zodiac signs, with traits from a book written 35 years ago by an astrologist predictions. Read your sign, then forward it on, with your zodiac sign and label on the subject line, This is real deal, try ignoring it, and the first thing you'll notice is having a horrible day starting tomorrow morning - and it only gets worse from there. 08/23 - 09/21 VIRGO - The One that Waits Dominant in relationships. Someone loves them right now. Always wants the last word. Caring. Smart. Loud. Loyal. Easy to talk to . Everything you ever wanted. Easy to please. The one and only. 7 years of bad luck if you do not forward. 10/23 - 11/21 SCORPIO - The Addict EXTREMELY adorable. Intelligent. Loves to joke. Very Good sense of humor. Energetic.. Predict future. GREAT kisser. Always get what they want. Attractive. Easy going. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Romantic. Caring. 4 years of bad

I'm Wanting To Start A Contest!
Okay, So I want to start a Contest but right now, I dont know what the hell i'm doing! I need some advice! What kind of contest should i do? Once you people help me decide that I will start it! So HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!! ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And Also, will you you tell people about it?

Bedroom Eyes Contest 4-22 Thru 4-27
COME SHOW YOUR FAVORITE CHERRY SOME LOVE! CLICK ON THE LINK BELOW TO SHOW SUM LOVE! HERE ARE THE CONTESTANTS!!! KNOGOOD BIGDADDYVEEEC.T.A.F. #16 LASHER "CONSORT OF THE CURSED OF LESTATS DARK COVENANT FAMILY" SEXY MOONBUBBLE GOODBUD KAJIRATRINITY GB COWGIRLS GIRLS DO IT BETTER GOTHIKK FANTASY =TAMSTER92574~GIT-R-DONE REBEL FAMILY~THE ROUND TABLE BOMBERS FEARLESS TWEETY NICOLE~GIT-R-DONE REBEL FAMILY~ PLEASE COME AND SHOW YOUR LOVE FOR THE ONE YOU WANT TO WIN! GOOD LUCK ALL!!!!!!

Year Later
What has happened in the past year? OMG so many different things, good things and some things that have really made me think about my perceptions. It has been a good year over all though for sure - so much so that we have now unpacked all of our stuff from moving from Oregon. I think that Mainers are stuck with Kevin and I - ha ha!!

Am I Crazy Or What
I am a firefighter/paramedic. When we go into a home this is on fire the temps can reach 650 degrees if not hotter. the hose then begans to pop and crack, that is when I enjoy it the most. Tell me what you think.

Best Chicken Joke Ever
A chicken and an egg are lying in bed. The chicken is leaning against the headboard smoking a cigarette, with a satisfied smile on its face. The egg, looking a bit pissed off, grabs the sheet, rolls over, and says, "Well, I guess we finally answered THAT question. If anyone needs it explained - read it a second time.

Emphasize Me
the clouds are marching, tumbling over one another in competition for a spot in the sky. the air hangs so heavy with humid stagnancy it's hard to take breath in. my balance is torn apart by these destructive winds, the same winds that drag sheets of rain across the crust with a vengeance, as if to beat it into submission. lightning jolts me back to reality, which would have ordinarily told me to run for cover. but not today. i let the rain envelop me, take me under its wings, curl me up to its heart. as quickly as it cherishes me it's gone. all that's left of my calming moment is the crunching splash of rubber on pavement.

Quote For April 25
Satire is tragedy plus time. You give it enough time, the public, the reviewers will allow you to satirize it. Which is rather ridiculous, when you think about it. -- Lenny Bruce Bonus Quote: Three years ago our Johnny died. We thought there was no hope, but then we discovered the United Appeal for the Dead. They showed us that despite Johnny's handicap, he could still be a useful member of our family and the community. Our United Appeal for the Dead caseworker showed us that the absence of life from Johnny's body didn't have to mean his absence from our daily lives. -- Mrs. Hefsteder Kentucky Fried Movie This public service is brought to you daily by CT's Yoda©, speak to you I will!

Captain Dumbass!!
Captain America Arrested With Burrito in Pants POSTED: 4:33 pm EDT April 23, 2007 UPDATED: 10:42 am EDT April 24, 2007 MELBOURNE, Fla. -- A Brevard County doctor dressed up in a Captain America outfit was arrested with a burrito in his tights. What he allegedly did at the police station got him into more trouble. Doctor Raymond Adamcik, 54, would probably rather forget about the weekend when he was arrested on charges of battery, disorderly conduct, drug possession and trying to destroy evidence. It's not what you would expect from a doctor or Captain America. The Palm Bay family physician was at On Tap (probably hanging out with CHERRYTAPPERS!!) bar as part of a pub-crawl with other medical professionals. It was a sort of costume party on a bus that would take them around from bar to bar. Everything was fine until, witnesses said, Captain America started getting too forward with a burrito he kept tucked inside his blue tights, a burrito that ultimately landed him in jail. It'

Pipe Bomber Arrested
Wednesday | April 25, 2007 PIPE BOMB MAILINGS SUSPECT ARRESTED Postal Inspectors arrest man believed to be “The Bishop” The Department of Justice said today that Postal Inspectors arrested John Tomkins of Dubuque, IA, for allegedly mailing two partially disconnected pipe bombs from a Chicago suburb to investment firms in Denver and Kansas City in January. Criminal charges link Tomkins to more than a dozen threatening letters, some of them signed “The Bishop.” Federal agents, led by the U.S. Postal Inspection Service (USPIS), arrested Tomkins without incident this morning in Dubuque. Tomkins was charged with one count of mailing a threatening communication with intent to extort money and one count of possession of an unregistered destructive device. He is expected to appear in U.S. District court in Chicago this afternoon. The arrest followed an intensive investigation by more than 100 Postal Inspectors, agents from the FBI’s Joint Terrorism Task Force

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Poem: Against The Silence
Against the Silence By Keanuenueonalani (ladylotusgangstabitch) My body is my temple, an altar draped beneath my skin A shrine, a sanctuary, untouched by sin You’ve betrayed my body, disgraced my name A woman scorned, lying alone in shame Stolen, taken, something I thought was mine Flashbacks send chills creeping down my spine The scent of cigarettes and your cheap cologne Your touch, your smile and vulgar moan Walked out of my life in laughter and staggers Your smile cuts through my soul like daggers Thoughts of revenge play out in my head But I lie here in shock and silent instead Raped of innocence and robbed of trust Caged in a body looked upon in disgust I scrub, I scour just to cleanse you of my skin But the feeling of filth is too deep within Now I’m left torn behind these walls of guilt The walls that your savage touch has built I fall to my knees and look to the sky In hopes that the gods will hear my cry Tears fell from the night and caressed my soul

Twist Of Fate
Twist of fate.... The rage has begun What once was tolerable now has become extinct A ravine of great distance The storm begins brewing Nothing in it's path will be spared A clash between the old and new transforms time A break of the pattern You take what's mine I will define the pain you feel inside The rain falls on my head Misery is all but complete I laugh even in defeat At the smallest twist of fate No one seems to embrace at all

Truths
GREAT TRUTHS THAT LITTLE CHILDREN HAVE LEARNED: 1) No matter how hard you try, you can't baptize cats. 2) When your Mom is mad at your Dad, don't let her brush your hair. 3) If your sister hits you, don't hit her back. They always catch the second person. 4) Never ask your 3-year old brother to hold a tomato. 5) You can't trust dogs to watch your food. 6) Don't sneeze when someone is cutting your hair. 7) Never hold a Dust-Buster and a cat at the same time. 8) You can't hide a piece of broccoli in a glass of milk. 9) Don't wear polka-dot underwear under white shorts. 10) The best place to be when you're sad is Grandpa's lap. GREAT TRUTHS THAT ADULTS HAVE LEARNED: 1) Raising teenagers is like nailing jelly to a tree. 2) Wrinkles don't hurt. 3) Families are like fudge...mostly sweet, with a few nuts. 4) Today's mighty oak is just yesterday's nut that held its ground. 5) Laughing is good exercise. It's like jogging on the inside. 6) Middle age is when y

I Love You...
I weep... I weep as he enters me. It feels like the first time all over again; raw and needy, yet loving and gentle. He fills me, and I am complete. I grip him with every muscle, yearning for release for both of us, yet at the same time dreading it, because it signifies the end. I feel his warm breath on my skin as tears run down my cheeks, flowing over his naked body. I see in his eyes that he is close to bliss, and I am transported into my own heaven as pleasure takes over my body, pushing out feelings of sorrow. He holds me close, refusing to break the contact between us, yet knowing he must at some point. "I love you," he whispers to me as we fall asleep in each other's arms.

Narcissism And Self-hatred.
"Hate is an expression of frustrated love needs; an attempt to destroy the bad rejecting side of a person in the hope of leaving their good responsive side available - a struggle to alter them. And self-hate is an attempt to destroy the bad self that cannot win love, and somtimes a struggle to alter it. But it doesn't. That is the trouble and that is why we wonder. Nothing in the whole business of being human is more curious than the existence of this self-hating response. It is in all ways self-defeating. The more we hate the hatable object, the more hatable does that object become and the more remote any chance of its ever giving us the love we need. And the more we hate ourselves the nearer do we come to depression and to death, the less are we able to work, to love, to play. It would have seemed reasonable, therefore, it would have seemed fair, if Narcissus (if any Narcissus) had been able to make up to himself with his own real love for the so sadly needed and denied lov

When Are We As An Native American Ppl Going To Wake Up
Health study finds American Indians a 'vulnerable' group A new report paints a grim picture of American Indians as more likely than the general U.S. population to be poor and unemployed, to live in single-parent households, and to die young. Titled "Changing Numbers, Changing Needs: American Indian Demography and Health," the report -- released Wednesday by the National Research Council -- focuses on the major health problems Indians face. Overall, American Indians are a "vulnerable" population, the report said. "In the long term, improving the situation of American Indians will require substantial efforts to improve their education and health, along with efforts to provide employment opportunities, both on and off the reservations," the report said. Culling many sources, the report is a goldmine of information on the nation's nearly 2 million American Indians, a group that the authors say is the least studied in the nation. Among the report's findings:

"the Stronger Side"
I walked along the ocean, my head bowed low in sorrow, I hardly handled today, how do I cope with tomorrow? The day was like every other, the pain the grief inside, my strength was running out, I could no longer hide. The pain was immense that day, it had never been that bad, and all of a sudden, out of the blue, I didn't feel as sad. Something happened that day, the weight became like a feather, It'll never be entirely gone though, the memories are there forever. Although I still look back and cry, I had a friend to confide, He means the whole world to me, He helped me reach the stronger side.

Untitled
i'm dragging on eggshells, bleeding something fierce. standing on the edge of whatever this is supposed to be. -don't lose yourself in the masses- bring me dead roses, bring me salvation from your heart. in the end, there's nothing more to feel. hoard away everything you thought you could give. it's painless, for what it's worth.

Scenes From The Coffeehouse #5
the voices meld together, stifling my thoughts. thought i saw you in the window, craning your neck to see me. but i was mistaken. just some random fuck that lines the streets down here. grounds stick to teeth enamel, animated conversations at the next table over, and i can't seem to tear myself from what's in front of me. i make myself sick. the lights burn my eyes, i'd much prefer to watch the ground, never making contact with another human.

Draft...don't Judge
black on black, the businessmen are grinning. punching each other with that manly macho-ness we women are supposed to swoon under. sucks that i don't give a fuck. i wanna watch the boy with the mohawk as he's rolling his own smokes.

Yahoo Or Msn
If you have yahoo or msn and want to talk to me on either one i am always on either one so please feel free to add me. My names on both are the same but the @ parts ( yahoo ) tropicana982001@yahoo.com ( msn )tropicana982001@hotmail.com so please add me and tell me your from cherry thanks alot people and cherry friends.

Decided To Come Back For At Least A Week
i was going to wait til saturday to come back but i had this really bizarre feeling i had to be here. when i was on the way home i got a call from mr troublemaker and found out he needed to have surgery this morning. i didnt tell him i was coming home yet. i told him when i got home. though. he wants me to give him a week to prove himself. heard it before really. i mean he can say he is sorry for the things he has said and done the pain is still there. he wants to be just friends. so where does that leave these feelings i have?

Please Read This
125,000+ Birthday Cards Received! 33 Days until Shane's Birthday Add Glitter to your Photos Shane Bernier is a courageous seven-year-old boy from Lancaster, Ontario who was diagnosed with acute lymphoblastic leukemia when he was only five. On June 6th, 2006 Shane and his family received some unfortunate news: Shane experienced a relapse after completing 108 of 130 weeks of treatment. However, despite the bad news, Shane has managed to keep a positive outlook on his situation and has made a heart-warming wish... He hasn¡¯t asked for money or toys or anything of the sort. Instead, his birthday is on May 30th and he would like to break the world record for the most birthday cards ever received. His goal is 350 million cards. With every card, Shane¡¯s courage grows. Something as simple as sending a birthday card could be enough to help Shane find peace and joy in his current circumstances. Please take the time to send a card to Shane and make his dream become

To Measure Love
To Measure Love I measure love in moments spent with you, dim candlelight, touch of your hand on mine, delightful kisses soft as morning dew, caresses tingling up and down my spine. I measure love when out of my dire need I reach for you in times of weariness. You always find the time to gently lead and walk beside me through my dark distress. I measure love not by the words you say, but by your soothing hand upon my head when I am sick; the kind and thoughtful way that you take charge and tuck the kids in bed. My dearest spouse, your loving acts convey by far much more than simple words could say.

Forsaken
Forsaken What solemn breeze hath blown ashore? Too weak to whisk these battered sails. Where restless winds of nevermore, drift briskly - mocking dream’s entrails. Where rising waves of hunger crashed between two souls who joyous wept. Now sunk beneath the oceans wrath, residing in her silent depth. Where passions lapped the silken seas. Sweet melodies, bestowed with Grace, did quench tormented miseries, while easing sorrows held in place. Tis all but heartache’s memories - as echoed whispers drown by tears, do fall upon this silent breeze, beseeching thee, his plea to hear. For once two lives could conquer all, Yet found they were mistaken. Now solitude doth form his brow, his destiny – forsaken. ©Paggles

Simple Ways To Be A Better Lover...
I saw this on a friend of mines pro and I had to copy and paste it.... SIMPLE WAYS TO BECOME A BETTER LOVER 1) CREATIVITY - You should never be afraid of doing new things. Is your sex life predictable? Change it, and put some creativity into it. The way i see it, is that you should never know whats going to happen. Dont be afraid to venture outside the bedroom. Surely we can all agree that going to jail for the sake of "different" sex isnt really worth it, but being outdoors does have a certain appeal to it. I have found that garages work well, and if you have an enclosed back yard, that works just as well also. As simple as it is, sex in the shower is always a winner. When your partner is in there, just hop in and seduce him/her. Its not very hard to just think of something creative and just do it. with that in mind, we move to the next subject. 2) SPONTANEITY - There is no better sex than sex that is just spontaneous. It has a certain passion level that just isnt matched ag

Missing Home
Being 3500 miles away from family and friends seems to bother me more days than others, today is one of those days! I have been missing my friends like crazy lately, I miss being able to call them and hang out! We have been in Maine for over a year and the only really close friend I made moved away, sigh. Just gets old staying at home alone when kevin works at nights and I am working during the days. When Kevin is off we spend non stop time together which totally helps but I am sure he gets tired of me to, ha ha! Now its not like I am a total loser and have no friends here, but I either have an opposite schedule to them, are work friends only or everyone else has their own lives and I am not apart of them. Most of the time I am fine being alone and just hanging out with my kitties, but lately I have been just wanting to go out and have fun. Another time...

American Idols Representation!
I was very impressed when I seen American Idol take part in UNICEF. They used Tuesday and Wednesday to Generate money for those in need and even went as far as taking the time to show their experiences in Africa and what they could do, simply by reaching out. My hands go together for the funds that they have raised already. $60 Million Dollars. And counting. I don't watch much TV at all, but when I learned that American Idol was going to be doing that kind of performance and just for what it represented I just knew that I had to watch, I was glad I did as well. The part that really got to me the most is when Simon and Ryan were over in Africa and they were speaking about those that are in need and dying from malaria - That really got to me because malaria is a totally preventable disease and their should be no fatalities from it any longer.... That's when you know something has to be done. Anyway, GREAT JOB AMERICAN IDOL!!!!! James P Reardon Sr.

Orgasms Are So Complex
Okay Yeah Sure, they can be one of the most intense pleasures that our bodies are capable of delivering, but the aftermath of the orgasm is a bitch. Even more so is the preceeding bullshit. All the - *ahem* - ins and outs in the quest of achieving the almighty orgasm. Almost makes me not want to bother. Almost. Men have it relatively easy. Male orgasms are much easier to attain than female ones. The main concern of the male orgasm is what to do with the byproduct. It can vary in quantity, texture and taste, all of which affects the level of desire of the male's partner to "dispose" of it in an oral manner. Plus there's the lethal aspect of semen. The whole fertilization issue. Ew. Of course, this is assuming that the man in question has a partner to share the results of his labor. If he's flying solo and there's a sock handy, then it just becomes an issue of having another article of clothing to send through the wash. The byproduct of the male orgasm is the greatest obstacle that

On The Lighter Side..a Smile Goes Along Way~
A Smile Is The Lighting System Of The Face, The Cooling System Of The Head and The Heating System Of The HEART.. Your Smile Shows Your Inner Aloha Spirit..Please Share, Show and Spread The Aloha.

Life
As I sit here and wonder about my life.........Has it any meaning............Have I touched anyone who truely cares enough to do anything for me. Take a bullet for me..........Stand up for me..............Be truely loyal ............accept me for me...........And in return they shall have my undieing love....... loyalty....... generosity..........careing heart...........my good nature has gotten me nothing but...........Distrust...........hatered............and uncareing hearts. Those who wish to take all that I have and had in my heart...........To turn it to stone with a brick wall built around it. Has any one the courage................ to tear it down and see the real me inside. The beating of my heart is so shallow............to hear it beat again so wildly would hurt my ears..............I no longer wish to hear the words but to feel them.........................to feel them in my soul...............Please I beg you to please tear down the wall..........turn that stone to flesh..

~bent(erotica~
Bent Baby face it , baby embrace it baby im bent you know that im jaded wings torn and faded and a soul that is wrent I will have you please me or maybe baby tease me cause baby im bent. in the back room tide up and tortured just to be strange I done mean to rearange ya.. baby I made ya, I told ya im bent not exactly strait hell thats not my type of plate So lets go tear up this place and erotica embrace.. and mabye I will trace ya with my rabbit whip.. on your knees to serve and please .. so we can just disagree cause baby your also bent.. So if you wanna come play in shadow space baby lets re embrace I bet we can still find some new forms of disgrace so baby if you can keep up with my manic pace come dance with me here you have nothing to fear cause baby face it we are truly bent.. ~Shadowdancer~ 7-17-06

A Kiss?
Your Kissing Technique Is: Passionate but Aggressive Hey, slow it down a little! Yes, you've got some killer kissing moves... But that doesn't mean you need to show off ten minutes worth of technique in ten seconds. Take your time. A little passion goes a long way.Are You a Good Kisser?

The Mistress Speaks
The Mistress Speaks On your knees, your Mistress of darkness speaks, do as I bid or I will make you weep You are mine to serve and please, I would have you on bended knee. You lowly slave you will obey, I will not have it any other way. You will do my bidding, do my will, and for your effort I might grant you an erotic thrill. Cold and beuatiful am I , I am the one who makes fallen angels cry! You will crawl, and yo uwill beg, you will caress your Mistresse's leg. You will serve and you will bow, don't even pretend you don't know how!! You will crawl like hte lowest dog upon hot embers through a darkened fog. If i have thee dress in feminine attire, you will say "yess Mistress, your pleasure is what I desire" If I have thee caress my leg, you will tomy toes suck beg. Lowly slave, it is your job to pleasure, and I will reward thee at my leisure. For my amusement you wil incure pain, you would from this , knowledge gain. On a rack naked and pron

Erotica's Grace Iii
As luna shines her silver rays down through a black velvet sky, I sit and dream of a land between day and nigh lost in beauty lost in grace as I remember the past summer as I kissed Eroticas face I found my match found my mate knowing in this life it is not too late beauty is love personified and through pain beauty is clarified the warm wind caressing the mountians the tempid heat warming the desert floor it was the right choice to walk through that darkened door a leep of faith trusting my heart once more I found one that does me adore beautiful dreamer come shadowdance with me between the real and surreal between black and white where angels and demons dance on the brink of madness just to feel true loves rarest kiss between heaven and hell cross the field of glass and the theater of pain long have i searched fore thee and at last my search has come to an end with complete love and pure trust I will share my life till

A Blur Of What Was Last Night...
Friends and food, the ones who wernt ignoring me. Hmmm drinking? yes drinking sounds like a splendid idea. MMM yeager! tasty. Goes down easy. I did not know i needed a babysitter! They left the bottle unguarded. Swig swig, 8 shots in a row followed by two redbulls to chase... mmmm.. no texts Wow dancing? when do i dace, do i know how to dance? Chiodos? no hardcore dancing in the livingroom? Oppps sorry didnt mean to spill that. Randy, randy left his aim on...oh oh tryin to talk a gurl into comming up to party. hmmmm lemme see what i can do, yes yes uh huh, come up and drink with us... woot still got it. wait what? flip cup can i go? "no your too drunk" its my last weekend in the port dont leave me...they do. no texts Wait MSI two hookers and a 8ball? Really? Awesome i could go for that. Gayland! Rocking out to MSI hes the most clean cut of us all! Hmm well me and alex will dance... Knock knock... did somone order a drunk girl? mmmmm strawberry vodka. no texts no no my

Chapter 11 On What I Learned On Xbox Uno
This next one is way out in left field. To tell you the truth, Zion was the one who came up with this one. As soon as he said it I was dying of laughter. And the thing is he didn't even elaborate on it. Turning the remote vibrator up to maximum volume. Now I know the girls are like "Wooohoooo! That's what I'm talking about." I'm sorry but I will have to agree on that. Nothing is better than having a B.O.B. (battery operated boyfriend for those of you who don't know what it is) I mean come on, they don't talk back, they don't bark orders, and they don't tell you how to live your life. Now that's one boyfriend I'll never get rid of. Ok, ok I'm sorry for all you guys who I have offended. I know for a fact that there are plenty of great guys out there. I for one should know, I've met quite an abundance of different people through my life. But there is one thing I will say, guys don't be afraid to use the remote control vibrator. It can spice things up to a

Saturday 4/28/07
Just another average day here, I listened to DJ Cracker on Crush today, and stalked her online while she was djing lol. The crush room has been dead lately, so have been going to the trivia room and a couple others alot and they are alot of fun to chat and play trivia and other games in. I got lazy today, and forgot to call a friend of mine to see if she wanted to do something next week, so I'll have to wait and do that tomorrow, which is probably better anyway though because she'll be off work. Well, not much else to write about tonight, so I think I'll end this here and go chat and listen to music a bit longer before I go to bed, have a great night all.

4/27/07
Friends and family who've been unreliable now have to earn your trust. Keep that in mind. While it's important to give people the benefit of the doubt, you can't be naive or silly about it. Remember that you are a valuable resource. **************************************************** Ok damnit...who's name do I start with first???

Just Because I Am Freaking Bored
Hello all. heres hoping you all are doing great, hoping your weekend is rocking. Mine is going well, I'm not drinking anything, I'm on a natural high. Not feeling any pain. just chillaxin doing my thing. So if you find yourself realy bored come on over to my page and have a laugh at my portraits. LOL. I think I may go to bed in a bit. had a busy day doing alot of nothing and I'm feeling a bit sleepy, so unless I get some entertainment I'm going to cry myself to sleep, lol , gotta love my boring crazy unique self, either love me or love to hate me, just know you are loving me for the right reasons and hating me for them as well. Slow ya roll and get to know me before you truly start to hate me please, thats all I ask. To the rest of you that have crossed my path and do like me, muahhhh much love to you, I love all of my Ct friends, you all are great, remember if you are partying do it safely and wisely , please dont drink and drive, have a dd or stay in one place. it doesnt pay

My Best Friend
When I needed to talk Your ear was always listening Your comforting words Always soothed my duobts your shoulder was always There for me to cry on You made me smile when Everyone else failed You were my best friend But when I turned my back Greedy palms thrust upwards Your tongue lashed out With ander and lasthsome envy Fists full of knifes Push deeper into my back Piercing my heart Draining all the life that was left My soul is dead You were my best friend done by christine

Let It Go For 2007.
The power of goodbye Let it go for 2007. By T. D. Jakes There are people who can walk away from you. And hear me when I tell you this! When people can walk away from you: let them walk. I don't want you to try to talk another person into staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring about you, coming to see you, staying attached to you. I mean hang up the phone. When people can walk away from you let them walk. Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left. The bible said that, they came out from us that it might be made manifest that they were not for us. For had they been of us, no doubt they would have continued with us. [1 John 2:19] People leave you because they are not joined to you. And if they are not joined to you, you can't make them stay. Let them go. And it doesn't mean that they are a bad person it just means that their part in the story is over And you've got to know when people's part in your story is over so that you don't k

Protective Subjective
so i feel shitty. like i'm no one worth knowing, like i'm no one worth standing up for. like i'm no one worth anyone else's time, energy or concern. it's not entirely true. there are a lot of people who appear to love, respect and care for me. they're just not anywhere near me, we're not involved directly in each others lives. so i'm stuck w/ what i got. a buncha apathetic passive fucks for friends and this stubborn hole in my heart that demands sooner or later that i find better. i've always been a loyal friend, always a strong loving voice to encourage, support and provide understanding. this is genuine so i will remain this way until the end, and i can't help but hope in the mean time that someday i will find the same. until we meet again, your artist m

All About Me!
All about me.....I many mental disorders: bipolar disorder, Intermitten explosive disorder, 2 other mood disorders that I cant think of the names, depression. Because of all these things, life for me is hard at times. I cant seem to keep a realionship going for long. Even though I am in one right now(with the love of my life) she understand that at times Im going to be out of my head. So she just holds on for the ride. Guess thats anybody can do with someone like me. I have come to learn that many people dont want to deal with someone like me. It is hard at times. It is also very upsetting when someone you love up and leaves because they cant handle all the mood swings. It has happened so many times to me, that I started believing that I was to blame, that I was just useless, that no one can love me for me. My own mother (who I love dearly god rest her soul) didnt even want me. I have said alot of nasty things about my second wife, but she must have been a saint to have stayed with me

Beltane Ritual
Beltane: Celebrated on May 1, it represents the end of the planting season and the beginning of harvesting. It also represents fertility, as the celebration often involves loosened rules for fidelity. Beltane Ritual The Beltane ritual should start before sunrise or in the evening of April 30th. This is to welcome the sun in and to make effective use of the bonfire. The party or the ritual should finish some time after sunrise. Incense, Perfumes :- Frankincense, Lilac, Rose Stones :- Emerald, Orange Carnelion, Sapphire, Rose Quartz Candles :- Green. Gold, Silver, and the 4 elementel colours, (yellow, red, blue, green.) Flowers/Herbs - Angelica, Ash, Belladonna, Bluebells, Cinquefoil, Clover, Daisy, Hawthorn, Ivy, Marigold, Rose, Rowan, Sorrel, Woodruff, Yellow Cowslip Tools :- Wand (preferably Oak), Athame, Cup with wine, Sword, Pentacle, Cauldron, White and/or Green Alter cloth, Fire, Salt, and Water containers. 3 lots of coloured ribbon. Music

Teddybear
YOU WILL BE THERE FOR ME,MY TEDDYBEAR, GIVE YOU A HUG FOLLOWED BY A KISS, IT IS YOU,THAT I SOMETIMES MISS, I SOMETIMES SEE YOU AS A BIG BROTHER, AND KNOW I DON'T WANT TO BE IN THE ARMS OF ANOTHER, A TEDDYBEAR CAN BE AN ANGEL TOO,FULL OF LOVE, AND WHERE IT COMES FROM LIKE HEAVEN ABOVE, I WANT TO HOLD YOU TIGHT, AND HAVE YOU NEXT TO ME AT NIGHT, WILL TOU BE MY TEDDYBEAR???

Harmless Flirting??
I enjoy engaging in cheeky comment exchanges, whether that be through e-mail, profile comments, blog comments, text messages, phone conversations or - GASP! - in person. There is nothing that can bring me up out of a foul mood then to receive an x-rated text in the middle of a shitty day. Intelligent flirtations are the best. Noticing something that a person likes and making mention of it. Turning it around on them in a devious manner, adding hints of sexual perversion. I can weave a suggestive tale with the best of them. Yet, there are times when I've got a huge machete with which to cut to the chase. When I was in high school, I never understood the habit of talking around things or having your friend do the "dirty" work for you. On that note: have you ever noticed that a lot of the time, those we send in to help us flirt end up taking the person that we were interested in first? Spend all that time sending the messages and then they decide they want that person for themselves.

Hugs
It's wond'rous what a hug can do. A hug can cheer you when you're blue. A hug can say, "I love you so" Or, "Gee, I hate to see you go" A hug is, "Welcome back again! " And "Great to see you!" Or "Where've you been?" A hug can soothe a small child's pain And bring a rainbow after rain. The hug! There's just no doubt about it, We scarcely could survive without it. No longer do you have to worry, For a hug is the way to say "I'm sorry." A hug delights and warms and charms, It must be why we all have arms. Hugs are great for fathers and mothers, Sweet for sisters, as well for brothers Chances are some favorite aunt Loves them more than potted plants. Kittens crave them Puppies love them. Heads of State Are not above them. A hug can break The language barrier And make the dullest day Seem merrier. No need to fret About the store of 'em. The more you give The more there are of 'em So stretch those arms without delay, GIVE SOMEONE A HUG TODAY!

Prayers Needed Again
Hey everyone My sister was admitted into the hospital again last night. She needs to have surgery yet again for the same thing she had surgery for the first time. So please keep her in your thoughts and prayers please and thank you. love you all Bren

Secret #3
Being negative and being confident do not go together. Like oil and water, they just don't mix. Being negative opens the door to a lot of problems and disappointments, which fuels the fire for more negativity. Fear is the *dark room* where all your negatives are developed. So why not look at the brighter side of life and believe something good is going to happen to you? Many people, when encouraged to think positively, often reply, *That is not reality.* But, the truth is, positive thinking can change our current reality. God is positive--its the way He is, the way He thinks and the way He encourages us to be. Romans 8:28 says, *And we know that God causes EVERYTHING to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to His purpose... Therefore, being positive is simply a matter of looking at things from God's perspective. Its keeping our thoughts in line with the truth of His Word. What kind of thoughts are filling our head? Are they agreeing the Scripture

About Me
*excuse this blog, I've never made one before* Allow me to elaborate on my profile's "about me" section. Why am I doing that here? I figure anyone who actual wants to know about me would dig a little deeper. To start my name is Amanda, and I HATE being called mandy, it's not my name. I am twenty years old at the moment. I know my profile says 21 and I'm not sure why, but I will be on mothers day. I have one child of my own, Ke'li(Keely) Marie who is 8 months old. I also have four step-children. Destiny, who is 6 is the youngest, Travis(12), Brandon(13), and Michelle(15). Yes I am aware that I am only six years older than his oldest. My old man Royce is 34. His oldest three live in Tennessee with their mother so we don't see them much, but we get Destiny every other weekend. So really it's just Ke'li, my old man, and I here at home. High school was a struggle for me, I've always been a misfit. Not girley enough for the preps, not tomboy enough for the sporty. Even tho I

A Smile Of Pleasantries
A symbol of Justice and Honior defines me, yet forbidden thoughts race through my mind. I am greeted by a familiar smile that holds more than I am allowed to know. She believes me to be safe, a creature she understands. She could not be more wrong. The desires that swims behind my pleasant smile sends chills through my soul. I ache to touch her face, to caress her soft skin and know its secrets. I wish to tangle my hands in her beautiful silken hair as she lets her hands drift over me. I yearn to kiss her gently on her neck, to hear the soft moan of her approval as she holds me fast. I crave to hold her supple body against mine. I stare into her eyes, the color of the sky after a summer storm, and hold my feelings inside. I know her to be a forbidden pleasure, yet I cannot avert my gaze. I am forbidden by the Master I serve and the seemly false vows I have spoken. I speak with measured patience and tempered words, afraid she would shun me if she were to know what truly

Limiting Time..
I know I said I was limiting my time on CT... but can I use it as an excuse not to mow the grass? PLEASE? :) My stepmom made an awesome strawberry pie yesterday and sent the last piece home with me... and I just finished it. I think that was the BEST pie I ever had. I want MORE!!!

Before You Open Me
Before you open me Make sure this is truly something you want to do Right now all you have is an outside view Are you ready to explore what lies within? Think about this for a while before you begin What you’re about to experience is very precious Some would say priceless I am wise beyond my years as my soul is old Some would say ageless Few have scratched the surface And many failed to grasp its meaning Of the life that has taken me Far beyond simple dreaming. Are you prepared to dive Into the black sea of my soul? Can you abandon all your fears And all that you’ve been told? Are you ready For a new kind of addiction? I think you like danger At least that’s my prediction Learn what makes me smile And what touches my heart Learn why it is I relish the dark Hear the laughing demons Tuck me in at night Feel the lustful passions Lurking behind my blackened sight Open me Touch my pages Be careful I can be quite contagious Smell the scents of st

Searching
Searching,seeking no stone left unturned. wondering,waiting a hard lesson learned. where are these answers.when will i find. That which will ease this troubled mind. so i go down an endless road.to face the unknown and bitter cold. Where it will take me,no one knows.but it is my road to travel. The Lord of Sorrows.............

No Longer A Dj
i am leaving dj, i may or may not come back as a dj, but as 4 now im done djing. as for being in lounges, i kinda lounge hop, but i spend most of my time n support. if u would like 2 get ahold of me 4 further info, u can yahoo me if u hav my yahoo, or shoutbox me, i will get to it as soon as i can. thank you, ÐËTH

Guys This Is Very Important
if we r going to comment bomb the bombers contest we all have to have verfied salutes so if u havent done it yet get on it now thanks...it opens the 12th at 7pm central time..ill put the link asap.when i get it..

Something To Think About.......
So this is my horoscope for today. I looked at it for several minutes, which is something I never do. I seem to read them, laugh and discard them. this one stuck out to me though. Maybe it's because I am always in the gym and the physical aspect stuck to me...... not sure. Tell me what you all think about this. The toughest thing in the world isn't beating someone with your superior mental or physical strength; the toughest thing in the world is being strong enough to be vulnerable. Take a risk and show your real self to someone who counts.

Quote For May 1
He who controls the present, controls the past. He who controls the past, controls the future. -- George Orwell Bonus Quote: I want to fly like an eagle To the sea Fly like an eagle Let my spirit carry me I want to fly like an eagle Till Im free Oh, lord, through the revolution -- Steve Miller This public service is brought to you daily by CT's Yoda©, speak to you I will!

The Wreck
Anoher tease...who knows when more will come...depends on reacion I guess. Cyssan; The Kiss of Death Marcus Slaine, once field captain of the SchutzStaffel, maneuvered his motorcycle through the treacherous Romanian mountains. The clouds billowed behind him, a cloak of darkness threatening to engulf him. He throttled the cycle faster, not wanting to be caught in the impending storm. The thickening sky glowered over him, retribution for his treason. Until a few days ago, he had been a respected member of the German army, helping to secure the Lebensraum, the Fuhrer had promised. After the failure of the first World War, the German people had been crushed, dictated to by outside forces. Hitler had brought the hope of living a better life, free from such bondage. But somewhere, things had gone horribly astray. Marcus had become concerned when the focus to round up the Jews began. Yes, they posed a threat to the national economy, hiding millions of deutschmarks away, but were it r

Long Road. Wrong Road.
For so long, I have been riding on the long road. Nobody stepped in to tell me it was the wrong road. Going straight towards nowhere, full of no-cares. Lost track of where the lines were, stuck in a blank stare. I crashed 20 miles back, I've been walking since then. It takes a lot out of you to walk through this heat. But to get to civilization, you walk to your own beat. My boots are almost out of falling of there soles. My clothes are tattered, dirtyer than hell. My soul is the only thing that I will not sell. Everything else means nothing to me anymore I've nothing more than a slave, bought and sold. Yelled at and told that I will never make it. All this water floods in on me, they say I can't take it. I'm still here though, it's raised to my neck. I can either fight the current, or fight my death. I'm almost back on pavement, almost out of enslavemnt. The days grow longer, and my back gets weaker. My steps get shorter, and the hills get steeper. You become more o

Dating Sucks
I was seeing this guy for about a month, and one night we were suppose to go to a party. But instead he text messaged me and broke up with me. How nice! 6 hours later he was kissing all over another woman, and took her to the party. I just happened to be there, that was a blast. But i don't get it now he wants me around again, and hardly ever talks or see's the other woman. Should I move on, and say fuck it. Or do I give him abother chance?

500 Dollar Shopping Spree
WHO WAS THE 16TH PRESIDENT OF USA YOU CAN USE THE MONEY DURING HH OR NOW..SEND ME YOUR SHOPPING LIST..U CAN SAVE YOUR MONEY TO SEE IF U WIN ANOTHER CONTEST..YOU CAN PICK ANY VIC GIFT IN YOUR WINNINGS BUDGET..JUST EMAIL ME YOUR SHOPPING LIST IF U HAVE BEEN DECLARED WINNER

First Memory Of The Cave
A new friend asked me about my favorite childhood memory. So, I decided to tell him about the cave. I was four years old the first time I went to the cave. I remember that Mom and Dad told us to hurry up and get our shoes on. We were going on one of our many Sunday trips, so we were excited.We never knew when one of these Sunday trips would happen, for I really don't think my parents ever knew until the spontaneous idea would hit my dad. We could end up close to home on an adventure along a creek, or we might end up driving across state borders just to spend a couple of hours at some great spot that Dad had wanted to check out. So, I had gotten my shoes on and had gotten bored waiting for my mom to get my younger brother and sister dressed. I happened to spot some peppermint.....the soft sugary kind......on a shelf above the buffet. I love peppermint, always have, always will. I decided that no one would miss that one piece of peppermint, so I pulled a chair up to the buffet a

Fingerlickin' Good (lords Of Acid)
If it's lovin' you want, I got the thing that you need If it's love you wanna get boy, I'm gonna mess up your head I'm in the mood - I'm in the mood I'm in the mood for something sexy from you baby I'm in the mood - I'm in the mood I wanna hear you talk dirty to me baby Whisper things in my ear - say what I wanna hear Don't be shy, let it out Baby that's what I'm all about I'm in the mood - I'm in the mood I wanna hear you talk sexy to me baby I'm in the mood - I'm in the mood I wanna hear you talk dirty to me baby Absofuckinglutely Mindblowing Supersexy so delicious Fingerlicking good

A Dream.
Anarchy Ashe..: how's you? GothicPoet66: Shaken up. GothicPoet66: But otherwise awesome Anarchy Ashe: why shaken? GothicPoet66 I had a really bad nightmare last night Anarchy Ashe Was it about ET? o_O GothicPoet66 No. GothicPoet66 haha. GothicPoet66You were in it. Anarchy Ashe: wheeee GothicPoet66: But you were the priest from N3. GothicPoet66: and sam was too. GothicPoet66: but she looked like this girl i went to school with, Selmie. Anarchy Ashe: o_O GothicPoet66: it was terrible though. GothicPoet66: we were all on a road trip. GothicPoet66: and we stopped at a house you used to live at. GothicPoet66: it was in a quiet town. GothicPoet66: there were rumors about the house. GothicPoet66: it looked like something from fatal frame. Anarchy Ashe: Those rumors aren't true! Anarchy Ashe: I never touched that donkey! GothicPoet66: and sam saw two of her friends, and ran off to them. one was a blonde girl, the other a black haired guy. GothicPoet66: and so you showed

Job...
soo i apparentlly have a job now...at this Smoothy place they are building by my house, been following up with them, and the owner called me today had a little phone interview and he says hes going to higher me, dont open till next month so will see how this goes, should be an intresting place to work...

Always The Last To Know
Always The Last To Know Smile to hide the pain deep in my heart, Smile to hide the sorrows you left me. Winter comes, Winter goes, But why is it so cold in my summer? Why is it so dark in my love? Is it just the way you left me here or is it just me, Still thinking about someone who never really loved me? Leaves fall, Leaves grow, Leaves change color, The smile comes and fakes away, Like those many season when I was always the last one to know when you’ll come back, And where you were going. Your heart was so cold, Your love was unkind to my empty heart. I’m always waiting for you no matter what happens, Even if the snow falls and covers up the world, I’ll look for you under the cold wind, I’ll look for you, Look for that smile, Look for the happiness you once gave me, Because no matter what I do, I’ll never be able to forget your love, Forget you

Rules To Follow Or Leave!
1. Be yourself. Dont pretend to be something or someone else. 2. If your on CT 4 a popularity contest then leave. 3. If your Homophobic and dont support Gay and Lesbians LEAVE AT ONCE!!! 4. Dont Comment me after a while and dont do anything to peek my intrest in you Im cutting you loose. 5. Communication with me is essential if you want to remain my fan or friend. 6. I like metal but if you dont well thats cool but I just want to meet people who are similarly minded. 7. I curse alot so if your prissy and tell me to "watch my mouth" then your not worhy of associating with me. 8. Im on myspace. Http://www.myspace.com/masteravelino 9. Im not a perv. 10. Ive already found someone of romantic intrest so dont even bother me with the I like you shit. 11. If you even lie to me once, thats it your cut! 12. No drama, No Bullshit, Attention Whores need not apply! 13. If you think I am fake simply because I dont have a salute posted just yet then leave! 14. I

Searching For A Dream...
i just wanna escape from this. i've journeyed so far, but i haven't moved. searching for something. to calm and soothe. a feeling like this one. i can't seem to shake. i'm lonely with anyone. searching for the word fate. my mind's set on a dream. something i can't awake from. searching for perfection. feels like an endless run. what path am i on? the tunnel is dark. searching for a way out. me, with this heart. i listen as i walk. try to envision my dream, searching for an answer. i wonder if it's not what it seems. searching for something. something i can't explain. i feel some kind of hole inside. some kind of pain. searching for a night sky. with a cool wind in the air. that instant happiness. feel it blow through my hair. searching for a feeling. i haven't quite found. listen to a whisper. need to find a sight for my sound. am i searching for a dream?

Fuck
Spread the legs and go at it! Pick any of your friends and FUCK THEM! This is for any one you think is hot! Keep reading and you will find out that this is not some gay thing. RULES: 1- You can fuck the person who fucked you, of course. 2- You can fuck the same person as many times as you can (c'mon, ENDURANCE)! Be creative!* 3- You -MUST- spread the sex! At least 1 fuck is fine and dandy! 4- You should fuck in public! Be adventurous, damn it. Paste it on their user page so they feel slutty! 5- Random sex is perfectly okay! 6- Please, don't worry about same gender fucking, it's HOT. 7- You should most definitely get started fuckin' right away! 8.FUCK THE NIGHT AWAY.. 9.DO IT AGAIN IN THE MORINNG This is about showing everyone how much you care for them and HOW BAD YOU WANT THEIR ASS! Make everyone feel a little loved (and roughed up!). Please don't take this too personally, BUT I JUST FUCKED YOU!!!!!!!!!!!! F.U.C.K Stands For: Friends U Can Keep. So promise me we'll F.U.C

Your Fav Kama Sutra Posistion
Karma Sutra PositionYour Karma Sutra Position isThe SwanShe sits upright upon him, her head thrown back like a rearing mare, bringing her feet together on the bed to one side of his bodyGet Your Karma Sutra Position at NaughtyQ.com

Vote For *b* Read The Bulletin
So I need all my cherry hotties to check out the bulletin I posted and COMMENT BOMB&RATE my pic for the contest I am in....*lol* It goes til May 10th so hop to it and show me some luvs every day!! MWAHZ Cheerz~*B* your Aries Angel

Yes, Men Have Standards Also
no botox no plastic no boyfriend no husband no job no teeth no spirituality no freakiness no breasts no friends no sense no honesty no sense of humor no meat(on the bones and/or in yer mouth) no dress no heels no goals no bullshit no cooking ability no intellectuality no personality no opinion no class no fetish no, i'm not going to change for you or anybody else, because to change is to not be me(for better or worse).

Open My Eyes To Dream
The moon soft as a December snow fall, Covers you, covers me, I reach my hand to you, And ask you to dance with me, Time slows down, The worlds eyes on me and you, I can't believe this dream, Is coming true, Rest my hand on your cheek, as I get lost on your eyes, Run my thumb across your lips, And Thank God you're mine, Stars fall around like a fairy tale, As our hearts and souls unite, The truest love anyone has known, God made for you and I, The treasure before me, Worth more than more than diamonds and gold, My life, My very soul, I hold you so carefully, But always safe from harm, Hold you when you're broken, And forever keep you warm, Run my fingers through your hair, As I feel you run through me, close my eyes and whisper I love you, As you open my eyes to dream.

My "good Ol' Days"
You're a 90's kid if: You can finish this [ice ice _ _ _ _ ] You remember watching DOUG, Ren & Stimpy, PINKY and the BRAIN, Animaniacs, Bobby's World, Felix the cat, THE TICK.... AAAAAAAH Real Monsters! You've ever ended a sentence with the word "PSYCHE!" You just cant resist finishing this . . . "Iiiiiiin west philidelphia born and raised . . ." You remember TGIF, Step by Step, Family Matters, Dinosaurs, and Boy Meets World. You remember when it was actually worth getting up early on a Saturday to watch cartoons. You got super excited when it was Oregon Trail day in computer class at school. You remember reading "Goosebumps" You took plastic cartoon lunch boxes to school. You still get the urge to say "NOT" after (almost) every sentence . . . not If you remember seeing hot tub bubbles make bubbly sounds before every music video on VH1 for POP UP VIDEO! when everything was settled by rock paper scissors..or bubble gum bubble gum in a dish...eeny

B Salutes
Ok so I am making on my page a special animation section for anyone who makes a salute for me!! If you make one and send it to me I'll put it on my page!!! TY to Surf Borden for the idea *lol* Cheerz~*B*

I Love You For Who You Are (revise Lol!!!)
"I LOVE YOU...NOT ONLY FOR WHO YOU ARE...BUT FOR WHO I AM...WHEN I AM WITH YOU" I LOVE YOU FOR BEING YOU EVEN IF IT'S WRONG EVEN IF I CAN'T EVEN IF I SHOULDN'T DON'T TELL ME NOT TO FOR I NEVER EXPECT ANYTHING FROM YOU DON'T STOP ME FROM THINKING ABOUT YOU DON'T STOP ME FROM CARING FOR YOU FOR I WOULD LOVE YOU... FOR WHO YOU ARE... EVEN WHEN I'M NOT WITH YOU...

The Love Of Your Mother
The Love of Your Mother Your Mother is always with you. She's the whisper of the leaves as you walk down the street, she's the smell of certain foods you remember, flowers you pick And perfume that she wore, she's the cool hand on your brow when You're not feeling well, she's your breath in the air on a cold winter's day. She is the sound of the rain that lulls you to sleep, The colors of a rainbow, she is Christmas morning. Your Mother lives inside your laughter. And she's crystallized in every tear drop. A mother shows every emotion......... Happiness, sadness, fear, jealousy, love, hate, anger, Helplessness, excitement, joy, sorrow.....and all the while, Hoping and praying you will only know the good feelings in life. She's the place you came from, your first home, and she's the Map you follow with every step you take. She's your first love, Your first friend, even your first enemy, but nothing on earth can separate you.Not time, not space.....

Another Prayer For The National Day Of Prayer
Now, this isn't the prayer I was looking for. (The original prayer had words like "impotent false savior" and the like.) On top of that, it's a day late. However, it's still pretty good. Enjoy!Hey brothers and sisters. The original version of this little rite of blasphemy, I think, was on www.theisticsatanism.com/geifodd. Someone that I used to be friends with revised it to his own liking and I've kept it close to his revision with just a couple of minor adjustments.The Four Crown Princes of Hell that I use are different from Anton LaVey's version because Satan (East and South) is the Chief God and Ruler of Hell and all of the Demons, and Beelzebub (North), Astaroth (West) and Azazel (South) were extremely popular Gods in the ancient Pagan (That's what Satanism was called before judeo-xianity) world. Satan was known as Enki, Ea, Ptah, Neptune, Melek Ta'us and Shaitan (the Creator), Beelzebub was known as Enlil and Baal, Astaroth was known as Isis, Ishtar, Astarte, and Inanna-- ye

For Cherry Lips Paying Now
clowns send me another email subject 2nd cherry....ty ai will send all pimpin gggggifts 1st scheduled hh or sooner Once a dog named Nelly lived on a farm. There were three other dogs on the farm. Their names were Blackie, Whitey, and Brownie. What do you think the fourth dog’s name was?

This Is Ridiculous!!
OMG what the hell? The first Friday I have to myself and I have no idea how to entertain myself. This is strange as hell. You would think that at 24 years old I would have found a way to keep myself from being this bored, but nope, no luck there! So I guess if anyone feels like chatting hit me up!

What The Hell
Why is it that i'm always getting blocked for 10 minutes from rating? That is so annoying I didnt think i was that damned fast. Anyone else have this problem? This site annoys the hell outta me sometimes!

When Are You Gonna Believe That I Care?
suddenly it rocks. everything blown to bits. aww heck. and we haven't even gone to the good part yet. i'm not nice. i'm not always chipper. i very rarely care. im sorry that i cared whether u'r here or not. should i be sorry i get disappointed if u can't be here? it's a mistake to have opinions. to want. i already have so many faults and mistakes. and i will make more of it as i go through life. so i'd appreciate it if you would not think of mistakes i haven't made yet. those u imagine i will do or could do. i'm neither pretty nor do i sleep around. those traits i wasn't blessed to have. we talk of everything. dreams, hopes. sex. yet feelings is taboo? we can't share diappointments? you don't believe that i think you're trying? we can't be mad at circumstances together? i can't tell you why im disappointed? i can't bitch about things because i'd get you down? i can't even try to get you smiling when ur sad. you have just one sure way of feeling better. like i shouldn't car

George Carlin Show Review
GEORGE CARLIN show WAS fucking amazinglly funny as hell! dam at 69 years old Carlin still managing to be funnyer then EVERY comic out today! dont get me wrong i like Lewis Black and Dane cook but compaired to CARLIN these guys arnt shit! he was great live, had another comic open wich was pritty funny, Nick something see carlin was soo good i cant even rember the opieining comics last name... i got a cool shirt and poster of 2,000 Offensive words and Phrases compiled by the Genious himself George Carlin (no the shirt doesnt say genious i just added that cuz its true!) Carlin covered many things such as our "god given" rights..told some great offensive jokes wich im sure i will be shareing with you all...but the best was how he makes fun of and puts down these religous people and god..(we all know how anti religous i am so i cant help but love that material!) oh and all these jokes and material he had was all NEW no old stuff, woulda been good to hear soem classics but this new stuff

The Book Is Moving
It's fun watching the two books being bought. I wasn't sure if Motivation, Get it Keep it would sell any copies beyond family but it's been a year now and it's still picking up sales. Your Fitness Trip, Start, Have Fun, Don't Stop is getting exceptional comments from those who have read it so I'm hoping more start buying it. The next book Quincy and Me is still being written and it is a great story. If it gets good exposure it will make the best sellers list.

Quiz
Imaginative, erotic, passionate You prefer to have one partner and to try everything with them. You have an enormous sexual appetite, and you often create sexy scenarios to play out with your significant other. Take this quiz at QuizUniverse.com

Finally!!
I finally took care of my boring and rather uninforming profile...I like it much better now, though I'll probably get sick of it again and change it....AGAIN like I do with ALL of my profiles scattered all over everywhere... I got so bored with one of my profiles out there that I actually deleted it JUST so I could start out from scratch with it.

Bachlors
I AM JUST SETTLING IN,MY NEW HOME WITH SOME BACHLORS,YOU KNOW I DON'T MIND HAVING BEER IN THE FRIDGE,WATCHING SPORTS,GETTING ROWDY,TELLING DIRTY JOKES,OR EVEN LOOKING AT OTHER WOMEN,I DON'T MIND THE TOILET SEAT UP,BECAUSE GUYS WILL DO THAT,I LOVE THE SWEET SMELL OF A GUY AFTER HE HAS COME OUT OF THE SHOWER,DON'T MIND FIXING MEALS,CLEANING,ECT,...BUT JEEZ,WHY DO THEY HAVE TO BE SO MESSY???HAVE THEY EVER THOUGHT MAYBE THEY COULD LAND A GIRL???I WILL NOT DO EVERYTHING,BROKEN GLASS IF YOU BREAK A GLASS PICK IT UP!!!DON'T JUST KEEP IT ON THE FLOOR,GARBAGE IS FULL TAKE IT OUT DIRTY DISHES ALL OVER THE HOUSE WITH MOLD OR CIGARETTE BUTTS EITHER DO THEM UP OR THROW THEM AWAY,...POPCANS YOU CAN PUT SOMEPLACE,AND ANYWHERE ELSE THATS NOT CLEAN,THAT'S WHY CLEANING PRODUCTS WERE INVENTED FOR.

This Made My Heart Tug
I have my youngest son timothy every other weekend and this is my weekend with him.Last night me michael and the kids all went to the movies and saw meet the robinsons(great movie).We got home kinda late and got up a bit early because my oldest son had a ball game.Needless to say after they ate lunch they were real winny so I made them lie down for a nap.My youngest son was in our bed and michael laid down next to him.Now this is what made my heart tug.My youngest son snuggled up next to michael and went to sleep.AAAAAAAAAAAWWWWWWWW!!!!!!

Kinky Survey
What is the kinkiest thing you have done? let my boyfriend pee on me What is the kinkiest thing you have been asked to do? Roleplaying What is your kinkiest fantasy? Room full of hotwomen fighting over whos going to fuck me first Have you ever had sex in a public place? yes Have you ever had a threesome? yes Have you ever been with a member of the same sex? yes What is the kinkiest outfit you own? Prostitute outfit Have you ever been tied up? yes Have you ever tied anyone up? yes Do you like to dress up in the bedroom? yes Where is the craziest place you have had sex? front porch of my apartment Have you ever tossed anyone's salad? yes Have you ever worn anything belonging to the opposite sex? yes Do you like to be spanked? yes Do you like dirty talk? yes Do you ever take naked photos? yes Do you ever video yourself? yes Do you enjoy porn? yes Have you ever watched anyone have sex? yes Have you ever been watched having sex? yes

Alone In The Night
Alone in the Night He comes to me as I sleep. He enters my thoughts, and my dreams. Who is this man, this man I see? He stands there, looking over me. He speaks to me, his voice so beautiful and sweet. He reaches out and touches me, with his hands....softly. His lips upon mine. I move closer... his heart next to mine. The scent of roses is in the air. I awaken, no one is here. Alone again, in the dark. A hopeless broken heart How I wish to be free, with you next to me. We could soar to great heights, like an arrow in flight. No longer would I be, alone in the night. This moment shall last forever, the day we are together. We will love, we will cherish The feelings will never perish. Until then he is here, In my thoughts, in my dreams. This man, this man I see... Will he ever be a part of me?

Do You?
Do You? Do you ever miss the feeling of being loved? Do you ever miss the hugs you received? Do you ever miss those kisses? Do you ever miss the affection you give to the one you loved? Do you ever miss sharing laughter and memories with each other? Do you ever lie in bed and feel that it’s empty? Do you ever feel that half of you feels dead? Do you ever feel times of loneliness? Do you sometimes wonder what it would be like to lie in a loved one arms again? Do you sometimes want to share your happiness and sadness, But find that there is no one there to do that? Do you sometimes see others hand in hand And wonder what it feels like again? Do you wish that you could live those happy moments again? Do you sometimes feel you want to turn back time? Do you wish that you didn’t hurt that much inside? Do you wish that you never cried those tears, Of hurt and pain? Do you wonder why all this happened to you? Because I do. (C) Angel

Pieces
you consume my mind. make wrong things right. a missing piece, to the puzzle of my life. you soothe my nerves, and caress my soul. your mind inspires me. you make me long for life. you eliminate my fear. the calm amidst the chaos that is my world. you have saved my broken spirit. brought my will from the depths in which i had buried it.

1 Day Blast Contest
i need everyone who might compete in the contest....to send an email to the sponsor right now.....and tell him u are participating in the 1 day blast contest he sponsored.....make sure u tell him this contest...cause he has his own.....remember he said depending on his mood it might be a 3day..but for now its a 1 day...so send him emails and put him in a good mood...telll him thanks for the contest and if possible give him a gift...u need to send him this email in order to win the blast...so he can see that there are real contestants..and we can get future sponsorship...dont fuk this up guys.....if u sent an email already disreguard this ryellowfast07@ CherryTAP

For 500
as it stands official bitch is the champion..to become champion u have to win 2 times in a row..the number 1 contender is blueyes..but im going to predict 1 of these 2 wins the blast..i could be wrong..any bets?lol...anyway after reading all this bullshit to throw you off...1st eprson to drop a comment wins official bitch 1300 blueeyes 1300

Weekend Rambling
Drove out for my son's soccer game today. They won :). The other team was short a few players so David's team gave them 2 players each quarter. The ex wasn't there for the first half the game. When she did come her little girl sat in my lap and fed me oreos..lol. Of course she ate the cream out of the center before she gave me them. His next game is Wednesday evening. I guess Sue is not going because she asked me to take him. The game today was kind of strange. Since parents have a tendancy to yell and try to coach their kids from the sideline, they had a "silent saturday". You could only applaud for goals. No cheering and yelling as they ran up and down the field. Some people on CT amaze me. I know I don't have many pics up anymore, but when I did I rarely got ratings. Thats ok, I'm here for friends, not points. But I see some people on my list whine that they have thousands of friends and only a few rate their pics. There is one that I rated every one of her pics,

Till I Met You
I never dream 'cuz i always thought that dreaming was for kids Just a childish thing and i could swear love iS just a game that children play and no more than a game till i met you i never knew what love was till i met you this feeling seems to grow more everyday i love you more each day i believe you i believe in every words that you say i love you all the way now i could swear love is not a game that children play so tell me that you'll stay... P.S. THE POEM WAS A BIG JOKE HA HA!!!

Truth
I wish I could look into Your lying eyes And believe with my heart Once more… To be shaded once again From loves blinding light I wish I didn’t see the truth That was mocking me, Laughing… I wish I could go back To the way I was And believe your Promises… Oh, sweet promise Sink into me once more Blind me from truths To hard to bear Use me, abuse me Like all those times before Let me bask in the warmth Of false pretences For it hurts far less than Truth… I once was blind But now I see That the sweet words, so softly spoken Were naught but pretty lies You told to me ~Amy~

Daily Horoscope: Libra For May 6,2007
Stop kicking yourself over something you had no control over. Just sit down and deal with the ramifications. Once you do, you'll realize that there's no point in assigning blame. You've learned your lesson. Now move on.

Blessed
Have you ever asked when will it all come together, I do, with each day I give my blessings to all wanting to roll down that hill, to see that one star and make a wish, to say hello and smile to a stranger, what a feeling of joy that will pass into yours and my day. Just once today wink at someone you have never met see if they smile. Lets try to make this planet a better world. To all that I know, I love you! To those I have not met I am blessed to meet you. TOP Comment Graphics Hot Site FAV Myspace Tweaks Generators

Im The Devil
You are The Devil Materiality. Material Force. Material temptation; sometimes obsession The Devil is often a great card for business success; hard work and ambition. Perhaps the most misunderstood of all the major arcana, the Devil is not really "Satan" at all, but Pan the half-goat nature god and/or Dionysius. These are gods of pleasure and abandon, of wild behavior and unbridled desires. This is a card about ambitions; it is also synonymous with temptation and addiction. On the flip side, however, the card can be a warning to someone who is too restrained, someone who never allows themselves to get passionate or messy or wild - or ambitious. This, too, is a form of enslavement. As a person, the Devil can stand for a man of money or erotic power, aggressive, controlling, or just persuasive. This is not to say a bad man, but certainly a powerful man who is hard to resist. The important thing is to remember that any chain is freely worn. In most cases, you are enslaved only because

Lifes Just Always In The Way....
Since I had just oh, so much time on my hand, I had a lot to think about life. But I had summed up my thought as one thing: Life just gets in the way sometimes. In life, we seem to just beat up ourselves because things didn't just turn out the way we have planned them to be or wish it it to be. We hope to do one thing, but instead it turns out to be the complete opposite of what we wanted it to turn out as. Such as life in general. We all wish to be successful and be happy and find "ourselves". No one can cheat you out of unlimited success but yourself. But we kick our own asses if we don't get there as fast as we wish we could. we see others who are doing great and think "fuck, why can't I be like them?" then we highten up our expectations for ourselves which makes us feel worse. I admit it's tempting to wish for the perfect life, the perfect parent, or the perfect job. But maybe the best that many of us can do is not quit and play the hand that life's dealt us, and accessorize

Are You A Good Kisser
Your Kissing Technique Is: Perfect Your kissing technique is amazing - and you know it. You have the confidence to make the first move. And you always seem to know what kissing style is going to work best. Sometimes you're passionate, sometimes you're a tease. And you're always amazing! Are You a Good Kisser?

You Really Are My Destiny
honey...im so happy that i met you here at the cherrytap,even though we have a rough times always but still your the man i want....even though i say bad things about you but still your the man i love...you give me all the love that i need,the caring and understanding...your the man that i need for the REST OF MY LIFE...you really are my destiny,MY LIFE,MY LOVE,MY BESTFRIEND,MY HUSBAND.We have lots of fighting lol but still we do love each other...WE DO LOVE EACH OTHER..i feel what you feel,and you feel what i feel..thats why so hard for me for you to go away.I DONT WANT YOU TO GO AWAY..you are the interesting man that i met!VERY CHALLENGING....lol..I DO LOVE YOU,and i will always say I DO TO YOU FOR THE REST OF OUR LIVES.....we are strong and i know it.I LOVE YOU

Quantum Prose
Quantum Prose Who is to say true love cannot heal All that we need is a reason to feel Something to cause us to empty our cup Open our hearts, let love fill it up Believe in our ability to undo what we’ve learned Balance the addictions that continue to burn Create our desires, forget wrong or right Allowing ourselves to become twice as bright Let go the anger that keeps us from bestowing Love to the one who is most worth while knowing Have faith to pursue the possibilities of being Stretch out your consciousness to test what you’re seeing Enlighten your soul, to become more serene Begin each day as you wipe your mind clean Look for the clues that cannot be caught Control your life though the power of thought jskins

Livestrong Challenge 2007
LiveStrong Challenge 2007 I'm up to over $650! I am riding in the LiveStrong Challenge bike race in August. It is an event that raises money for the LiveStrong foundation, which supports cancer research and also gives support to survivors such as myself. Last year I raised $1,500 but I only had a month in which to fund raise. This year the goal is at least $3,000 which is very doable. Please leave anything that you can, I promise that this is not a scam or anything... It is just something that I believe very strongly in. I am a cancer survivor, I was diagnosed at 20 and I had a 5% chance of survival. Even a few dollars will save someone's life, someone just like me. My donation website: http://philly07.livestrong.org/macstrong215

Cold Snaps And Potted Snakes
Cold snaps and potted plants Garden Grass Snakes also known as Garter Snakes (Thamnophissirtalis) can be dangerous. Yes, grass snakes, not rattlesnakes. Here's why. A couple in Sweetwater , Texas , had a lot of potted plants. During a recent cold spell, the wife was bringing a lot of them indoors to protect them from a possible freeze. It turned out that a little green garden grass snake was hidden in one of the plants and when it had warmed up, it slithered out and the wife saw it go under the sofa. She let out a very loud scream. The husband (who was taking a shower) ran out into the living room naked to see what the problem was. She told him there was a snake under the sofa. He got down on the floor on his hands and knees to look for it. About that time the family dog came and cold-nosed him on the behind. He thought the snake had bitten him, so he screamed and fell over on the floor. His wife thought he had had a heart attack, so she covered him up

Cracked Not Broken
Cracked Not Broken She's still kinda beautiful... If you can look past the shell... Of the residue of spoons and syringes, it's hell... For a lonely single mother far gone from her family... And her sanity... That once reigned supreme above her vanity... How can it be that one from the epitome of normality... Can become a carbon copy of the masses of addiction... Moved past the glass... Stepped through the smoke into reality... Of injecting shrinking veins with doses of toxic fantasy... There has to be the possibility of recovery... But many failed attempts have born contempt from humanity... The sober see a weak minded individual with a dependency... On chemicals cut with common household commodities... To seek a spiritual bond with a fallacy that was created... When one has lost touch with their savior... But the addict swears to God no one can save her... From the demon that inhabits the phallic shaped utinsel... That sends the sewage spewing through her tissue wh

Bullshit
Ok-this has been buggin me for awhile-what difference does it make to anyone who im with? I mean geez-as far as im concerned-ITS NOBODY ELSE'S BUSINESS BUT MINE AND THE MAN I AM WITH-if i want to tell ya about it i will-i love all my friends here and i dont need anyone coming to me and butting in! ok my rant is done and ty for your cooperation lol-LOVE YOU GUYS!

Beginning Of The Day
She was awakened by her husband. She didn't speak two words to him, but headed down the hall towards the kitchen for a cold glass of mountain dew and a cigarette. She stared around the room disbelieving that their fighting had created such a mess. there were papers littering the coffee table and glasses still with drink in them staring at her from the coasters that littered the end tables. She shook her head and walked into the kitchen with her dog in tow. She couldn't go anywhere without her lil Snugglez. Adequately named of course for a 13 year old toy poodle who was going blind in one eye and weighed about 2.5 pounds soaking wet. She poured her drink and sat down in her black leather armchair still exhausted from the night before. Thankfully her 3 year old son had spend the night with his nana and wasn't there to hear his mother and father fighting. But it was probably going to be soon when he came home so she resigned herself to cleaning up after she finished her morning smoke.

Huge Problem! I Need Technical Help.
My computer shut off and when i try to turn it back on it says operrating system not found. Is there any way to get my pictures and word files off before it dies, or is it to late?

Lonely
i am so tired of being alone...even just for some company....the person knows who he is when he reads this...and i hope he does not take it out of context...i really care for him and i think he also cares, but not in the same way...he was right...i do want more but at this point in time i don't need a relationship...but his company ANY TIME would be fantastic and you never know what could happen...maybe eventually he will be ready...i just want him to know that i will be here...don't misunderstand, im not sitting around waiting, but i have only felt this way about one other person in my life....a simple smile from him makes me happy...a hug...warm and fuzzy and his kiss leaves me speechless (which is really hard to do..lol)...anyway...you know who you are...please call me or message me....I HOPE AND PRAY TO TALK TO YOU SOON...

How Sweet It Is To Be Loved By You
Hello my dear Ctappers. Whew it's been a hell of a day for me. But I survived as you can see. I'd tell you what happened but then I'd have to slap myself. Ok talk sweet and I may make it the topic of my next blogg, hehe. Ok well I'm off to see the wizard, the fucking wonderful wizz of ozz hehe, SEE ME IN YOUR NIGHTMARES, B/C I AM ALREADY SOMEONES DREAM COME TRUE MUAHHHHH . I'll be glad when this person reveals them self

Real Friends
*ROSES ARE RED.... DIAMONDS ARE BLU....I'LL FIGHT ANY BITCH THAT FUCKS WITH YOU!!! SEND THIS TO ALL THE PEOPLE ON YOUR LIST.. LET'S SEE WHO'S GOT YOUR BACK.. CUZ HOMIE I GOT YOURS!! P.S. I BETTER FUCKIN GET THIS BACK IF YOUR MY TRUE FRIEND

How We Depend On Our Computers
This just proves that we have become too dependent on our computers. Are you male or female? To find out the answer, look down... . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . Look down, not scroll down, dummy!

Poetry
hit me one more time, i already feel numb, your mouth is a sewer, i'm desperately trying to get away from, you think you are better, i see it in your eyes, everything you told me was a fucking lie i put my trust in you, gave you the benifit of the doubt, you rammed you hatred in, i'm still trying to carve it out

Never The Same : )
Sitting back, wine glass in hand, my mind swirls in thoughts of him. Remembering a time when this same thing happened. The results were the same too. I'd sit here thinking about him. How much I missed him. Everything about him. The magical way he had about him to make me smile even if I didn't feel like it. His soft touch, his tender kisses. And his firmer side, the side that wanted me so bad he'd throw me down. The side that caused him to call me his "cock whore". I missed it all. 'I wish I could change it' I think to myself. I didn't think I stood another chance. We'd already been here once before. And this time apart really felt like it was going to be for good this time. I tried to move on, but I found that I only got frustrated in other situations. It's not like I don't have other men interested in dating me. It's just, well... no other man will do if I can't have him. A single tear rolled down my face, onto my lip and I sucked in it's saltiness as I took another sip of

For Every
For every decision and indecision, For every mistake I make, For every chance not taken, For every path not explored, I wonder, Should I kiss you, Should I miss you, Should I tell you that I'm afraid, That in a short time I may lose you? For every thought, For every moment, For every reason, For every glimpse into the future, I wonder, Will I lose you, Will you miss me, Will I tell you that I'm afraid, That in a short time you may walk away? For every kiss, For every hug, For every lick, For every touch, I know, I would miss you, I would be sad, I would remember you, But I'm afraid, That in a short time you will be gone.

Which Way Is Up???
Which way is up?? Which way is down?? You get to be in charge I get to be the clown... to operate in world so harsh I can never stop the tears So many things just don't work even relationships over the years I guess I could just bend to your will and just do what you say I can make you have a reason to smile each and every day but what does that do for me when I honor everything you decide should I just revell in being close to you when every bit of me just dies Life is have and have-not It's about the choices we make I'll continue to give you everything and you'll continue to take One day I'll make sense of it all One day I'll find the meaning One day my words will draw an audience One day my soul will stop screaming On that day, my heart will take wing On that day, I'll see everything in a new light I'll know up from down and I'll know that some days I'm right Bryant..

Lol
A woman comes home and tells her husband, "Remember those headaches I've been having all these years? Well, they're gone." "No more headaches?" the husband asks, "What happened?" His wife replies, "Margie referred me to a hypnotist. He told me to stand in front of a mirror, stare at myself and repeat, 'I do not have a headache; I do not have a headache, I do not have a headache.' And it worked! The headaches are all gone." The husband replies, "Well, that is wonderful." His wife then says, "You know, you haven't been exactly a ball of fire in the bedroom these last few years. I have an idea - why don't you go see the hypnotist, and see if he can do anything for that?" The husband agrees to try it. Following his appointment, the husband comes home, rips off his clothes, picks up his wife in his arms, and quickly carries her into the bedroom. He puts her on the bed and says, "Don't move, I'll be right back." He goes into the bathroom and comes back a few minutes late

At Night
Sitting here about to cry Families and their children walking by Good girls finish last is what they say Holdin on pressin on every day Just hopin in the end every heartache will be worth it All those lonely days, lonely nights, nobody by my side Will it be worth it? Someone special out there for me One who cherishes and adores me Make a family, raise them right Just one of my prayers I pray at night

Have A Good Weekend
Have a good weekend sweeties... Hugs..Lorie my website for 5 yrs- http://www.southern-charms4.com/lorie my new yahoo group/ http://groups.yahoo.com/group/loriesc4/ for adults only!!! Sexy & Romantic glitter graphics from Sexi Luv.com

September 11,2001
My Walk With God There admidst the Thicket I laid, Trouble mind,and tears upon my cheeks. A Taunting dream of sparkling souls-they spoke not,yet I could hear their soothing voices. As they embraced my wretched form. A starry net shield my oul-as peace overwhelmed my very essence. As I follow that darken,and lonely path. A Night that clouds my mind. I turned around-toward that trouble heart. And soon! Illness found this kindred spirit. Agonizing pain stroke determination. Then suddenly from the voice within.A gentle whisper. "Lift up your head,for I am truly with you!" As the world came crashing down-On that September Morn. I knew not what the world had seen. For I laid within weariness,as evil crawled inside,and death,breathed upon my soul. Only for a moment in time-I let go. Suddenly,within the darkness-peace overcame. And within his strength,beyond compare. "Lift up your head for I am here!" I walked with God That dayAnd he tau

Frustration
Its my weekend with my son, and once again the ex tries to mess it up. I know its Mother's Day weekend but she has never wanted him before for it. If she did, all she had to do was ask. She didn't ask last weekend to switch so she could have him. She didn't say a word on Monday.. or Wednesday when I drove out for his activities. She didn't get on the phone any night I called and ask. In fact she said Monday how it worked out pretty good for me to have him since he doesn't have soccer on Saturday. So what message do I get on voicemail today? "Steve, I was just wondering whats up for this weekend? I will call you after school". Isn't it a little late to start asking now? ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I did tell David if he wanted to go home early for Mother's Day I would take him. But she has got to stop this game someday.

Im Already Dead
Lonely and hurt broken i remain residing in hell livin in pain masked by lies i slowly fade away the nightmare i live with each and every day the meaning of it all to which my mind attends has not one answer that i fully comprehend the bottom of my mind holds the answers which i call i keep reaching towards it in this never ending fall stay strong and keep going its nevertoo late no one seems to realize that its not worth the wait there is no such thing as help outside of your mind its you against yourself with your demonds interwined its a batlle hard fought but never to be won either way you end up losing when its all said and done too late, came and passed and of me nothing more i wrote my own ending and i shut my own doors live your life to the fullest thats what they all said but whats the point in trying if im already dead!!!

Promises
This ring I present to you, as a symbol of my commitment. My commitment to you, and to the promises I now make. I promise that you will be my one and only, the only one that I share my love with. I promise I will always be true to you, I won't ever break your heart. I promise to treat you like a princess, just the way you should be. I promise to never hurt you, whether it be physically or emotionally. I promise to lift you up, at those times you are feeling down. I promise to wipe your tears, whenever you need a good cry. I promise to keep you smiling, to show off that pretty smile of yours. Last of all, I promise to love you with all my heart, until the end of time.

For A Motorcycle..paying During The Next Happy Hour
1st person to drop 20 comments on the sponsors page wins....dont give up someone can get banned for rating.....good luck contact sponsor as soon as you win..and remember you will be payed during hh...u can keep the gift or give it away....****Official Bitch**** ~Bombshell Bombers Numma 2~ ...SBAB...^^Elite Bombers^^@ CherryTAP

I Just Wanna Drive....
I got a new car yesterday and I'm in love with it. I got a 2007 Impala blk on blk. It rides so nice. True imma miss my Cobalt but the upgrade was nice. I just love the smell of the new car sent! I just wanted to share my happiness...bye for now *muah* NaY

Well I'm Back....
I'm finally back on CT. I havn't been on much in last two weeks or so. A lot has been going on. First, my accident, the situation is finally starting to improve since the other driver's insurance company finally took liability for it all. Plus, I'm feeling way better, just a back spasm here or there. And then my grandma dying last Sunday. That was super hard to deal with, and the closure is finally coming so I'm relieved. I miss her though :(. But it's probably for the better, no one should suffer like she was. It's just been a loooong two weeks. So I called into work today, to just have a day with myself. I havn't had one of those in a while and with everything running through my mind, I needed one...bad. I just need a mental health day. A day away from my family, away from it all...But I'm back :) So hit me up sometime :)

Im Getting Pissed
NAACP probes school arrests Critics say 15 cases at Shore high school were mishandled By Liz Bowie sun reporter Originally published May 12, 2007 Police officers assigned to a small Eastern Shore high school arrested more than a dozen students in recent months for what critics say was simply misbehavior - prompting investigations by the NAACP and the Maryland attorney general's office. In one case, a 14-year-old girl known as a good student was handcuffed and escorted to the principal's office for talking back to an officer and refusing to sit down. The spate of arrests at Crisfield High School apparently began after the town Police Department stationed an officer at the high school in January. Between then and March 20, police officers arrested 15 students for a variety of offenses, nine of which were for disorderly conduct along with a second charge of resisting arrest or failing to obey. Of the students who were arrested, seven were 14 years old, one was 1

How Could I Have Fallen For The Wrong Guy?
You know they say you never know what you have till it's gone. But what if it wasn't gone someone else just has it because you were to blind to see from the beginning that he was interested in you so you just brushed it off thinking he was talking about someone else. Sometimes I have to blame the tomboy in my for that ,I'm kind of clueless when it comes to flirting and seeing when someone is actually interested in me or not. Instead I end up with the wrong guy,a guy that couldn't care less about me and drags me down in the gutter with his crappy life. Making me feel guilty and like shit. I have made a terrible mistake how does one redeem themselves from that.

To My Readers
hey all thanks for stoppin by and reading my stuff, means alot. means that you folks are keepin your eyes and minds open , keep it up and stay strong, and like i said before, we should unite on here and make this a great place for all bbw , so that down raters and mean and spiteful ppl with nothing else better to say cant say shit. we run ct, and thats how it is, so all bbw's on here lets bringit together, i couldnt say "come together" cause that would have sounded a bit wrong, but you ladies know what i mean, and this goes to all my sisters on the slim side as well, i love you guys too, you all rock. we all get on the same boat and show the world we aint no slouches on anything, we ppl of thickness can love and get down just as easy as any skinny person. cause we rock hard and work hard. until we are all seen as a unified entity , we will keep trying. i am all about my sisters on here. and to the brothers, you guys need to treat your women with some respect, and spread the word, cause

Darkness Inside
i close my eyes and all i see is the darnkess with in myself i see the flames i hear the screams but i really can not see anything i open my eues, its it it is still dark the burning inside is it is showing outside i can feel the heat hear the screams the are always with me the saddness of their mones i can hear the pain but theres nothen i can do no way i can help its inside me, its how i feel i cant change that it is constant tourture the pain will never stop i'v grown to like the feeling it intreages me so the tourture becomes quite pleasent to the mind that i know i close my eyes i can see the faces were the crys come forth i dont know these people but i contunie to hurt them as they are burnt and chained i get pleasure thinkin of this one that i can not discribe it is disturbing even to methis is the ned the end of my sanity i dont need it not with these thoughts it would only confuse me more then i already am i dont know how long

Grand Opening To My Lounge Come See Me Now
HELLO to all my friends and fans, I JUST MADE A LOUNGE IT JUST OPENED !!!!Grand opening tonight!!!! I'D LIKE TO KNOW IF YOU WOULD COME VISIT ME TONIGHT...HERE IS THE LINK: http://www.cherrytap.com/lounge.php?l=7382 HUGS N KISSES MISTRESS REENI IF U DONT KNOW HOW TO USE THE LINK COME TO MY PROFILE AND TO THE FAR RIGHT SAYS MY LOUNGES GO TO THE 2ND ONE CALLED MISTRESS REENI LOUNGE 4 DOMINATING PETS AND SLAVES HOPE TO SEE YOU THERE KISSES

Quote For May 13
Mothers are fonder than fathers of their children because they are more certain they are their own. -- Aristotle The real religion of the world comes from women much more than from men – from mothers most of all, who carry the key of our souls in their bosoms. -- Oliver Wendell Holmes Making the decision to have a child is momentous. It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking around outside your body. -- Elizabeth Stone This public service is brought to you daily by CT's Yoda©, speak to you I will!

Poems
Elements To take from the Earth.. is to nourish thy self and others. To feel the Wind.. is to be free and enjoy all life. To light a Flame.. is to find your way in the dark. To dance in the Rain.. is to bathe in the tears she can no longer hold back. To know the Spirit.. is to take in all Elements and live life in harmony. Do you know the Spirit? .......... Full Moon Invocation Mother, Goddess of moon and star, Bring your presence from afar, Manifest on this, Your night, and bless me in this sacred rite! Grant the knowledge and clarity, to understand Your words to me. Lend Your power, send Your light, Aid me in my work tonight! With love and wisdom please embrace, All within this sacred space. Mother, I now call to you, Bring Your message clear and true! ................................ Pagan Playground I leave my cares and world behind And drift away with a wandering mind To a place where dreams come true Where the grass is green a

Deep
your pain is the breaking of the shell that encloses your understanding it is the bitter potion by which the physician within you heals your sick self therefore, trust the physician and drink his remedy in silence and tranquility hughey "wingman" just heard this on a show and liked the way it sounded.

Bitchin'
the man has pissed me off again. today, i had to sit through three hours of orientation for a possible new job. after that i had to go and pee in a cup. this is where it starts. i get there and sign in. im sitting there for a while and finally someone says they have been sitting there for over an hour and havent been in yet. so me and my gf decide to go down for a smoke. we come back up and they say that i wasnt allowed to leave and they will have to check and see if i am still allowed to pee. WTF! if i were going to do something to my love gun for the piss test then i would have done that before i even got there. so if they are going to take forever, whats wrong with stepping out for a smoke. they decided they would put me at the end of the line of people so i sat there for almost two hours just to take three minutes and tinkle in a cup. then i go downtown to get a certificate for workmans comp. to begin with, i put a quarter in the meter and i get a whopping 12 mi

Mother's Day Blog By Donna
I had an absolutely awesome Mother's Day Weekend. I have a special needs child, so my hubby tries to make it a very relaxing weekend for me. Yesterday, I was taken out for lunch, and then I had a Barbecue Supper prepared for me by hubby and son. Today, I had the whole day to do whatever I wanted (by myself) so after I got ready, I started at the Flea Market. I bought 4 VHS Disney movies for my son, a Mike Weir book for my hubby, and two James Patterson paperbacks for myself that I never had a chance to pick up yet. From there I went for a nice cruise in my car with the sun roof open, my tunes cranked, and wound back up at my favourite place to just kick back and chill out. I took several photos there on the trails and then decided to come back home and relax some more. I've already uploaded 2 photos from today. Once I made it back home, they gave me my Mother's Day gifts. I had already picked out my flowering basket yesterday. I got some fudge, and a tripod for my

Things I Hate Today.....
I've decided to start a blog about things I hate. We do this in a forum I'm a mod for and it helps to relieve tensions and anxieties...not to mention let you vent...lol...so feel free to post a comment with your own hates for the day...it feels good to get it out!! So here goes.... 1) Long responses between IM messages or shouts...anyone awake on the other end? 2) men that think they are my Master..LMAO 3) rude customer service....whatever happend to being courteous? 4) weeds...need to pull those suckers soon 5) stubbing my toe on a hand weight and now the sucker is purple and hurts like a MUTHA...shit!

Because Of You
I see in you my tangled head With all our love and friendship dead. Now tears of salt flow bright and red ...Because of you I get frustrated and annoyed Because of pains I can't avoid The shattered heart, left destroyed ...Because of you You weren't man enough to say you were wrong And left me hanging for so long Now I feel I don't belong ...Because of you I feel pity for your sake One day your heart will also break I have learned from my mistake ...Because of you

"in A Dream"
WHEN I SEE YOUR FACE, MY DREAMS TURN TO LACE, FOR I HAVE FOUND MY PLACE, WHEN I SEE YOUR PLACE, WHEN I LOOK INTO YOUR EYES, I NO LONGER HEAR THE CRIES, OF MY SOUL DYING, AND MY HEART CRYING, WHEN YOU HOLD ME CLOSE TONIGHT, I NO LONGER FEEL THE FRIGHT, EVERYTHING TURNS RIGHT, WHEN YOU HOLD ME CLOSE TONIGHT, WHEN THE HOPES AND DREAMS I HOLD, ARE NO LONGER TOLD, I HOPE TOGETHER WE'LL GROW OLD BECAUSE YOU GIVE ME HOPE FORETOLD.

Wondering
For about a year and a half now my life has been ripped upside down. I was with my ex for almost 10 yrs and about 3 yrs ago I would have never thought we would have seperated. I thought we would live our lives out in dispare, becasue granted I wasn't happy but I made the best of it. Little did I know that us seperating would be the best thing for me. But it doesn't feel like I am at the happiest moment of my life. I love eveything that I have accomplished and the goals that I am currently reaching for...but there's one thing missing in my life and thats someone who can share certain things with me that my mom or kids can't. Right now I am sad and lonely and I just want to curl up and cry. I am a strong person on the outside but on the inside I am screaming, screaming so loud that I just need someone to hear me, to put their hand on my shoulder and tell me that they will be there for me and help me through the tough times that I will have. Then I find someone I like, someone I cou

A Mother Love
There are times when only a Mother's love Can understand our tears, Can soothe our disappointments And calm all of our fears. There are times when only a Mother's love Can share the joy we feel When something we have dreamed about Quite suddenly is real. There are times when only a Mother's faith Can help us on life's way And inspire in us the confidence We need from day to day. For a Mother's heart and a Mother's faith And a Mother's steadfast love Were fashioned by the Angels And sent from God above.

So Much For...
I thought when a person turns 21 they would have a pretty decent birthday. So much for that! My birthday consisted of sleeping on the couch, because I was bored. No drinking, no laughing, nothing. My "friends" had planned to go drink, but every half an hour I'd get another call, "you know what amanda, I just can't make it" So it was just me my old man, and Ke'li. That was fine, but then of course Royce just had to get out of the house, and went for a bike ride... I guess I'm just gonna have to get used to this feeling that people just don't give a shit.

Sad With Out You
My red heart is blue, because I'm missing you. Every day, I think about you, and I imagine how great every hour, every minute, and every second would be if you were here with me. Every night, when I lie in bed, I dream that you're beside me, holding me close to you. If you were, I'd whisper in your ear, how much I love you. Since you came into my life nothing has been the same. I've experienced love to its fullest, and I've tasted a beauty that never ends, because you're where my happiness begins. I'm incomplete without you, and I'll never stop loving you. You're the world to me, in brilliant colors. You're my best friend, a favorite song that will never end. And together is where we should be. Someday soon, I pray, that you'll walk through the door and take this heartache away.